And six months 6! I have extended it for six months, it may be less, it may be more. I wrote the word 'ex' thinking of you that day. I don't know if you understood. Everything I say is true. Here I am not doing any prank but. Life does not go to the prank. All those road things. I'm having a hard time accepting. Nothing looks good.

Well, you do one thing, think prank and forget everything. Which will happen. I can't forget the memories. I love you I can't shout this love, I can't stop you --- at the moment it seems, I am a failed man. I can't do that much, even though my habit of leaving my boyfriend is old. But I feel sorry for you, for our dream child, my heart is crying. He was supposed to come to this world. I was supposed to have a house, a family, a happy world. You will fall into my old habit, I can't accept it at all. There are some habits, which are not seen to be old in front of the eyes.

Has anyone ever sat so well? I do not remember! One thing you know, you're not really letting me stay. Don't go for less that your full potential. The whole world is on your side. You think of my happiness, but you do not understand that you are all my happiness.

Understand. Let the time come. You will shout and cry that day. Close the door and cry one day. Maybe that day I'll be busy fixing the child's name by sticking my head inside someone else's chest. You told me, living together becomes love, so why didn't you think of your brother so far? Do you mean love to me? Love if you want? If you want to go, so be it. I want you to show someone else well. You love me Yes, I'm sure. Can't say anything in the face, can't show more, but sit down.

Well, you left home for breakfast in the morning? Don't be angry. This is just a few months to ask. Then it's all over. You're about to lose the biggest treasure in your life ... Thinking about it makes me cringe! I'm having more trouble for you. The responsibility of keeping you well is slipping away from my shoulders, I have to think about accepting it too! I can't find you, it's a bigger pity than that, I can't keep you well anymore. You don't know how to take care of yourself, I've been taking care of it for so long. Who will keep it now? I'm about to lose my favorite right. What could be more difficult than this! Believe me, you can't leave me. Maybe in time everything will be fine. All grief and wounds dry up. Time fixes everything. Tighten the chest!

I saw that you have learned to hide emotions and tears like me lately. I do not remember the last time I was in so much trouble! My right hand is breaking in front of my eyes ... I can't do anything! I will not text you like before and after a few months, right? I knew you would break up, so I didn't have the courage to say it for so long. I know, you can't stand it. But I will say, please, don't do that, I feel short of breath.

See a poem. There is a wall. I closed the door and wrote silently crying. You will be fine crying for a day or two, but you are my lifelong cry. You will be stuck in my throat till death with a regret. You don't even know how big a part of my life you are! No, it was a mistake. Actually know. You know very well. That's all I'm saying.

Listen today, as long as you were, my life was like a rainbow. If you had, I would have wanted to live a few more days than Hayat. I have never wanted to live like this before. I promise, ever since you came into my life, I have been terrified of death. I have always tried to live with everything I have. I thought, why is life so short? Seeing your sad post, Maide, would have hurt my chest. The trouble was, why can't I keep you well, despite my best efforts? Looked really bad!

Meanwhile I would sometimes get depressed, because I could anticipate some things in the future. I knew that day would come for us. You probably never understood it before today. I'm sorry, you didn't see eighty of me. We have nothing else to do, do we?

You know, it would be nice if we could stay together. You and I could have lived a few more years than Hayat. Yes, life would be beautiful. Definitely would. I wanted to live more. I would have been your life force. Like Picasso, you too would come up with something new and wonderful. Your power will be reduced by fifty percent after I leave. Match. Draw your fatigue will come. Dissatisfaction will come. Many of our story poems remained. When I leave, there will be a big change in your whole mentality. Sometimes I think to myself, do I really have to leave? Is our separation inevitable?

I love you so much, it fills me to the brim. No one in such a good world has ever lived. I have met even a little bit of worldly pleasures. Thanks! Thank you. My desire to be a mother was first awakened by seeing the deep love in your eyes towards the child. I don't like anything. Nothing is coming to mind.

And yes, you don't cry like babies at all. We have a lot more time. You remember, I always told you, we're not going to be late, are we? I would write and remove it again. You will know life better. Wait. If there is no darkness, the meaning of light cannot be understood. The day we're going, it's going, isn't it? A life, what a turn! A-lane o-lane, how many lanes! Will we stay that way? Why not? Ah, life just goes away, just happiness stuck. A lot will change for both of us. Time, living, thinking, even habits.

What will remain intact? Tell me your prediction, let's see? Aha. If time could be tied up like a photo frame, I would have tied up these times. Sometimes people are indebted to God forever. Ah, we have survived at some point! Our memory, only the memory will remain intact, everything else will change.

Someone else will come back at the time of your return in the evening, I will make the snacks made for you for someone else. The direction of your departure will also change. The lives of both of us and the turning point in our lives will change. Ah, how beautiful life is, but we can never recognize life! After being late, I realized, alas, it was late!

One day I will get tired and I will look for who you both know. You have to take a bath with tears day and night! I have a hard time thinking about these. However, I know that the void will be filled, only the bottom of the void will remain. I never thought I would be so accustomed to love like this!

Don't let me stay! Give me a little space. There is only one life, you see, in the blink of an eye! Why are you letting me go? One moment, just one moment can take a person's whole life in another direction! I still have a lot to say, a lot to write, stories and poems to tell you! If we stay together, this world will have a lot of great things. Many people will be fine. You think of people all over the world, but you can't see that I need you to survive, I need your help! I want to be a humanitarian worker rather than a housewife.

But whatever it is, let us not be! I leave it in your hands. I will not let you go if you leave me. Shaon saved a Humayun, didn't he? People may have different opinions about this, but life was that the person belongs to Humayun, his wishes and thoughts are the only thing to consider here. I know very well that your destruction is inevitable if I leave. I want to think about your happiness. I am willing to make any concessions for that. Well, let's skip this! Let us practice from today. You learn to create yourself without me. Learn to walk alone. That's what we have to do in the future!

I deleted your nickname in Messenger. The man is not there! What will happen with the name? How can I live without you? My survival seems pointless! I know you don't. Absolutely not. Nowhere are you. My child's father was never at all! The chest feels completely empty. How do I know I feel poor. If you really believe that I don't exist, then maybe I really don't --- at least in your eyes. Otherwise I'll stay!

Today, it seems, three-quarters of the earth is actually emptiness and one-third is darkness. Do you really see the separation in my eyes? Speak from the heart! I saw the separation in your eyes today. I haven't seen it so far. Let me tell you, today I feel very unfamiliar to you, in your eyes. It was a joy to be here for so long. I have never lived like that. I don't know at all what I can do to really explain myself to you. Feeling we have 'Run out of gas' emotionally. How many kinds of helplessness people have to endure!

I have been a sad person since birth. Sadly my daily life. Except for you, not a single person like me has ever understood me. It's a big helplessness for me. Only you saved me for a long year and a half! I would probably die without you. Just as lovebirds can't live without one another, so I will die of suffocation! It seems as if someone is snatching it from my hand, tearing my chest out! My whole existence is going with it! Don't let me stay, don't give me a small place! I know very little to adapt to. I will adjust everything for you.

Give me back my happy world, my children, my favorite madness! You stay. If we are together, a lot of energy and intelligence will come between us. To me you mean a whole life, a whole world! No one has ever been so good at my every word as you. Everything I have is precious to you. It's probably you don't know as much as I do.