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September is not my month

September is so passive for me. I can't remember a day I can call productive within the half of the month. Well, the month has not ended yet but I feel the remaining days will be as boring and passive as the days that went by. How about you, dearest friends? What happened to the half of your September? I do hope it went good for all of you. I read a lot of articles about how good was the start of their September. Some welcomed it with a high hopes of earning more. The coming of smartBCH made me restless too! I can't keep up with trend. I tried but I almost give up not until I saw one of my tokens has numbers in it. I don't know how to make gains with it or to even convert it to BCH. Whatever, I guess I'll just keep it that way and read more for updates and airdrops. Maybe I can get the whole thing along the process. If they can, why can't I, right? September is not my month. I am quite pessimistic about it but I just don't want to make myself assume anything. I am so done with assuming so I guess it's time for me to accept what's real. I know I should not declare that this month is not good for me since it has not ended yet but you know, there are times when we feel we know what happens next. And I am feeling it now. I feel like the remaining days will be even more passive. And because of it, I felt tired and lonesome. Why do I say so? It's because I haven't earned as much as I earned last month. My goal of saving a certain amount was not realized. I know I tried everything but God really has planned different from mine. My sideline job was not stable too. Sometimes we have a project and sometimes we don't have. It makes me lazier. You know when you are working for days straight and then tomorrow, you'll not. I was used to moving and working and the sudden halt of the job somewhat breaks my momentum. Lastly, my will to write is not that great as before. I lose my style of writing which is the funny, outgoing guy. I feel like everything I wrote here doesn't suit me for most of you know me to be the funny one. And now I am being dramatic. I feel the discontentment in me. I don't want to be sad despite of everything so I need beautiful distractions. How did I slowly eradicate discontentment?

I am not sure if I really eradicate the discontentment in me but I find these ways effective for they made me forget about the negativities. First, I deviate my focus into something beautiful. Like yesterday when my workmate told us that the contractor has not called yet meaning we don't have work for that day. Instead of being broke all day, I went to the kitchen and fried my favorite fish (not from my aquarium) which I bought for $4.00. I know eating will make me happy so I did it. Second, I tease my little brother and make fun of him. I seldom do this these days so I kinda miss to annoy the little one. I hid his milk because I know that's his favorite drink everyday. When he asked for milk to my mom, my mom hastened to the kitchen to prepare it for him but unfortunately, she can't find it. She told my little brother the milk was gone so he was there crying hard. Lol! I told him to stop crying and give me a kiss on the cheek so he will have his milk. He loves milk so much that's why he obeyed my command. Third, I listen to music so I can sleep and escape overthinking. Yes, sleep is my escape from everything. I don't want to be stressed all day thinking about my unfulfilled goals so I'd rather sleep. To do this, music is my best company. All genres of music are my type but OPM songs hit differently. My soundtrack was filled with Ben and Ben songs, December Avenue, I belong to the zoo and Silent Sanctuary. Do you know any of these? If you do then you have a nice music taste. Kidding! I do recommend their songs for they are really good. Their songs make me sleep. As I am writing this, I feel like my eyes are about to drop since I am listening to my soundtrack. So I better end this now and have some sleep. Will get back later to write another article for tomorrow. Though September is not my month, I will still work, but this time, I will work smart. **Let's all be positive though we can feel bad energy is around. Let's move and think how beautiful is life if we just view it as it is.** Hello everyone! If you have some useful tips or guide which can help me improve, you can let me know in the comment section. I may not know all about you now but I am eager to know you deeper. I will work hard so I can be like the amazing writers here. I have talked to some people and they are all amazing. Thank you so much for reading! Comments are very much appreciated. Same appreciation goes to my upvoters and kind sponsors. Again, this is gwapojohn at your service. 😉 Let's get connected! *All photos are taken from Unsplash.com*

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