A letter to my depressed self.

Dear Self,

If you're reading this, you've once again fallen into the void of darkness. You're depressed, nervous, terrified, and lonely. You have no idea what's going on or why it's happening. You're most likely lying in bed right now, unsure of when you last left the house, let alone washed or changed your clothing. Your tears are staining your cheeks, and your thoughts are going down a dark path. Or, even worse, you are emotionally deafeningly deafeningly.

But always remember this,

I know you're feeling like an awful human right now, but you're doing your best, and your friends and family adore you regardless of how dreadful you're feeling. They do, I know it's hard to believe. You are a deserving person. You've supported countless others who are going through the same difficulties you are. They made it through, and you will as well.

I understand how difficult things are right now. Your nightmares seem to be repeating themselves in a never-ending loop of happiness to misery and back. You wake up feeling like the world is falling apart, progressively improve throughout the day, and then revert to your previous state. "It'll be okay," "life gets better," "you deserve the best," "life moves on and so should you," things you'll heard from your friends and family, you know they're correct but you just can't feel it. You believe you've exhausted all of your options and that you're destined to handle everything on your own.

Bring yourself back to the present. Make use of your senses. Take notice of the beauty that exists in the world around you. Distract yourself from the situation. Laugh out loud during an amusing show. Create. Take pictures. Even in your room, you enjoy snapping images. Meditate. Surround yourself with individuals who can sympathize or care. There are people who care about you and want to help you.

Do whatever it takes to reclaim your true self. She hasn't left yet. She's well worth the effort.  You are courageous. You are brilliant, intelligent, and capable. You are beautiful, strong, and caring. At any size, you are stunning. You are cherished. You'll make it through. You will get over this, even if it isn't today or tomorrow.

I hope things will get better soon. I love you always!

Love,
Me <3