I tried to tell myself that you loved me the best way you knew how, but I was just lying to myself. I let you treat me in a way that I never should have allowed and it’s my fault for letting that happen. I’m not going to blame you for being who you are, that’s just your nature. I’m better than that and for some reason, I forgot that when we met. I stopped standing up for myself and letting my voice be heard. I don’t know why I ever accepting being just an option when I always should have been a priority. Truth is, it took a lot of tears and sleepless nights to make me realize that the only way I could be happy with you was to walk away. I let you get comfortable treating me in ways so much less than I deserve and I’m leaving because I have more self respect than to keep chasing the affection of someone who’s unwilling to give it as they should. I shouldn’t have to fight for your attention or beg for you to spend time with me..those are things you should have just wanted to do because you loved me. I don’t know if you’ll ever change or if you’ll just find someone willing to be okay with being second best, but that’s not me nor will it ever be again. I have to thank you for waking me up and reminding me never to settle for anyone or anything less than the best. I know my worth and what I deserve and you never saw that in me..
Which makes me sad, mostly for you.
We could have had an amazing love story, but your ego and inability to change will be a testament to your selfish love.. And I don’t want that in my life, now or ever. I’m walking away, shaking my head at my foolishness but stronger because I refused to be treated that way and made the hard choice.. I’m taking back my power and keeping my standards and hopes high. I know who I am and what I deserve but I learned a lot from you..mostly what I don’t want in a partner. I wish you the best in your life but the lessons you taught me will last me a lifetime.. I’m sorry for my part in the fights , the bad feelings and hurt emotions, but most of all,
I owe myself the biggest apology for letting you treat me poorly.
You showed everything I don’t want and now, I’m aiming for the stars.
Now, I’m not holding out for a hero, I’m the hero of my own tale.. and come what may, I’ll find my love story.. This time, it’ll be real, it’ll be respectful and it will be forever...Just the way I’ve always deserved.