Heartbroken. Devastated. Unable to function. Dumbfounded.

This is me these past few days. I was hurt and it still does hurt and I don't know how to proceed with this kind of feeling.

It was my first time to encounter this kind of emotion. It feels like I'm dealing with a break up but I am not. I am still in a healthy relationship.

It is not about us. It is not about me. It is about that kdrama that made me cry a river, that made my eyes swell. Yup, it is about that kdrama that made me sleep late at night.

It was Yijin and Heedo of Twenty five, twenty one.

Disclaimer:

CONTINUE READING IF you haven't watched the series yet and you don't have a plan watching it.

SKIP THIS IF you're planning of watching this series, this article might spoil you.

While reading this, try to listen to this as well. This is Twenty Five, Twenty One's OST.

Yijin and Heedo really had a special relationship. It's not the cliché romcom couple, there's something about this drama that really got me. I don't know if it's the vibe, it's the same with Reply series, especially Reply 1988 or if it is the situations, the scenarios in the series that made me love it even more.

In this article, I'll state the devastating reasons why I still like this series despite the fact that it broke my heart.

I can relate to Heedo

Maybe not in all ways, but in some ways. Having a parent who's always busy, a parent who doesn't even have a time with you, that's one of the heartbreaking scenes for me.

I grew up independent. My mom used to work abroad and my dad was working as well. They were both busy. Eating alone and spending time alone is my forte that's why it's not difficult for me to watch movies alone in the cinemas and eat alone in restaurants. I can still remember attending awarding ceremonies but my parents weren't there to stand on the stage with me and receive the awards. It was my friends' parents who filled that void. They were the ones who stood beside me when I received my awards back then when the reason I wanted to excel was for my parents to spend some time with me.

With that, I grew up wanting to always spend quality time with my loved ones. I treasure the times I spend with my friends and of course, with my partner. It is one of my non-negotiables in life. I know the feeling of being left behind, waiting, being disappointed. If people wanted to spend their time with me, they will make an effort.

And that was heartbreaking in this drama, Yijin, decided to stay in New York for his work, leaving Heedo all alone in Korea. Heedo longs for quality time. It is what she was deprived of and now, she's expecting Yijin to give that need, unfortunately, Yijin cannot do that for the sake of his career and his all time goal, to reunite his family. He thought choosing his career will make Heedo happy but it was the opposite. He knew that being away from Heedo, not meeting her deepest need, was devastating. They had been rooting for each other, despite the distance, and yet they grew apart. Rooting for each other's success and happiness meant not being together and that hurts a lot! They then decided to let go of each other despite the fact that they still love each other. For me, this kind of break up is the worse. There's no third party, just two people in love, choosing what's best for the other even if it means hurting yourself. Okay, now I'm crying 🥺

It is growing up, in a nutshell

It depicts the bittersweet reality of growing up. It means losing friends, losing lovers, chasing dreams, making yourself better, and knowing better.

Memories are what's left behind. Even if those people we thought will be there for us forever were gone, we can still remember the happy moments we've shared with them. One of the lines I loved the most in this drama is this ..

It's a gamble to confess your feelings. Either you get it all or lose it all.

Heedo and Yijin took the risk and now, they lost it. What makes this beautifully heartbreaking is the fact that even if they lost it, they once had it.

If it was you, would you dare to confess and take it all in knowing that you'll lose it eventually or you'll just stay as you are, as friends?

This is it for now. I still have a lot on my mind but I can't put it in words. Let me know your answers in this question 💖

Despite what I'm feeling right now, this series is one of the best kdramas I've ever watched. From the plot, the cinematography, the lines, and even the acting are superb!!

April 6, 2022

I'd like to thank @Lucifer01 for the renewal ☺️