1 am thoughts

August 18,2022

I didn't know that I fell asleep, earlier than usual,only to be awaken at such a crucial time when my mind can't work properly.

Sleep ran away from me and I can't even phatom the trigger that I can't go back to sleep.

Counting sheeps seems never worked this time and I need to let the sheeps have their well deserved rest too so I stop counting as it became useless.

I look up and saw the hole in the ceiling near the bulb "ah, if I stare too much, will the buln fall?" that's what I thought.

I kept turning and turning on the little sofa that I used as my bed, then stop when I almost fell, cold sweats came in and I thought I got my third life taken away from that and became scared.

I don't want to get up thinking if I suddenly get up for sure I will not sleep a wink because my mind amd body will ne active again and it's the wee hpur already

But I'm thirsty and an ample amount of water is needed to clench this thirst. Guess I'm shouting or singing in my sleep earlier that my throat suddenly became dry.

I look up my phone only to found out that it updated on it's own, got new features but not at all bother me.

I want to go back to sleep, I kept repeating that on my mind but it seems impossible tp make it.

I hate it when I feel like sleep always turns away from my side. I want to rest too but even that simple request I can't seem to acquire.

If only I'm at home, I wouldn't be like this. If ever I woke up in the middle of the night, I don't seem to worry as I can always hug my son and to feel his normal breathing it makes me calm and go back to my sleep.

I badly want to sleep again but I can't, ugh and it's really a pain.

@mommykim