THE UNTOLD STORY BEHIND HER APPS.
“Oh, so gorgeous Solazy ha!”
I chuckled as I read Moon’s comment in my dp.
I just leave a react and leave my phone in the table.
I squeeze my eyes and stretched my body in the bed.
“wuahh, I’m still really sleepy.” l yawn and murmured.
It's already past midnight and I woke up because of notifications vibrating in my phone again and again.
_ _ _ _
“ate! Ate!”
Prime shouted running towards me.
“what is it?” l asked and giggle.
Did she remembers it?
“March 18, 5:00 a.m…." She said uncomplete…
“oh, lil sis, you came here just to-
“it’s the time today that your Tiktok video reach to million views and thousand reacts! It became trending ateee! How I wish to be youu..” she murmured,
“oh ate, I will go to my room na, I’m blogging kasi.” she added,
My lips pouted, how can she wish to be like me?
_ _ _ _
“update ka na, happy pill kooo!”
I stare with a lonely gaze in the comment to my last vlog in youtube.
So here I am again,
Left no choice, but to act.
_ _ _ _
“do you know what? I hate my apps.” l tell someone while looking at my phone.
“why? You’re such a famous girl in-
“the first that is getting to my nerves is Facebook.
Where all will just base in looks.
In seven reacts to be choosen I stare,
With my head who shook.
They will react Love and say “ I like you,”
Care as a support and say “How I wish to be you.”
Momma click Wow, but tell me “Be amazing more.” Out of the blue.
My sister reacted like, and I heard she said she’s jealous but showing no clue.
Oh, even in a million comments, my heart is empty that I have no longer words to sew.
With my birthdate today,
That forgotten by all of you.”
I rolled my eyes.
“know what’s next?”
It stays quiet.
“It’s my Instagram.
With wonderful pictures that I am ashamed.
All created in an act.
And their heart that is not open for me, no matter how many times I knock.
They look into my face, without seeing the beauty inside my shell that cracks.
Maybe, I will just die out of shock.”
It made my lips smile and streamed my tears down.
“mostly, Tiktok burst my anger.
Dancing with beat, twirling like a roller.
They will say, movements of mine is a masterpiece as ever.
While father’s not proud, so I promised to be better.
Compliments on mine doesn’t matter.
I just wanna say “enough” in this coldness that I shiver.
Should I pretend forever?”
I hugged myself with one arm holding my phone that plays the camera.
Yes, no one is listening to me, I’m just talking to myself.
“and know what? I hate camera as ever, I hate you!
How you reflect me so beautiful.
While the wounds in my heart finding for cure.
I know, being beautiful is their very rule.
But please, can we stop being a fool?
I tried, but I’m tired, change my appearance and make me whole.
A flashing light appears on my phone.
Now, I finally found peace.
_ _ _ _
“Make sure to find Solazy, huh!” mother told the police with a firing gaze in her eyes.
“hoy, Prime, what’s happening to your account? You’re losing followers!” Father exclaimed to my sister.
“that Solazy posted a video! Nagpapaawa siya saying a poetry! Sinisiraan nya tayo…,” she cried.
It’s been five weeks since Solazy became missing and now, we can’t still find her.
.
I just smirked,
See?
You all guys just used me!
Now, I no longer hate my apps, having this simple reflection every time I look in the mirror is enough.
I’m no longer a fool.
New face, new life, new me and my rules.
Written by: hann23lhee
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