Sad thought of uncertainty and philosophy that makes things bearable In this lifetime, I don't know if I will ever see you again. *Photo credits: Unsplash* The thought of uncertainty makes me look away in sadness. Does it make me any prettier to be missing you this way? And if I openly miss you, what will I get from it? Certainly, life understands the predicament of people like me. But right is right and wrong is wrong. No matter how understanding the universe is, there is…
A place so sweet to cry and hide This is a place so sweet for me to come and cry and hide my tears from everyone. The bittersweet tears I taste that flows from my eyes to my face. I'm thankful for the memories, and for the goodbyes and the tears. I like the goodbyes despite the tears. It makes me do other things that I need to do. I like the tears. It clears my eyes from debris. When no one is permitted to know my heart, I simply come here to confess. To the canvas, to the…
Changes I am in awe of I could still remember the gazillions of questions I have had running in my mind the first time I came face to face with crypto. I wasn't really face to face with crypto but I was so much puzzled when I first learned about it. Thanks to my dear good friend, who made me come here to write. I have finally learned about crypto and I have now a basic knowledge about its founding concepts. The zero-knowledge proof is one concept that got me in awe. How…
But when I... Some friends and relatives and even in-laws are so diligent in pointing out your flaws. They do it to a point that you feel yourself wavering from the things you believe in. One day, you just decided to stop talking altogether and just smile and play safe so no one would criticize you again. Then bam! Another type of something emerges. They question you for suddenly going inside your shell. They wonder why you do not seem to be yourself. They make speculations…
Driving people away is my forte, my drum of holding them is broken Driving people away is my forte. My drum of holding people might just be broken, I can't seem to let them stay long. I might be afraid of fights in the way, and I hate misunderstandings as I hate the snake dreams that I've been having. And why did I have snake dreams? Of all the things that should have been appearing in my dreams? Why snakes? I hate that. It amplifies the fears that I am having in these days.…
We should live life with a positive mindset It's quite depressing. You know. To live life. With today's hypes and all. We sometimes can't focus on what's worthy to be done for ourselves. Sometimes, we forget that life is a gift to be lived. We let the negative things get the best of us. But we shouldn't sulk. We should forget negative pasts, and forgive ourselves as well as people. We should live our lives positively. We should live life on the optimistic side. When we focus…
Just a short sentiment Why can't one feel enough confidence to be able to get through the tough times? I hate it that I had to experience the so-called impostor syndrome. I wish I could get away with this. My feelings and circumstance is so much aligned with its definitions that I see online. Well, I have to practice so that I may be more confident. Let's believe in ourselves, guys!
Their youth is my vigor, when I see them, I imagine my youth and I get vigor A lot of growing kids, I see them. They pass by my window, sometimes my door. I look at the beautiful ones, of the healthy ones, and I get some vigor. Time passes by me. I am no one but some strange poet. I speak in codes and I want to be understood but not. I use vague languages, I don’t go straight to the point. When I fail to express myself into the open, I go to my shell, leaving me exasperated…
A lot of reservations but no savings at all It should be that I have a lot that was saved financially. Considering that I have a lot of reservations, a lot of things kept secret. But I lose it every time. Instead of saving up, I buy on impulse and I rarely hold back spending money even though I am aware of the long term impact on my finances. I would like to complain about this complexity but whom to complain? I complain only to myself. This is the reason why I stopped using…
Why is it so easy to slide back? And after all that I've said it is just easy to throw them away. I promised this and that, made some resolution to execute this or that. But when I am caught up in my emotions I forget my commitments and I just indulge in my sadness or whatever. After all the words I spoke, words I've written, words I advised myself. After all those release of bold statements of taking a changed path, for the better, for one's own good, for a better life...…
Crying to the pain When do you cry because of pain? I have to tell you my son cries because, from time to time, his feet gets some opening due to the corn that cracks on his thumb. His feet is also callused. The hardened surface got him aches and so he cries because of the pain. But boy, he is stubborn and hard to tell on. That's probably the reason why he has those corns and calluses on his feet. And does he acknowledge his mistake? I can't tell now. I patiently explain the…
Remember not to forget I recently noticed how forgetful I am becoming. I would say things like promises and all, including in this account that I use for blogging, I would mention things. And the next time, everything seems to be foggy in my mind. The best solution I could think of is writing down statements I have released. Just so I could have basis for what I said earlier. It has just got to be just notes so I wouldn't be able to get overwhelmed and throw my journal out.…
Let the happy season begin I don’t understand how a person can be unusually lonely and sad even with the company of her kids and neighbors, and also friends. I can attest to be being unusually lonely and sad that I begin to wonder how it happens. I am so indulgent to be reflecting about the probable causes but what I could realized is that maybe I just wanted some sort of proofing and ensuring that my future is secure. Or free from unnecessary stressors. I hate the…
Tonight will be a memory This moment will be a treasured memory. In the years to come, I know, I will be wishing I was still here, listening to the sound of my thoughts while I sing with my favorite singers on YouTube and watch my little children while they sleep. Inside this sliver is a priceless moment. I talk to Him while I barely get a night's sleep. Worried by the distant or near future... Thieved by that dashing young man... Balanced by the necessities of life... Loved…
Losing a loved one I remember reading my Lola's article before about losing loved ones thru death, leaving a void in the heart. I woke up to the news of the sudden death of a great figure in our town. I felt a surge of emotions from feeling of sadness to feeling a void in my heart. The man who passed made a lot of contributions to our society and I can't help feeling helpless. It is as if he left a piece of a puzzle that we have no choice but to continue ourselves. He may…
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