Let's talk about Gambling today. This Gambling thing is getting in my nerves this past months. This Gambling is already causing me too much headache. Nowadays people are being addicted in an Online Gambling (especially Online Casino and Cock Fighting). Even my dear husband is already addicted with this Gambling thing. Almost everynight as long as he goes home early from work this is what he only do. Drinking Alcohol with this cousin and friends while betting in Cock Fighting. I already accepted that he's an Alcoholic and it's hard for him to change that already. And since he was just drinking alcohol here at home I'm letting him do it as long as it's not too much, just enough to make him feel relax after a tiring day at work. But then this problem came that even in gambling he started to get addicted again.
This is not the first time that we fight over Gambling. This already happen also last year. Because of his addiction in E-Bingo or Electronic Bingo we almost separated. I almost left him because of what he did to me.
Our biggest problem started when this pandemic started too. Last February when Covid-19 started I also tried to sell Facemask since it was the most indemand item at that time. And since I had a name already in Online Selling lot of people trusted and ordered Facemask from me and they fully paid it in cash. I was confident at that time since I made a deal with my cousin who has a doctor friend that has a contact in a Factory of Facemask in Nepal. My mask is the cheapest at that time so I got a lot of orders from my Resellers and other people who trusted me since I am a Legit Seller. I got a total order of worth P400k pesos or $8350 Facemasks. If that deal didn't got a problem maybe our life is much better now too. Maybe we are financially stable by now. But then maybe it's not my luck to get a good profit out of those Facemasks. Suddenly our transaction failed. I already almost paid the whole amount too to our contact Doctor but this doctor ended up telling that the shipment wasn't success because of some problem while the item is already on it's way here in the Philippines. I don't know but i believed that he just sold it in a higher price than what i payed for it. He refunded me all the money that I paid him. It's kinda hard and sad for me coz I already made a lot of effort out of it already. I invested my time and some of my own money to fix everything that need to be fix while doing the transaction.
So when he refunded me the money I also started refunding all my Resellers Money. Until only one last person that needs to refunded another problem came. After refunding the others money I got short with my last Reseller. I'm supposed to refund her P60k or $1250 but i got short I only have P22k left out of P60k. I was shocked at that time co'z i never spend anything from their money as long as our transaction is not yet done. I never touched any of their money. I spent my own money while fixing our transaction. No matter how i tried to total everything even those money I refunded thinking that i doubled some of the refund,but it's really co'z short I gave exact amount to others. I don't want to think that my husband touched my buyer's money co'z I trust him too. So i just decided to just refund the P22k left to my last Buyer and I will just begged her that I will just make a way to pay for the money that is missing.
But then before i had refunded the P22k my husband did something that really makes me mad. He spend the P22k of my buyer in playing E Bingo. I was super mad at that time because he was lost in the game. I was really mad as fuck at that i almost left him and just break up with him. But my Mom enlightened me that it was just a part of trials that a couple is facing. She was mad at my husband too on what he did but she said if I will leave my husband in times like that it only means that I don't deserved to be called as a "Wife". That instead of leaving him I should just help him to fix the problem that he did. And I should help him to change with that bad habit of him. So I did forgive him even if what he did hurts me a lot. He almost ruined my name which I took care for a long time. But in the end I also realize that it's not a good idea to ruined my family too just because of his mistake. So i forgave him not just because of our kids but because i do really love him too and wanted him to change. I know it's hard at that time but we faced together the consequences of what he did.
He was the one who talked to my buyer first right after what he did he admitted his sin. He admitted that he used their money in gambling. Ofcourse my buyer was so mad as fuck. So instead of just paying P38k we ended up have a P60 Debt to my buyer. I received a lot of hurtful words because of that. She even even threatened to imprison me and send me to Tulfo.
Receiving all this message from my Buyer isn't that easy too. That's only a few message from. It's hard for me to accept all the words from her. Knowing that my conscience was clear that i never thought my hubby can do that thing to me too. But I know how much he regret it too. Even I forgave him on what he did I still keep recalling it to him when I'm mad and I can see how much he really feel bad about what he did too.
So here is the total amount that I already paid after 1year of having Debt of P60k. I still have P40k debt left since I only payed P20k until last month. And thanks to BCH, because this past 2months I got a payment to her from writing in noise.cash. I'm not sharing it because it's kinda embarrasing story using BCH to pay some of my Husband's debt because of gambling.
My buyer even knows it now that I was able to pay her little by little now continuously because of the tips I'm getting in noise.cash. That's how much BCH is helping now. I'm grateful to BCH not just because of helping our needs and not just because of helping me reach my dreams and my priorities like my Mom and kids but also because it is helping me to pay our Debt too. It would be a big help too if I can reach my Dream 1BCH too coz I can finally fully paid our debt if that happens. I'm still lucky that my Buyer is still had a good heart inspite of almost cursing me before she still chose to understand my situation co'z she knows that my conscience are clear and I have nothing to do with my husband's mistake.
After a year commiting his sin caused by Gambling my husband is kinda doing it again. Being addicted in Online Gambling. I have nothing to say about him being a father and a husband, being a good provider. But still thinking of what he did last year I was afraid that what if he get more addicted again. What will happen to us? Or to his salary? He's working so hard almost doing an Overtime job then this Gambling will just probably take his money away from him. Instead of just saving it for us and for our future it will just ended up losing. We're almost fighting everyday about this thing. He keep denying that he's not gambling everyday. But I knew it when he's lying or not especially it's been 2months that he's not showing he's payslip. And only gives enough budget for our daily needs so I know he's hiding something from me.
I'm the kind of person that just being quiet like nothing is happening but deep inside i do have this kind of problems too that keeps bothering me everyday. We haven't finish our debt yet because of Gambling and here he go again starting to get addicted again. I'm trying to control my feelings but sometimes I can't. I suddenly burst out and ended up saying hurtful words towards him. But I don't regret that I wanted to wake him up with this kind negative activity that he's doing. It won't gonna help us instead It will just ruined our Family. Gambling is a total Homewrecker. And I don't want our family yo be ruined by this thing.
I'm still hoping that I can changed my husband and keep him away from this kind of vice. We already talked about this recently too and he promised ti try his best to just find another way to enjoy and relax his self. That he will gonna be honest to me already. I even told him that this was his last chance if he won't gonna dump this kind of negative activity we will gonna leave him alone. Ofcourse I won't gonna do that. It's just a threat. I love him so much inspite of him being addicted to alcohol and gambling. I can't just leave him alone either, I wanted him to totally changed and realized our worth. That Family is more Important than anything else that makes him happy.
Always Remember Gambling is just a past time but Family is for a Lifetime. Don't let Gambling ruin your life nor your Family. Always try to think what's best for you and your family. Don't allow yourself be addicted in this kind of Vice. Remember Regret is always in the End too. Don't wait to lose every important thing that you have before you realized your mistakes. Change what you need to change while your family is still their by your side.
Buti po yung Papa ko di ganyan. He likes to take cigarrete rarely but my mother insistedbme to stop and he usually saying “Minsan lang naman,” which is true. In terms of loans, nagloloan sila sa banks na medyo malaki interest tapos po si mama, umuutang sa kapatid niya pero po may bahay naman na po kami. Buti po talaga bawal sa amin ang sugal