The chain of desperation to earn.

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Everyone wants to earn. Everyone needs money to use in their daily lives. Although some managed their time well. They're hoping to have money at the right time they need it. And some never think in advance whether they can have it by that time. That's why when that time comes they will be desperate to earn. They will start thinking about how to have it right away. 


Desperately need it is because of their own actions. It's important to have plans for the future because we never know what will happen. It is I who became the target of this article. This will be my story and my regrets why I didn't plan it well. But writing or saying these things I realised it now. 


I'm contented with what kind of life I have for now. I have food to eat at the table 3 times a day. I have a small amount of money to use for my unnecessary needs. Just not include material things because it needs a lot of amounts. I have a simple mind so I only need simple things. But because of this, I am not well aware of plans for my future. 


For now, I'm just chilling while waiting for the time that I can be aboard a ship. You know paper things in the Philippines required a lot of time and connections. If you're not rich or belong to an influential family. Sorry, you will undergo the process but a little delay. I'm working sometimes to earn money for minimal needs. I went to the forest and the sea where a chance of earning will be there. It's enough to myself but when for other things it's not.


Recently, as you can see I'm powering down my power. Actually, that's my last choice because I trust hive to make me rich in the future. But emergency needs are happening so I have no choice but to rely on it for now. It's not enough yet so I'm desperate to earn through writing. Sometimes in social media as well with the help of the internet. Still, I don't think I can make it because my contents in hive didn't go well. I'm fully aware of it but it's just part of me who will not accept it.


The bad thing about being desperate to earn is crowded emotion. Mixing emotions that I can't do well in writing. Full of disappointments and discouragement. You know I can't think well because of it, so just forgive me. I'm disciplining myself now. 


I don't think my writing is well written and yet I decided to present it to everyone. I forced myself to write even though I'm a moody person. That's what to be expected when you force yourself to do things. The outcome will always be a failure. I obliged myself to write even though just by thinking a simple topic was hard. 


There were times I didn't feel like writing or visiting other posts. For me it became unfair. Although it's me to blame for all of it. It's my way of thinking disruptively because of desperation. I learned my lesson and always think ahead to be able to fight what's going to come. 


To avoid not to reach desperation. Accept that it's your fault. Think ahead and save for future needs. Always thinks that there will always be a time you will be tested. Just think you can handle it and you can fight for it. Breathe slowly to think clearly. Don't rely too much on it if you're not so sure of it. It's better to thrift money where you don't have that feeling of urgency. Remember that a happy mind can always do things right. Nothing can beat a person who has a wonderful mind.

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Verry inspiring dear

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Nice

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