So much is given
Then, so much can be gained
Either happiness
Sadness
Or both
The more you try to fix things
The more things got complicated
Promising not to make the same mistake twice
But instead, new mistakes are arising
More doubts, more "what to do" 's
Not knowing what is right
Not knowing what to do
Not knowing the right thing to do
The confusion still lurks
Underneath the sheets
Crawling on the pillows
While I lay in bed
Crying
Because of the pain
That lingers
Like the smell of him thay i know
It just wont subside
Tears just keep on coming
And it wont stop
Crying silently
Is what I know
And will ever know
Because im used to being silent
To every pain i've felt
To every humiliation I've encountered
To every scar my heart got
I stay quiet
I tried to let them out
My voice be heard
By someone
I love
Because I thought
I'll be heard
Differently
And he'll listen
But
I was wrong
Everytime I speak
It's wrong
Everytime I reach out
It's wrong
Everything's wrong
It hurts
So much
It hurts
So bad
It hurts
And i cant speak
I cant breathe
It's suffocating
But I'm on my own.
Nicee