@wakeupkitty 31 August 2021 more from that month

A slow start

**The weather changed** and I need to rush. I wasted too much time. I have to but I am tired. I try to go to bed earlier but if I make it at all I can't sleep. Sleeping has always been hard for me. The pain keeps me awake or wakes me up. I sleep on a painful back, feel cold and try to fight the nauseous. I wish I felt rested for once. A slow start... very slow start of the day. Out of bed, dishes, laundry. A fight with the old phone, Appics, Google and post.nl who sent their bot Daan home. At post.nl it's not allowed to complain about a lost parcel, not allowed to complain about the postman who lied. The postman whoever he may be, never rang at the door, never left a message and today I know he never left the parcel behind at the supermarket which is the place where all parcels of people not being at home end up. The postman is a liar and the track and trace info is fake. I cut a tree and the rose bush and pulled some weed. Easy does it, especially if no one gives you a hand. "Is it so hot," I ask while I sit in my chair. It's not hot but cold. Cold? If I go outside I notice it's warmer than it is inside. My new provider sucks I have hardly a connection. This has to change. I should paint the wood, the house it's a roof but it's no paint, no real varnish but a watery substance that drips all over my hand, wrist, dress and the new ladder. The varnish or whatever it is is not the same as what I used for the other roof. Let's hope it works. Tomorrow I'll see the result. Wasps are buzzing around my head they feel annoyed. A bunch of them stick together behind the small door. I close it and will buy a spray tomorrow. Those guys who installed that pole on my roof didn't kill them all. While I do the roof one child cleans my bedroom window and the other one puts tape on the crack. How come my children are so slow? How can it be I am faster varnishing the roof than they can clean a window? How come slow me does so much more?

I paint the window frame for the third time. Five times are most likely needed. It doesn't look bad, the half-rotten broken frame will make it through the winter. The house... all the repairments will look better one day. On that day I finished it which will be hopefully before the Winter starts, before Autumn. I hope it will remain for at least a few winters so what tired me does now doesn't need to be done soon again. It's cold, grey, windy, cloudy and at top of a 3-meter high ladder isn't the place to be. I still need to prepare the meal of the day. I keep it simple and low carb. Although keto didn't make me lose weight during the past weeks I am fine with it. I don't feel hungry at all. I lost my appetite just feel thirsty no matter how much I drink. No weight loss and I doubt I have more muscles but hey, you never know.

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