I'm strong but I don't deserve this pain 💔

Happy Valentines Everyone ❤❤

I've been quite busy? these past few weeks and also broke (lol)

Just passing by to share some story for this Heart's day and this is so sad especially on my part.
So, I've met this girl last December on social media upon checking my news feed and IG stories I found her interesting and attractive and I don't know why.

I've tried to hit her up and leave a message "Hi there"
after a few minutes, she replied with "Ohh hello"
I'm shocked tbh cause I didn't expect a message or any reply from her I've asked about her life, her hobbies, favorites, likes, and dislikes.
What I love about her the most is we're almost the same, In life values, interests, and habits until I used to her.
I got hooked and fell in love day by day with chats day and night. Good morning to goodnight we even discussed our own personal life including goals and future dreams.

another month passed and we still have this setup until I ask her for a date just a friendly date but unfortunately we didn't make it due to her unavailability but I understand that and we set another date after a few weeks. I'm not receiving any messages from her and I'm worried about it even though I don't have the right but she shows a motive and I feel it or am I just assuming?

I got depressed and mad, days and weeks still no messages until I receive this message from her.


" Salamat sa lahat marami kang naitulong sa akin halos nabuo mo ako at nakumpleto naappreciate ko yun ng sobra pero hindi ko kayang suklian yung pagmamahal mo"



"Thanks for everything you really helped me a lot you filled my emptiness and I appreciate it so much but I can't reciprocate your love"


I'm shocked. I don't know what to do I feel the trauma from my past relationship last 2017. It hurts!
I am lost, I'm in vain, I'm down, everything is black with an " X- mark" honestly,
I don't recognize myself anymore, I don't recognize any people around me
I'm smiling outside but I'm fu**king hurt inside 💔

I punished myself for being stupid

I Wish that I have the power to control myself, I wish we'll never meet...
I wish I've never been this weird *sigh* sorry!




Ps. Stay away from me, I am totally Trash! :)



This is Mon I'm out! :')