I want to be a full time mom

Hi everyone its been really long since the last time that I wrote an article here.

I have been busy and cannot find time to focus on writing since we already moved in to our house which is a little bit farther than our previous house. Actually it is not that far, it just happened that there are on going constructions of MRT extension on our way home that cause the heavy traffic whereas I need to adjust my travel to ensure that I will be able to come on time for my working schedule. So intead of visiting this site I rather sleep on my way to my work to compensate those hours that I need to woke up early. And when Im on my RD I need to do the laundry thats why I seldom visit here. Today is my RD but I decided to write an article coz I really feel that I need to write out my thoughts and since my hubby is the one who put my baby to sleep as of the moment so I have the chance to do this article

Way back time my dream is to be a full time mom if ever I will be having my own family. And when I have it imon 2020 and got pregnant in 2021 me and my hubby planned also that I will resign and we will just put up a small business ( a mini store for that matter which will offer basic necessities). But that plan was changed due to some unexpected turning of some events which involve one of my family member.

I need to stay on my work coz we have a housing loan and cash loan to pay which were acquire during the time that I have to stop my work for almost a year during my pregnancy in 2022. All those struggles were already mentioned on my previous article last year.

Being tired on my everyday travel and missing some milestone of my baby made me thinking of my old dream which is to be a full time mom, yes thats I still want. I want to see my child grows. I want to see her every step. I want her run into me when she is afraid of something. I want to cuddle her every minute. I want to receive those random kisses from her when she is in her sweet mood. I want to be her bestfriend like I was with my mom before, I want that kind closeness and bond that me and my mom had. I want to stay by her side eveey moment. Coz I know that there would come a time that she will be having her own life. And it saddened me that I missed lot of times with her. Im envy those mom who was able to be with their child .

I know and understand our current situation I just want to share what I am feeling inside. I just hope that I will still fullfill that dream even if its a year late. I know that our situation will be better. I just treat it as a challenge that was given us. And I know that we will overcome it. Fighting 😁

Thanks for reading