Fighting Sadness

Connection Between Sadness and Sad Music

It will sound banal, but the bad news more or less shock everyone. As soon as I heard the bad news, I immediately think, “don’t think about it, don’t think about it!” But not thinking about what you’re trying not to think about is, guess what, impossible.

And often, after hearing bad new, I turn on sad music.

I have one seriously bad trait - I can't listen to music without identifying with it. As a result, I’ve probably never shared any song without reason, without wanting to say anything about it. All the songs associate me with someone and remind me of something.

There was a time when in my life I felt completely stuck and, like, constantly depressed. My dad loved music as much as I do. So we used to sit for a long time and I played his favorite songs to him one by one. I remember how he said that if I want my mood to be good, I have to create it, and music is one way to create a mood. Then, of course, I said that it was nonsense and that the most important thing is that the song be good. But after that, I kept remembering and thinking about it many times, knowing deep down inside that it was true.

Still, after that conversation, the number of very, very dark songs in my repertoire started to decline. Some bands from the playlists are gone altogether.

However, every time I read such news I am really sad. When there are so many people in the world, and especially in our country, with aching hearts, our government is only able to add more bans; for instance, alcohol bans, forgetting to think about the reasons why so many people choose to drown in sadness instead of offering the real, normal help.

Lately, I meet so many different people every day. Banal, but I see everyone in life fighting their own struggle. Everyone has their dark secrets and things that remain behind an artificial smile, behind glare-free eyes. I know there are a lot of people with depression or being somewhere close to it in a city that is smiling at first glance.

My Battle With Sadness

I also fight my fight. My struggle is a huge effort to push aside everything that is sad, say goodbye to what makes me feel bad, and make an effort every day to be happy. To be surrounded by people I love, to do what I want to do, to discover something new every day that would make me happy, spitting into the expectations and desires of all possible people for my life choices. I have to admit, sometimes it’s damn hard, but I haven’t found a more proven way yet.

Final Thoughts

What is the summary of all this? I don't know. I just want to see people more often and learn to recognize sadness in the eyes of my friends, family members, colleagues, and other people I meet, because sometimes a day is saved by a completely random smile or a good word. And sometimes someone just needs to be put in the car and escorted to a specialist.

Stay in peace.