Forever sigh What will I do? What should I do? I've set my eyes, and they are on you. Shed light on my path. Meet my eyes and show me your heart. I will not cry but I will forever sigh. Show me mercy and lighten my day. But... What will I do with you? You are unattainable. What will I do with myself? Should I demonstrate, for you to compensate? All these headaches and pains, I cannot do without you... I'll use the pen as my spear and gear, to battle with the pain even if in…
The game of life Life sure is not that easy. Why does the letter ‘o’ in the English alphabet have to have the same shape as the number zero? But people are not that worried either. They seem to be alright with the scenario. Can we just distinguish between the number zero and letter o? Or maybe, I am just the one who is not so particular here. Maybe, the slimmer figure is the number while the more rounded shape is the letter o. Ah… whatever… Life sure is not that easy. When I…
I will slow down writing here for a while It's not that I don't have time because we can always make time. But yeah, that is it, I probably cannot make time to write every single day here. Hence I may just publish once in a while. For times I can, I will publish every day. For times I can't, I will not force it out on myself. I have consumed so much energy and I needed to relax for a bit. Thank you for your support so far.
Paying the high price for being indulgent and a loner Perhaps, it is a costly lifestyle to be a loner. Most of the restaurants that I go to are those that offer expensive food and services. I don't like people-packed places. I don't mean to spend dearly either. It's just that I feel healthier when I dine at well-served places. Checking my wallet, I think it is best to simply build an office at home, adorn it with proper adornment, and design it so I could go well to my…
Fading into oblivion Faint. It is no longer that strong. I begin to not see it that frequently anymore. I become helpless to the prospect of having it as reality. If only I can realize it... But the limitations hold me back. The reality holds me back. If I had the liberty, then I would've done it long ago. Until I noticed the dream fading into oblivion. It can't be helped if it will be gone forever. Yet here I am, wishing I could hold on to it. Make it alive even just in my…
Almost I almost bid goodbye. To this writing journey. To this platform. Luckily, there are these magical moments I could cling to for dear writing's life. At dawn, when the night meets day... In the afternoon when I think of the beautiful sun while I sit near the window or glass wall. During the quiet of the night when most call it a day and rest and sleep. Right now that I suddenly have a title on my mind. I almost bid goodbye. Luckily I am one lucky gal. The blank page has…
Time for an exercise If you're thinking about jogging or running, you're quite wrong. I am referring to writing with pen and paper. It's been a long time since I have done this. Two weeks or just a few days without writing like this is all already considered a long time for me. My writing's quite unsteady and I can't make it look good but I know that it will get better in time. Given that I will continue doing this. Hoping so. I was so used to typing on computers and other…
The pain is there even if it is not too much I sinned unto myself by enjoying much of life. No, abusing is the more appropriate word. I have abused life's pleasures. And now I am suffering the consequences of my actions. The pain stays after the pleasure. I am bearing as much as I could. But I know it won't be long for complications to come. Still, I am hoping for a good prognosis. I am sad. Too sad it ends this way. But I've got to fight, oh, please, self!!! And I ask, why…
Have I grown tired of you, my love? I so wanted to write stuff these past few days. The problem is I was emptied. For whatever reason, those seemingly endless thoughts I have had before that I can't wait to bring on paper disappeared. So I thought that I will just simply write. And here goes my ramblings. I just put my fingers on my phone and started typing. I do admit that I didn't have readings recently. Those that I have read were just a few pages of some ebooks. I failed…
I went straight into the mouth of doom If I valued my happiness and not others, I wouldn't have gone straight into the mouth of doom. Waking up always trying to feign that I am okay... Walking without confidence, shoulders down and eyes sighing. If eyes ever sigh... Smiling with a lot of reservations... Putting an act each night when needed... Why would you choose this kind of life? I ask myself. And neither I nor the audience air could answer. I wake up every day with…
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