I was 16, in my junior year in highschool when I met you. We were school mates but it was that time we were introduced to each other.
I admit, I had a crush on you when I was still a freshman and never I would have thought that we'd end up classmates.
I was so kilig and I couldn't help it. I always look at you whenever I got the chance. And then you had a girlfriend, I forbid myself to fall in love deeper so I had to avoid you. I did my best to focus on my studies and it worked for me, I got honors and praises and there are boys that started to notice me as a girl.
I'm not the prettiest girl in the campus but I'm confident and I have the brains.
I was always the teachers pet and was everyone's friend. Even though I kept my circle of friends so small, I have those friends that may not be around all the time but I still consider my friends.
I have friends from lower year and they're all looking up to me. My junior year was fun. It was all about making friends and achieving acads.
Little did I know that from a far there's someone rooting and cheering for me silently. Someone who's happy when I'm happy. Someone whos willing to wait to be noticed. Let's call him Isaac
Class ended and everyone went on vacation. Social media was not my thing before so I enjoyed my vacation in the province with my family, unaware of what's been circulating online.
Isaac posted a stolen picture of me, even though my face wasn't visible, my friends were able to identify that that was me. It was captioned "I hope to be classmates with you"
Another school year has opened and everyone was so excited. I have so many things to catch up with my friends and I felt so left behind for not using social media accounts. They talk about stuff and such and when the conversation was directed to me, I was silenced.
Isaac and I became classmates and we became friends. After a while he confessed his love to me. I found that his previous relationship didn't work and only last a week.
I was happy but I was scared. I am graduating and I have to be the top of the class I don't want him to be a hindrance for me to reach my goals.
He courted me, he introduced his self to my parents and would always take me home after class. He was my knight in shining armour. I love him I know that my heart, but my dreams are o strongly etched in my heart. I have a goal. At that time I was scared to tell him I love him because I thought he'd be reason of my failure.
As a role model in my campus and as someone that the younger students looked up to, I needed to be a good influence for them. I don't want to disappoint my teachers and my parents.
He kept courting me, until graduation came. He ignored me, like I wasn't even there like I was invisible in his sights. That was the hardest moment my 16 year old self ever felt. I felt betrayed and broken. I was crying mainly because of him.
Isaac, I know there's a very low chance you'll be able to read this, I miss you and I miss how you treated me. Don't you ever think that your love for me was unrequited because no it was not. I love you, I just didn't have the courage to tell you.
If I could ever go back to that time, I'd show you how much you mean to me. I wish I wasn't so concerned of people would tell me. You are my first love and my first heartbreak.