"Bakit Kung Sino Pa?"
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang tunay na nagbibigay sayo ng saya,*
*siya pa 'yong 'di mo makita?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang laging sayo'y nagpapatahan,*
*siya pa 'yong labis na sinasaktan?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang itinuring kang mundo,*
*siya pa 'yong itinaboy mo palayo?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang sayo'y nagpapangiti,*
*siya pa 'yong umiiyak sa luhi?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang sayo'y nakalaan,*
*siya pa 'yong iniiwasan?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang dapat mahalin,*
*siya pa 'yong ayaw ibigin?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang totoong nagmamahal,*
*siya pa 'yong nagiging hangal?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang natatakot iwan ka,*
*siya pa 'yong naiiwan mag-isa?*
*Bakit kung sino pa,*
*ang handang seryosohin ka,*
*siya pa 'yong 'di mo mabigyan ng tiwala?*
*Ang daming bakit,*
*na laging may kaakibat na sakit.*
*Ano ba talaga ang sagot?*
*Upang makalaya sa pighating inabot.*
*Sana naman masagot na,*
*Para malaman kung aayaw na talaga.*
*Baka mamaya, umulit pa.*
*Pipiliin na naman ang magpakatanga.*
*Kahit sobrang nahihirapan na.*
**ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2021 by rynleigh**
My thoughts (Free Writing)
That feeling when no one’s listening to you—you’re struggles, fears, problems, frustrations or if you’re stressed. Gustuhin mo man may mapagsabihan, wala kang mahingahan sa lahat ng sama ng loob mo dahil mag-isa ka. Nakulong sa kadiliman, hindi alam kung anong dapat na gawin para makawala sa dilim. Sobrang nahihirapan na sa mga nararanasan, nais makaahon sa pagkakalugmok pero pinaghihinaan ng loob dahil pinabayaan na lamang ng lahat na maging mag-isa sa kawalan. No matter how much she’s trying to reach out to those people who she thought could her, she failed, at the end she was left alone—struggling to fight a battle of her self doubts and loniless. She wanted to be fixed, she wanted to stop the bleeding her heart is aching but no one’s even there to help her. She’s waiting for someone to come rescue her, waiting for a hand that she will held unto. Thoughts caging her in alone in the darkness, but she’s still hoping she will be saved—hoping she will see the light, ‘cause she’s still fighting even if it’s so hard to win her inner battles alone she wants to. Dahil alam niyang kaya niya, makakaya niya, kakayanin niya. Kailangan lang magtiwala siya, i let go lahat ng takot na nararamdaman, tanggapin mga kabiguan, hanggang makalaya sa dilim ng nakaraan.
"Rain's Rainbow"
“Oh, mahal, miss mo na agad ako?” sagot ko sa biglaang pagtawag ng aking kabiyak ngunit ibang boses ang aking narinig.
“Ito po ba ang asawa ni Atty. Thunder Dela Cuesta?” anang lalaki sa kabilang linya na hindi ko mapagkilanlan kung sino.
“Ito nga po, anong nangyari sa asawa ko?” nanginginig ang mga labing ani ko kasabay sa paninikip ng aking dibdib.
“Maam, si inspector Moris po ito, sumabog ang kotse ng iyong asawa—”
Hindi ko na narinig pa ang mga sumunod na sinabi ng inspektor nang maibagsak ko ang hawak na telepono at manglambot ang aking mga tuhod hanggang mapadausdos ako sa sahig habang rumaragasa ang mga luha sa aking pisngi.
Si Thunder nalang ang mayroon ako kaya ang malamang wala na siya ay labis kong dinamdam dahilan upang mapabayaan ko ang aking sarili—without even thinking that I am carrying a life with me, until I passed out and woke up in the hospital bed.
“A-ang b-baby ko...h-hindi...w-wala na...p-pinatay ko....p-pinatay ko s-siya...” I whispered to myself—crying endlessly, the moment I touched my tummy and I couldn’t feel him.
Losing my husband and finding out I killed my son at the same day, took away my sanity which leads me into ending my own life. Shedding with tears, I stood in the middle of nowhere under the heavy rain—waiting for a truck to hit me, but then, it didn’t happened. Instead, I was trapped in someone’s arms—securing my safety.
“What the fuck are you thinking, Rain?!” a soft baritone voice fanned my ears, making me yelped in surprise and when I opened my eyes, I was astounded upon seeing a familiar set of orbs—giving me an intent yet gentle gaze.
My lips trembled and seconds later, I was blinded by my tears, “T-thunder . . . H-how . . . You’re a-alive?” I hardly breathe.
Marahan siyang tumango saka ikinulong ang aking pisngi sa kaniyang mga palad bago ako pinaliwanagan, “Someone helped me got out of the car before it’s exploded but, love, what you did earlier will be the death of me, so please, don’t do that again, hmm?”
Muli akong napapikit nang ipagdikit niya ang aming mga noo saka ako napatango at buong pusong tinanggap ang masuyong pagdampi ng labi niya sa’kin.
Since then, Thunder never leave my side—he chooses me over his career which motivates me to be better and stronger not just for him but for myself, for our son—who passed away last year, and for our little sunshine that I‘m carrying now.
“Mahal, its been 25 years, napatawad na kaya ako ng anak natin?” I mumbled with tears streaming down at my face while staring at our son’s tombstone—Cloud Thyrone Dela Cuesta, here in our gazebo.
Thunder pulled me for an embrace and kissed my tears away, “I know he will, love, hush now.”
I turned around to face him, “Thank you for everything, Thunder, mahal na mahal kita.”
“Mahal na mahal din kita, Rain,” he replied and brought me to nirvana the moment he gave me an earth shattering kiss.
“Hey, you two, talagang sa harap pa namin ni kuya kayo nagtukaan!” ani ng isang matinis na boses na nagpahinto sa aming dalawa ni Thunder at sabay kaming napahalakhak sa katarayan ng aming anak—na kanina lang ay tahimik sa aming tabi.
“Baby, you know how beautiful your mom is, especially now in her floral dress that I just want to ravish her all day,” my husband joked making me blushed while Sky scoffed at his sweetness.
I chuckled and thought of teasing our daughter, “Anak, you’re already twenty four, you should get a boyfriend para hindi mo na kami tinatarayan ng daddy mo.”
“Mom, Dad, you know much I love you but I’m sorry for not telling you that I’m now engaged with kuya Cloud!”
“What the he—hey, come back here, Sky Thyrene!” my husband roared, running towards our daughter who just laughed at his possessiveness.
Napailing na lamang ako sa kapilyahan ng aming unica hija at napangiti habang pinagmamasdan ang aking mag-ama na maghabulan sa gitna ng ulan dito sa aming hardin. Looking at them right now made me realize that what I’ve gone through years ago happened for a reason and it taught me one thing—there’s always a rainbow after the rain and mine was . . . Thunder, Cloud and Sky.
**ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2021 by rynleigh**
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BeLoSeNoBo (cause ve es undaries)
It was exactly *three days* since I lost my wallet. Which I believe, I dropped it around the *Balete tree* we visited at the town next to ours. I already reported it to the police, at the '*lost and found'* section but still, no one contacted me.
Tatlong araw na rin akong halos walang tulog kakaisip kung paano mababawi iyong IDs at Cards na nakalagay doon sa nawala kong wallet. Sana lang talaga maisipang ibalik ng nakapulot iyon.
Mula sa pagkaka-upo sa sofa ng aming sala'y napatayo ako at tinungo ang gate ng bahay nang biglang tumunog ang doorbell. Inabutan ko sa labas ang isang *mailman*.
Pinirmahan ko ang inilahad nitong *receiving logbook* pagkatapos ay muli akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay bitbit ang isang sobre. Binuksan ko agad ito pagkarating sa aking k'warto saka binasa ang misteryosong sulat.
I don't know why but the letter gives me an eerie feeling, yet, I slipped it away and texted the number written on it.
After sending the message, I quickly grab my sling bag and went downstairs. Honestly, I'm afraid to go there alone but I don't have a choice. I just really need to get my wallet back and being scared is not my priority right now.
***
Ang kilabot na naramdaman ko noong unang beses akong umapak sa lupang kinatitirikan ng punong ito ng *Balete* ay mas tumindi pa ata ngayon, lalo na't ako lang mag-isa. Sumabay pa ang malamig na hampas ng hangin sa aking balat at ang nakakarinding alulong ng mga aso sa paligid, nasaktohan pang alas dose na ng tanghali kaya talagang tuminding ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. Niyakap ko na lamang ang sarili at iwinaglit sa isipan ang takot saka nagsimulang humakbang palapit sa puno.
*I was ten steps away from the tree when I saw a man sitting on its trunk.*
Hindi ko pa gaanong makita ang kabuuan ng kanyang mukha dahil nakatagilid ito sa akin. Awtomatikong nahinto ang aking mga paa sa paghakbang nang tumayo ito at humarap, marahil naramdaman ang aking presensya.
Literal nalang akong natulala't napanganga nang masilayan ang kanyang hitsura.
*His features is way beyond a normal human. He's so perfect in a black tuxedo, with a sharp jaw line, thin-red lips, and his rounded grey eyes that pulling me deep into him.*
"I'm glad to see you again. Here..."
I get back to my senses when he suddenly appeared infront of me and handed me my lost wallet.
Kinuha ko ito mula sa kanyang mga kamay at nagpasalamat. "T-thanks..."
Bigla na lamang akong naliyo matapos magtama ang aming balat. Namalayan ko nalang nasa *restaurant* na kaming dalawa, nakaupo sa mesang may nakahain na *adobo at black rice.*
*****
After we had lunch that day*,* everything becomes surreal. I don't know what exactly happened but weeks later, I woke up loving a ***Dalaketnon****, a kind of creature I never thought I would fall in love with.*
"Rina..."
I stop reminiscing when *Dale, the creature I have been in love for years now,* called my name. Then, he wrap his arms around my waist.
"Don't you have any regrets for loving me? Aren't you scared of me?" he asked, sighing.
I took a deep breathe and face him. "Dale, wala akong pinagsisihan. After what you have sacrifice just to be with me and *Rindale?* Loving you, is all I could give. At bakit naman ako matatakot sa'yo? Oo, naiiba kang uri na nilalang pero totoo kang magmahal. I felt secured. Saka isa pa, *when you said to me years ago that you fell inlove with me the moment you saw me at the Balete tree,* mahal na kita no'n," I assured him and I saw his eyes glister with tears.
"Thank you, Love. I love you..."
Without saying a word, I closed the distance between us and claimed his lips.
If I could turn back time, still, I'll choose to love, *Dale.* He had teach me to be brave in taking risk and made me realize one thing.
*That every living creature in this land is capable of loving. May it be a* ***Dalaketnon*** *or* ***human****.* ***Be****cause* ***lo****ve* ***se****es* ***no*** ***bo****undaries.*
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I can't attached a photo of Dalaketnon here 'cause there's no available that's free to use. So, if you want to know what it looks like, just search it out on google! :)
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https://noise.cash/u/rynleigh
Hi. I'm a filipino writer. I started my passion on writing through creating poems. I hope I can join on your community so that I can share my works to everyone and also to help me improve on my craft. Thank you :)
"Stand up, success awaits."
Saying pertains that, *education is the key to success*- truly it is. But before you can come up to that success you need to face different hardships, triumphs, and even storms. You need to have a powerful patience to achieve what you aims. You must attain perseverance to be proclaimed as successor. Can you do it all by yourself? Yes? or probably not. It might be a slight chance you can not unless you're really eager too. But mostly, it's lighter if there's at least one person by your side. Giving advises, sharing experiences, helping you walking unto the right path of the journey you're taking. Did you have that one person with you? Yes? You must be lucky. Because there are some who doesn't have anyone along the way yet they survived the struggle. I was once met one. . .
*It was a rainy afternoon, the last moment a girl have someone by her side. She never know and wouldn't wished that's the last. She carefully put a blanket on a middle-aged lady that was lying on a bed. The lady look so pale, turns too thin and seems like no strength to stand at all. By looking at the woman, her eyes get teary. She cant take it anymore. Her mother's situation was so pitiful. The later have a disease,cancer on the lungs. Maybe she get it by working so hard just to feed and provide the girl's needs specially her studies. That same reason the girl can't afford to absorb. So she decided to stop-for now. Her mother is much what she needs than anything else. She's all she have. After all, she can go back to school when her mother gets well*.
*"I'm sorry Ma but for now I will uphold my promise to you." she said to her mother while looking at her, sleeping.*
*The next day she wake up early, not to go to school but to prepare on finding a job. She hopes she can get one, thinking about her minor age gives her a headache. Yet she must take risk. She will accept any job she could do. Just to make them survived the daily life.*
*She left their little home after making her mother something to eat and kiss her forehead to bid goodbye.*
*She went to the town, turning left to right, looking at each stalls, buildings and even small stores she saw who have a 'hiring' banner on it's doors. One, two, three, four... four hours have passed she's still jobless. Her, being a minor has given her a hard time. She thinks of another way.. she went back home.*
*She found her mother still sleeping. Seems like her mother was too tired so she let her sleep a bit more. After putting hers belongings down the table she go outside and knock to their neighbor's doors, one by one. This is the other way she think of. Maybe she can do some laundry or cleaning to bargains with some money. Luckily, there are doors opening for her with sincere smile. She got three laundries just for the day.*
*The sky's getting gloomy when she finished drying all the clothes. Ha! She's tired but she has no choice but endure. When she's finally done, she got more or less 1,000 pesos. Now, she can buy food and medicine for her mother. She's smiling waking home while holding the things she bought. But the smiles she wears vanished on what she saw the time she step on their little home's floor.*
*"Oh my god!" She exclaims while looking at her mother's body near to breathless.*
*"Ma?! No, please! Ma, wake up!" she shouted, tears falling.*
*Her mother's silent response much frightened her. No matter what she do. Her mother's eyes won't open. Her body's turning cold. Now, breathless. She cried even more. "Ma.." she utter last, hugging her mother tightly.*
*That was the most horrible moment happened to the girl. She was broken. Devastated. Feel empty and so hopeless. How can she live a life without her mother? She has nothing left. She must be gone too. But a thought strike her, no! She must go on. Her mother would not be happy if she will give up just like this. So, she stood up and became strong. After her mother's funeral she travel from the province to manila. She will start a new life there. She applied in a fast food chain as a crew and was able to have the Job. She work hard. She saves up enough money to enrolled on a university. She takes a scholarship. She's now a working student. Working at day, studying at night. It was so hard at first yet she manage to do it well. She must be. For her promise to her mother.*
*Years passed by, she's now stepping on the stage to claim her diploma. All her hard work was paid off. She flashes a genuine smile while holding her diploma and a medal, for being a role-model student.*
*"Ma, are you watching me now? I did it ma. I survived. I fulfill my promise. I really hope you're here with me. This is for you Mama." she whisper, wishing her mother's soul will hear her.*
Indeed life is unpredictable. There are points that life would make you feel weak, empty, miserable, vulnerable, worthless, or even feels lifeless. But you just need to believe in *Him*, and in yourself. In this world, you're really not alone even if everyone leaves you unprepared. Always look up and have faith that everything will be alright. Just be brave, be strong, take risk, fight, and when you fall, stand up don't ever give up until you reach the top. Now ask yourself, if ever you will be on the girl's shoes, will you survive?
"Congratulations Avery! Your book was sold out again on it's first release!" I snapped out after hearing one of my friend's greetings for me.
I smiled to her and replied, "Thank you Eve."
Where here at a publishing company which I'm working with. What Eve was talking about is the successful launch of my 1st non-fiction book. Actually, I never thought it will hit big time. What I wrote is purely based on my experiences. I thought the readers will find it boring because I know these days people loves to read romance books but maybe I was one of those lucky authors.
"Come on. Let's celebrate!" Now Eve's pulling me. She's really this jolly friend of mine who loves celebration even on a simplest things. Well, maybe today's indeed a worth celebration.
"No need to drag me Eve. Fine, let's go to vikings. My treat." And with that, she rejoice. Poor me. I pity my wallet.
Anyway, before I forgot if ever you'll pass by into a book store and accidentally found a book entitled: *"Stand up, success awaits"* please try to read it. That's my work. For a spoiler the girl's name there is. . . *Avery--a girl that was struggling to live years ago but now, she's a literature enthusiast and a published author.*
**ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2021 by rynleigh**
"Have Faith, Be Brave."
***(Read from top to bottom)***
*In this so called 'life',*
*You need to be brave.*
*You need to gamble.*
*Be humble yet,*
*Be witty and wise.*
*In order to survive,*
*Just hold on to your faith,*
*That's right.*
*Then. . .*
*Think twice,*
*'Cause things are complicated.*
*It was really a lie.*
*But believe me,*
*'He' never listen,*
*For up until now,*
*No one's beside you.*
*No one comforts you,*
*No one really loves you,*
*Because. . .*
*YOU ARE ALL ALONE.*
***(Read from bottom to top)***
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"Alone. Waiting. Hoping."
*I always told myself, everything's gonna be okay.*
*But whom am I kidding anyway?*
*Now, here I am again...sitting on the couch, looking blankly at the TV.*
*Alone, no one's beside me.*
*This is the truth I need to accept.*
*No matter how I convinced myself,*
*I always end up in the situation where I'm into.*
*Struggling in a losing battle I should get through.*
*Why does life gets to be this hard?*
*Am I playing it bad?*
*I'm so tired, I want someone's touch.*
*To know that after all. . .*
*There's someone I can lean on.*
*That even on my greatest downfall,*
*I still have a reason to go on.*
*Then, one night, He appears in my dream--waking me up.*
*Made me realized, I just need to strengthen my faith and trust up above.*
*I know this is all part of His plans, I'll be thankful one day.*
*May it not be today, nor tomorrow, but someday.*
*So, I'll just sit here, wait and see. . .what future will I have be.*
**ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2021 by rynleigh**
"Right Love At A Wrong Time"
*This feeling grows inside me*
*Which I always hide and kept in my diary*
*Every time you appeared to me surprisingly*
*You turned my sad world into a sweet melody.*
*My life that full of misery*
*You bring hope to it each passing day*
*I can't understand why I felt this way*
*If I knew you can't do to stay my way.*
*You were a guy that was hard to understand*
*A heart so selfish, a mind so unkind*
*But no matter how I wished to forget you*
*You're always in my dreams, making me fall for you.*
*We became friends in quite sometimes*
*When you courted my friend whom you truly loved*
*I knew I must be happy, but what's this line*
*Saying it hurt's and make me sad.*
*Many times I told myself, stop loving you,*
*Stop thinking of you, stop admiring your presence too.*
*When you look at me, I don't know what you wanted to be?*
*The smiles and sparkles of your face,*
*Have a lot of meaning to me.*
*I know I don't deserved you to be mine,*
*So I will sacrifice my own feelings and leave it behind.*
*Though it really hurts me deep inside maybe,*
*I'll just say I have a right love at a wrong time.*
**ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2021 by rynleigh**
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