@tiredmomma 19 June 2022 more from that month

Tonight I cried hard enough. Tonight I kneeled and pray to God. Almighty God, please heal Mum. Please restore her health. Please make her eyes glow again. Please bring back her strength Please bring back her smile and laugh. Please bring back the June that we know. Tonight she slept early. I can't believe it. Since she comes back from the hospital she's not well. But she won't say it. Because I know she won't want to go back there. But we look after her and tend to her needs. Make sure she eats. Make sure she will not fall. She just sits in the chair. Fall asleep in the chair. For a long time. That's not her. I know her. I can see it in her face. I can see it in her eyes. Tonight she ask for the commode chair to be put in her room. Not in a million years will I think she would ask for it because she's the type that "I can go to the toilet. I don't need a commode." I help her get change. I put on her nightgown. She can't get to the bed easily, I have to lift her legs and position her so she can sleep comfortably. I put the hot water bottle on her feet. She told me, she will be okay in a couple of days. And I told her, "Yes, you will Mum." I went out and cried. And then I pray. Because seeing Mum like this broke my heart. Today's Father's Day she tried hard to smile coz Tia ask her to do so. She's trying. I heard her saying she missed Dad. But told her, we are here. So she has to get better soon so we can go to the beach or she can visit her sister in Leeds. She said, she will shift it. She will be okay. And that's what I want to hear. And I believe that that's gonna happen.