I fell in love with a girl and fell in love with her, but I didn't get her. Not that I didn't try to get her. When my efforts didn't work, I started asking her for prayers. I prayed in every place where people used to say that I should go and pray there, God willing, it will be fulfilled, but still it did not happen. I have not been disappointed, nor am I now, nor am I now, because I know that there will be some wisdom in God. I have not received my love, but this love has put me in the love of God. I am calm and now I am addressing those who do not get their wish fulfilled. People who cut off their hands, go to bad parties and start smoking etc. I beg you not to do that. Not only do you have a right to life, but your parents, friends, relatives all have a right to it, it may not matter to you at the loss of your own life but from you Connected other people will make a big difference. So dedicate it to your family and see how much peace of mind you get.
Your story is really sad, but you should not despair, perhaps your goal will be achieved and you will get the best one day.