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I hope everyone's warm on this cold, cold night. Few more days and it's going to be my birthday. The first day of the Christmas holiday in the Philippines. (Yes, the Philippines has the longest Christmas celebration). Not that we're going to have a feast hehe. But I am still thankful, more than ever, that everyone that I love is safe and healthy. It's the best birthday gift for me. Know what? Our bedroom light broke today, we just bought it a week ago. It made Saoirse happy because it was so bright that she could clearly see the entire room and play in our bed. I tried checking if it's just a loose connection but Jasper plugged it into another socket and it still didn't work. Life like's that, sometimes, we thought that everything's perfectly fine until we're busted, caught unprepared. Sigh...It's been so long since I have had this deep and heavy sadness. I carry it every day. And I am not sure when this will go away. I think it's here to stay. Sometimes I question my sanity. And I plea to God to hold it firmly. To don't let go. So I have these crazy questions on: Crazy random stuff
First, what was wrong with our freaking light? Arggh, I wish I have my own tester so I can check where the continuity issue is. Maybe I can fix it and save some pesos rather than buying a new one. Could you tell me if there's something I didn't do? Life and its uncertainty When will this pandemic end? I know everyone is agitated to go out, to meet with their friends, to travel, etc. Some of us are trying to get back to "normal" but undeniably, it is not the "old normal" anymore. Are we going to be prisoners of this pandemic for life? Is it true that Covid-19 is man-made, a biological weapon? Something personal
Is there a possibility that I will see my mama in the future? Most of the people that I know lost someone. Am I not gonna see my mama who lives a thousand miles away from me? Is she gonna "go" first, or will it be me? What I'm worried about is: does she have the chance to see my wake before I go 6 feet underground? Is there an afterlife so we could meet if we're not given the chance here on Earth? Do my friends still remember me? I miss them but it seems that they are busy with their lives. I haven't moved on, our happy memories are still in my heart. Will they come and visit me one day when this pandemic is over? Are they going to invite me for a reunion or catch-up? Am I gonna see my close friend **Mai**, who is battling **stage 4 cancer**? Can I support her again, like the way I used to?
Am I gonna save this failing relationship? I do feel that we are going on the brink of separation. What? We don't talk after we argue. We no longer iron things out. We seem to be irritated with each other in every minor issue. I love him, I do but I'm lost. I wanna try to connect with him but I don't know "where the continuity issue is". Maybe I am as busted as he is. Lol. *************************************************************** I am freezing cold as well as my brain so I'm gonna finish this article now. Hopefully, I can still watch Netflix after this because there are so many exciting series that I wanna look into. I doubt it. How about you, what are your questions about life? Do you aim to know the answers or do you prefer to forget them? **************************************************************** This is my entry for the 5th writing prompt: Questions by Ms. @JonicaBradley and I wish you will join too. I am looking forward to reading your piece. **To my wonderful sponsors, THANK YOU AS ALWAYS**: I highly recommend that you visit their pages and read their articles for inspiration and tips on how to become an effective writer. To my visitors, co-writers, I value your comment, feedback, suggestions, and generosity. I may not always say this in the comment, but I do appreciate your time, effort, and your upvotes.
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Very thoughtful post my dear :) and advance happy birthday to you :) God be with you all the time
Thank you for the birthday wishes and the compliment :) God bless you too!
Oh, sorry to read about your new light bulb. Maybe it's really faulty. We have had that experience too. It was fine when they tested at the shop but when we got home, it just doesn't work. Your questions are many indeed and some perhaps don't need answers. As to your last questions, I do think you can do something about that :) heart-to-heart talk? It gets more difficult as the days pass by :)
Thanks sis, siguro kailangan namin ng heart to heart talk..I appreciate the advice.
Just my thoughts :) Sometimes when we drag things like that it will just become heavier. Hope everything will turn out alright between you too. Mag-date din kayo kahit sa likod bahay hihihi
Thanks sis. May plano kaming kumain ng fishball nung 22 kasi Anniv namin. Nagaway pa kami up to the last minute. Bongga di ba hehe
Oh, sorry to hear sis. Siguro stressed kyo on some other things but I believe you can talk it out :)
Yes sis siguro nga :) We'll get through this, thanks sa mga advice.
Cheers sis :)
Thanks sis, cheers!
Stop! :) Give yourself a break and not think too much. Focus on what you can control and pray for God will make things better. I hope you get to find someone to talk about these questions you have for they are real concerns. God is good. Hang in there.
Thank you po, I really appreciate your advice. Siguro dahil I've been inside the house for too long. Palagi kasi kami lumalabas for a stroll. I should start journaling uli.
Ou sana makapag stroll man lang kayo.
Nagaway na kasi kami ng inlaws ko about going out but siguro jan na lang muna kahit sa labas ng gate.
Advance happy birthday po sa inyo. Hahahha ang cute po ng pangalan ng Saoirse may kilala din po ako na ganyan yung name eh. Anyway palagi din po may thoughts sa isip ko tuwing nalulungkot ako pero nag papray lang po ako para kahit papaano ay gumaan ang pakiramdam ko.
Thank you po, yeah I will pray harder next time :)
Yes po and always think positive lang po kahit na mahirap pong gawin.
Thank you po, I appreciate it :D
There are so many questions in our lives. Some will never have an answer, such as why happens to your new light bulb. But I hope you can give yourself a break, and talk about your relationship. All relationships go through difficult times. Life is up and downs. Sometimes they are worth saving, and sometimes they aren't. I sincerely hope you find your answers. A hug
Thank you for the wisdom and hug, both needed :)