I couldn't stand it.
One day.
Since I can't reach you. What should I do? In order to have the answer to his question, I sat down at once, without thinking much, without hesitation, and wrote you a letter of nearly ten pages.
While I was wandering the streets of this city, which was all in a bad gray and a distorted color, I was experiencing the depression in my heart that had accumulated over the years. While I was sitting in the parks, the fake greenery surrounding me, the painted iron piles, the artificial greenery laid on the ground was overwhelming me.
I haven't been dreaming much in recent years, my dreams were only about my childhood; I was forcing myself to forget in the mornings. My childhood, where I felt happy and free, is the only wealth I have.
While I was always trying to direct my life with my own will, I saw/learned that I was only an individual who was forced to play the role assigned to me; I was just a fake image of our elders who scammed me with their false information until I was ten. I saw what I thought was right while trying to live and learned that I was alone, alone.
I forced myself so much to put into practice what I had dreamed of, how many scenarios about my life. Only years have passed since then.
They never stopped reading what they knew.
“YOU” who changed my life flow that day and until now, and your existence changed all the “bad” sides against life.
I'm laughing silently at myself..
Am I happy? Yeah. A lot.
That day I wrote you a letter; While I make appropriate punctuation at the end of every sentence I write, in my language I say, "I love you so much." I always repeated, repeated: “HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU.
You have heard of my letter for the last year, and I am sure you have read it. I HOPELY WAITED FOR NEWS. I FULL OVER OVER HOURS, DAYS.
A letter. I always waited for an answer. just to give hope to my renewed feelings.
If you remember, I insisted that you read it.
I sent you the letter, which is as long as my feelings of "love and affection", first as "LETTER" and then as "INTERMEDIATE SECTIONS" from the internet.
Maybe you wrote and if you write after that; I am always watching the mail with the excitement of seeing your/your face in every line of it, or a few lines you will write to me on social media…
Come on please.
If you write, my muffled world will breathe, I will come to life again; my songs and poems will gain more meaning.
If I get that letter of yours..
That is the moment when your heartbeats and my heartbeats merge and become one.
“The closeness of man to man is as much as the beating of his heart. Distance doesn't matter." Said someone with a heartburn like me.
Man prevents himself from enjoying many beauties, for one reason only, unknownness is because man is the enemy of what he does not know, as it is known, man is often the enemy of himself.
When you reach maturity, you look at it,
You don't wear things as much as you used to.
For example, you don't miss anyone as much as before.
And you don't waste yourself at night.
You become a little more fond of tea,
Or you drink a little more coffee. Because now you learn that no one thinks as thin as you do.
Nobody dies for anybody.
Or I don't know, no one interrupts their sweet sleep in the middle of the night for you.
So no one is sad like you.
Don't forget!
Whatever emotion you feed, only it grows inside you...
Come on now, please live a little bit of life for yourself.
'Cause whatever goes, goes out of your life
Why does ignorance arise? Out of ignorance.
Yes, an ignorant person cannot control any of his emotions, and uncontrollable emotions are in a turmoil, and thus the unknown blinds many of a person's emotions.
Vestigial emotions will affect a person's life in a very bad way.
Oh, why does a person imprison himself in the blind wells of ignorance where he should rise with the steps of knowledge, why does a person lose himself in the sea of uncertainty and make his life unlivable, why does a person become his own executioner when he should live his own joy of life?
We understand that a knowledgeable person makes the dungeon a palace for himself, an ignorant person makes the palace a dungeon for himself..
Don't you know that man is only human as he knows.
