Last night, me and my husband having a deep conversation about our plans and problems. One of the difficult decisions we're going to make is to rent an apartment when his salary increase. It is hard for both of us because he's the one to shoulder our expenses and I am the one to take care of our children. I admit that it was not so easy to make an eye for our four children and doing the household chores at the same time. Currently, we are living with my in-laws but I am not happy with our set-up. Although they help my husband to support my kid's daily essentials and necessities. But for some reason, I want to have our own home. I know it is not that easy but this is also for both of us to grow.
I want some privacy for my own family. For me, to able to do everything I want and to discipline my child in my strategy. To freely do anything without hesitation and doubt. To achieve my mother role to my kids without anyone watching and ruling. I know this is one of the great decisions we ever make. We need to support each other to achieve our goals for our family and children. I believe that we can do this together.
I don't want to grow old without my property especially a home. I want some space even it was just for a rent. Living in my in-laws is sometimes difficult and discouraging. Even they help me most of the time I can't just ignore what they always say that I didn't take care of my kids properly. It makes me upset every time I hear those words but what can I do? I am just clinging to them. But I am also very thankful to them because they always support my kids and my husband.
I just hope that our plans will work and I can manage to support and take good care of my kids appropriately. This is what I want ever since we had our first baby. I hope everything will be okay and successful.
