They always say that I'm an intelligent person. I'm such a diligent and responsible son and student. I always dreamed of having a better future not just for me but for my family. But you know what? It's not that easy. It is easy to dream big but it is so hard to achieve that. I thought it would be easy. Just go to school, listen to teachers, submit paperworks and you're done. It is just my thought and I never expected it worst. Now I'm so frustrated that I even want to stop studying. It's hard especially this pandemic. You need money to have load balance for your online class while working, helping your family, helping your siblings do their homework. They say it was way better than face to face class but no. The internet connection that I can only have when I went to the Field even at night. The loud noise of vehicles, animals, neighbors that you can't even focus. I understand nothing on my lessons. I don't know what's going to happen to me in the future if this continues. So sad but I don't have choice. I think I still need to fight even though I'm already lose.