Admit it or not, there was a time when we feel jealous of someone's success. Questioning why fortune seems to hide from us. Honestly, we go through phases that we feel like what we are doing is not enough. We are being eaten by negative thoughts— to the point that it drains the remaining energy inside us. Thus, we are not able to do such things. In order for us to be productive, we believe that we shall continuously run errands— steps to reach success. But does life really requires us to be productive all the time?
While jotting these few ideas of mine, honestly, this write up has no direction. The reason why is my second week here on read cash did not really went well. My published works for second week got zero upvotes and not visible to the communities. My anxieties went high because of overthinking— are my articles bad? Are they not interesting as I thought they will be? Should I stop writing now? My mother kept on asking the status of my account. I understand her, I know that she is not after the earnings but she just wanted to make sure that my efforts are not wasted. I have told her that my account might be spammed, but I do not know the exact reason yet. I was trying to research about this issue, and how to resolve it. I wanted to turn the boost of my account back. I was overwhelmed on my first week, and frankly, I did not expect the support that were given to me by the random rewarder. I have gained confidence due to the upvotes of my articles. But when the second week came, my works went down. I am being anxious about this and I wanted to recover it as soon as possible. I even thought that maybe there will be a season of no upvotes, specially my previous week became a special one. But as I reflect about these concerns, I have realized a lot of things.
By reason of too much expectations, I forgot that these times will come. I have expected that when I enter read.cash, my earnings will be stable and all of my works will be upvoted. As I have seen on the authors that I follow, opportunities are coming thru their way. How lucky. I immediately reminded myself that I should not be envious of what others have, instead, I should be inspired and keep on doing my business. Besides, great things come to those who wait. Why would I fill my heart with spite if I can help myself in improving my write ups? I should focus on myself more and be grateful of the capacity that I have to continue my writing journey.
Another thing is, the fact that I am still a newbie lost in my mind. I become too hurry with the success that I desire to have. I recollected, I am only a user for three weeks. Not over a month yet I have wanted the success right away. Like what others say, why would we pick an unripe fruit if we can wait for it to be ripe? Expedite accomplishments, usually, are not long-last. They are not the result of hard works and experiences, that is why they are not that firm enough. Undoubtedly, the successful people have encountered hardest battles and a lot of sweat and tears moments in their life just to get what they have now. Indeed, success are reserved for those who deserves it— willing to wait, strive and surpass the challenges they may face.
Perhaps, my breakthrough is yet to come. My big winning moments will come when I do not look ahead them to happen. I have also reminded myself the true essence of being a writer. Amazing how my prior published articles left an important moral for me to learn. They reminded me the value of waiting, genuine goal of a writer like me, and it helped me to keep the fire burning in my passion. I pledge to myself to keep writing whatever it takes, and I also hope to resolve the issue that I am facing right now. May the creator allow good hearted people to extend their greatness to help me regarding this one.