Accepted or tolerated? **How to be normal, accepted?** It sounds strange to hear how many people are not accepted by others. Those others called: family, friends, classmates, inlaws, school, work, the village we live, the sports club or the neighbourhood. For one reason or the other, it turns out to be impossible to fit in. If it comes to people they always find a reason to not like you. The colour of your hair, glasses, weight, age, the clothes you wear or your teeth. The…
Gym camp with bullies **"Explain the rules!"** It's what granny told my uncle after she entered the living and discovered my uncle was cheating. He was ordered to play with me so he picked 'Monopoly'. I don't like this game and playing with my uncle isn't different from playing with my dad. They need to win. They are very competitive and if they lose... Both are bad losers and I don't care. We never play this game at home. Granny asked which streets I owned which was only…
Trust nature, yourself for a change `Action = reaction.` `If you play it well you know how the reaction will be and use it to your benefit`. How it all started? It's hard to tell. Most likely it was long before the last two world wars. **Every war is a set-up.** Every war is never fought alone. There are always people who benefit from it. Those who start the fire by spreading the news, selling the weapons, those who keep fear alive and made people live or run or hide, those…
A boost of Vitamin C Vitamin C is it the lifesaver they say it is? The first tips showing up on the internet as soon as a killing coronavirus was mentioned were lemons. Lemons because of their vitamin C. Lemon juice would do the trick and keep you healthy. It's 18 months later and I wonder how many of you used lemons and are still as healthy as one could be. I wonder how many took care of their body for real. Before the WHO announced a fake pandemic and at this very right…
That terrible voice **I clean and clean and clean**. My hands are wounded but my mother doesn't care. She knows I have allergies, she knows I have to avoid water and so much more. She says she has to clean because of my allergies. She blames me for all the extra work I cause her and that's the reason why I have to clean the whole day and at times at night too. Her obsession with dirt is worse than it has ever been. My mother is neurotic and even after it is super clean and…
How to be happy? **We are not the same. People are different.** It is not true that we all are the same and therefore should act in the same way. This is what a society forces upon people, a society that set rules and doesn't care bout who you are and what you went through. Society doesn't care about characters, personality, individuality. Society is meant to keep a group functioning in a practical way and is willing to sacrifice people to realize that, to realize the…
The cat's eyes "*A cat in the bag*" is an expression, a Dutch expression. It means you bought or get something that isn't good, a disappointment. I can only guess about why a cat in a bag. Cats in bags was a way to kill them, cats I mean. First, the cats (kittens) go in a bag, next they are drowned. If a cat tries to go in a bag itself it isn't a bad sign. Cats love to curl up in tiny places and bags seem to be comfortable enough. At the moment the basket isn't the favourite…
Message in a bottle **Today isn't the best day of my life.** I woke up I did and it's me who has to live with the damage done to me. I am in pain, I still feel tired. I heard the nurses whisper together while they looked at me. Whispering is impolite, it is rude if other people are around. They say it will be alright but it's just what they say to calm someone down, to comfort a person. If I will be fine now and in the future, they can't know. I am a child but that doesn't…
E-bike or moped **The first thing I did as I went outside is driving around with the e-bike** in the garden. We don't have an English lawn and it's good to practise a bit in the country. The youngest offered to give me a hand with our never-ending DIY projects in and outside so I drove around with her too. First time on a moped in years and for my children, it is the very first time. It's a moped, not a bike. I tried the pedals but couldn't start although the one in the shop…
Easy does it? **It's easier said than done** especially if you are a working mom. I worked my entire life and from the day on I started I loved it. Indeed I am one of those people who loves to work, one of those women who loves to leave home behind, I am one of those persons who keeps work and private separated and... I am precisely and a workaholic. No matter where I am I do my job. At work (two jobs/employers) and at home (own boss and the housekeeping, raising, nursing,…
Keto diet or **What is healthy to one isn't for everyone**. A keto lifestyle is what we lead for the 4th week in a row. So far it isn't difficult. We skip as many carbohydrates as we can. Of course, it is possible to do without but not if you want to keep eating vegetables and fruits. I try to find a way to have it all but not too much. Once a did Atkins and it worked for me but so did "Fit for life" a diet that goes for fruits only. Fruits only will be hard since there's…
Suddenly it's there... A panic attack! **What a babies, softies and losers they are**, drama queens, all those people who suffer from panic attacks right? From one moment to the next they act weird, suddenly don't dare anything and hide inside, don't set a foot outside because the world frightens them or they are sure the heaven will fall upon them, doomsday started but it isn't a day but will last forever. If you listen to them it's clear they are nuts. Crazy people, not…
Drugged - a bedtime story "Tell me a story", they said I wish I could but you know what? It's empty inside my head. Totally blank it is. Not even a bang, beep or thought is left and I feel like the goldfish in its bowl we all like but which never gets old. It opens its mouth and swims around in circles whole day on and even at dawn It continues 'cause otherwise, it will fall. That fish... it's not different from me. Just like it, I find it hard to realize. There is nothing…
I kill you! **July 24, 2021**, was the last time I wrote. A lot has happened but if I think back it's not worth writing about it. My Summer vacation is nearly over. It started with my stay at granny's house, I joined the gym camp with the bullies and if I think back I still feel miserable about the sugar water. I forgot to tell you about the cute stone man they gave me. The mascot of Advendo is a huge stone figure called Kuub. They said it became babies and we all got one…
The secret life of No, this isn't about a person but items. Things many of us use and at times take for granted. The watch for example. How we are used to living by the time others forced upon us. It's hard to believe there ever been a time people didn't care about the exact time. A stick into the ground was enough to tell how much sun (day) was left. I am sure a lifestyle like that didn't cause as much stress as many of us feel today. We have to be on time. Showing up too…
Renault - the lemon Of course, this is the car I have and of course, it's broken again. I keep wondering how come I couldn't find all the trouble I have on the internet before I bought it. Believe me, I searched for it. I used the license plate number, checked how many owners it had, I bought it at a car shop where it stood in the showroom and at that moment it looked and drove good. Better than expected. I made a test drive with my daughter and after that, we picked up the…
Upstairs Most of the day I spent upstairs in the room. Grandmother doesn't have many visitors but if I am not allowed to be downstairs. The cleaning lady came. I like her and I think she knows me. On other vacations, I was allowed to be downstairs and grandmother gave me things to do like polishing silver and copper or beat the mats which is hard. The huge mats and rugs are hung over the wall and you need to beat them to get dirt and dust out of it. The cleaning lady always…
A gunshot **Residents heard the smoke alarm first**, they should have heard it first but didn't act. Each one of them ignored the fire set in the main hallway and elevators. "The thing about smoke alarms is they go off without any reason", one of the rescued residents stated while he sat next to the pool. A blanket was wrapped around his shoulders and he shivered for cold. " You know what I mean sir, it's no different from car alarms. You hear them 24/7 and do not even…
Christians & Free Will There are times those who say they are Christians are saying things that do not make sense at all. Not to me, not to others, not to those who really believe God created something good, or those who say Mother Nature knows best. It doesn't matter if it's Good or Mother Nature who started the world. It's not important if humans are made after God's example or evolution did it after a big bang. What counts is we humans are here and we are with many. What…
So much to do My back hurts so I hope it will not give up on me because there are still so many things to do. It was hard to wake up this morning but you know how it works... You wake up, need to visit the bathroom, go back to bed, tell yourself you stay for two more hours, cannot sleep, think of the past, future, a series you are watching and suddenly it's 9:30 a.m. I sent the children out to buy their bus tickets because school starts again. Next to that, I needed more…
Tomorrow everything is back to normal Grandmother is angry with me. She says I have to eat everything she gives me. I will never grow if I refuse to eat. I can't eat. The food is too much. First soup, next potatoes, vegetables and meat and after that yoghurt. I wish I could eat as much as other people do but I can't. I can not go to the bathroom either. My belly hurts but I cannot poop. Grandmother says if I walk all stairs up and down I can go. I ran all stairs there are…
The cat The cat on the lap is jealous. As soon as Poppy does something or asks to sit on a lap he wants what she wants. It's a bit strange since Poppy loves to be alone, is rarely in for a hug and never stays around long. She goes her own way and only pays attention if someone goes in the direction of the kitchen. The kitchen means food. It doesn't matter if their food is in the hallway the kitchen is food and food is always good. Well, not always since what humans eat is…
A slow start **The weather changed** and I need to rush. I wasted too much time. I have to but I am tired. I try to go to bed earlier but if I make it at all I can't sleep. Sleeping has always been hard for me. The pain keeps me awake or wakes me up. I sleep on a painful back, feel cold and try to fight the nauseous. I wish I felt rested for once. A slow start... very slow start of the day. Out of bed, dishes, laundry. A fight with the old phone, Appics, Google and post.nl…
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