Fortunately I will not say that I am a person with bipolar affective disorder. Often when I say I'm bipolar, the feedback I get is either frivolous looks or worrying expressions. I feel very lucky to be bipolar.
This is an element that makes me interesting from others. Similarly as our fingerprints are unique and one of a kind from one another. There are such countless things I need to advise you in this article. In any case, I can just reach however much I can type on my console. Sorry ahead of time for the sterility of my portrayal. I'm composing this article for those we minimize, it will really be egotistical, however I am likewise composing it for myself. Since now I'm burnt out on concealing a few realities.
"It is more enthusiastically to break biases than to break the molecule." As he said, Einstein, I need to expound precisely on this theme. Since I think the greatest reason for battles on the planet is biases. At the point when you crush the iota, you can remove incredible energy and start a conflict. In any case, the most deceptive of wars is the virus. Aren't the divisions inside us additionally from biases?
The mindset that says when they see somebody covered is traditionalist and when they see somebody with a small skirt they are an awful lady is something similar. Furthermore, it is these biases that additionally cause us to send the nuclear bomb to a country. Does the battle of who is better than whom isn't biased, while none of us has predominance over the other? The outside powers that recognize us from Eastern and Western know about the force of bias, however we actually keep on calling each other names as.
It is preferable not to realize anything over to know it wrong.
However, regardless of whether you know nothing about bipolar, I need to disclose to you the right things. Since obscure is likewise tiring you… While all sciences are based on knowing, I figure you should think about us bipolar individuals.
Allow me to season my story by summing up: 7 years prior, when I was 18, I took the college placement test and won it. Here is the sentence I shaped with these three or five words, has a gigantic history and example of overcoming adversity. The story I will tell isn't an example of overcoming adversity, shockingly… It's a disappointment story… You might have thought about how a memory I began saying I won would fizzle. I will observer how the 12 years of exertion I have made in the past to win the college was trash.
Yes, I won, and I got the psychological counseling and guidance department at a prestigious university like Istanbul University. However, in the 2nd grade, things turned upside down. Irregularities in my sleep, running away from home, going out at night, and many other nonsensical movements… I can give this example to illustrate the gravity of the situation. I studied for the final exam I got on my midterm exam all night and instead of going to the exam in the morning, I went to the cinema.
I started to think there was something wrong with myself when I started making unconnected gestures. I would not say I took my breath at the psychiatrist, I went unwillingly and in fear. My father also had an illness that I thought I might have. And I did not believe my father's illness for years and always blamed him for what he had done.
Did he find me a disease I don't believe in? I went to the doctor with curiosity and my feet backed up. The psychiatrist listened to me and, sitting calmly, muttered something like "subthreshold bipolar." Me and being sick… I could not make it like myself, but on the other hand, I welcomed it very calmly. He told me for a long time that I should use medication. I remember going home and sobbing. On the one hand, happiness… Because there was an explanation for the absurd movements I made. On the other hand, from sadness… Because it was possible for me to have a life that is called normal with drugs. I refused the medication. I suspended the school. And I could not finish school in 7 years.
Nothing I've been fruitful has occurred from that point forward, with the exception of a certain something: my marriage. I got hitched about a year prior and presently I'm cheerful. I utilize my prescriptions routinely. Everything is going typical. However, this story isn't an example of overcoming adversity, it is an account of clutching life. There are a lot more things I can't clarify. I'm revealing to you this since you don't have bias, regardless of whether it's against bipolar individuals or people who show strange conduct that society doesn't need. Since we as of now have sufficient weight on our shoulders.
We have incredible issues in securing our feelings and what you can without much of a stretch achieve is hard for us. While this is going on, don't make us waste time with your biased and underestimating looks.
I will say I trust I didn't exhaust you this much. For the people who don't have bipolar, the individuals who read, the people who don't hear, the people who hear.