Let your compass be your heart

I have been interested in spiritual matters since I was little, and since I was the only one in the family to be interested in such matters, I was always a little "alien" to them. The subjects I was interested in or trying to understand were always foreign to my peers. To be honest, I'm still triggered by that little girl. As long as I take up space in this life, I will try to be triggered and get a little closer to the Essence with each trigger.

Isn't the hardest thing in the world to do justice to the practice of being ourselves, regardless of what people around us think? Friends, I wrote it in one sentence, but we all know that it is not easy to do justice to it.

I still remember the moment I attended my first yoga class years ago. Somehow I felt a very strong attraction in that place where words were not used. I finished the first basic yoga specialization program and I think a year later I decided to take the second basic 200-hour basic yoga specialization program from another specialist. Everyone thought it unnecessary for me to take the second basic 200 hour yoga specialization program. But it was the same attraction that I felt. It was a very strong, clear, distinct flow that I couldn't resist.

My story of quitting a full-time job was also the product of this flow. Despite the many fearful scenarios of the mind, I was able to take action and leave my safe space. Life brought me to the present because I chose to walk here and there step by step. But here's the news: Some dropouts can contain a few comebacks, and that's okay!

Writing and giving yoga classes are the same attraction for me. As I write, I become the person who lets the words flow rather than trying to be the picker or determinant. I'm already mediating anyone who wants to come out. That's why we have a special relationship… The same is true when teaching. As a yoga instructor, my biggest inspiration is to have the practice of seeing different bodies, stories, holding space and being yourself without thinking about what's in front of you, next to you or behind you, in that yoga class.

Isn't it courage to feel attracted to someone and let them guide you? Because we humans actually always avoid feeling. The real problem is we're running without knowing we're running. At some point we become so numb that we think it's fear when we're drawn to something. And then the whole movie gets mixed up.

The thing I see most in the body language of those who have their first yoga class in group classes (including their changing psychology from time to time) is shyness, their belief that they are wrong or that they cannot do it. This is where I like to remind the most, because that's where I learned to remember.

Last year, when I decided to open a yoga studio in the darkest part of the pandemic, everyone around me thought it wasn't a healthy idea. According to them, I was getting into a failing business and everyone was coming to me with the worst case scenario. Friends, it is not easy to travel when you hear such voices around you, believe me. But again I felt the same thing: It had happened that the decision had already appeared and the path was formed. What would happen if I didn't go down this road? I don't know, but it was that clear shot that I felt. To be honest, I feel that the studio is healing me on a deep plane, but again, I can't explain it in words.

And I've been feeling the same pull towards Vedic Astrology for a while now. I shouldn't write about what people say about this, should I? I've been studying basic Vedic Astrology for two months now and after yoga I feel my appetite for learning and understanding in a different subject is back. Same strong shot! And this time, as I learn to interpret my own chart (although I often don't like what I see), I'm starting to understand why I'm experiencing certain things. Friends, it is a 5000-year-old system, very deep and detailed, there are many maps, so it looks like my love for understanding will stay warm in this regard, just as my love for understanding has always remained warm by feeding on different systems in yoga.

I always do the same thing when everyone around me starts to confuse me: What is really going on? What do I want to do? Is what I'm feeling right now real? Do I tug here and there for something to happen, or do I pull there/him?

I think there is something I always write about: Decisions from the heart are like the flow of water. It cannot flow in any other direction. He believes it could be otherwise because of illusions, so here we go hand-rolling our own movie.

Shall I make a big confession? When I looked at my own Vedic chart, I saw that I had no choice but to become a yoga instructor. So I understand that our soul is most deeply drawn towards the thing(s) that it will heal us. And in fact, this life compass that we call gravity, coming from beyond, descending into our hearts! We don't need to know the Vedic chart to listen! Thank goodness here Anbean...