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My noise.cash experience

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Written by   222
1 year ago

May 3, 2021 Monday

I honestly don't know how to start an article anymore. Like a freewriting article. I think I got that writer's block that is not going away. I don't know why. Oh well, let me atleast try something anyway.

I didn't plan to make an article this morning. I just slept last night at 10 pm and woke up at 3:45 a.m. with a sore throat. I tried to remember what I drank last night that gave me this sore throat. Then I remembered, I drank camomile tea before going to bed and didn't drink any water after that. So that is why.

After realizing that, I checked my noise.cash account and see how is it going. I didn't see much noise so I checked my wallet. I know I slept with around $2.82+ pending on my wallet. I was hoping to end the day getting $3.00 minimum payout at least but it didn't happen.

I was disappointed with myself and then a lot of things came to my mind as to why I got disappointed. At first, I question myself, am I doing something wrong? Am I not making good contents? Am I not worthy? After that, I question other people. Why are they like this, why are they like that. Then, I question the circumstances. I honestly did not get any answer until I realized something just now.

I realized something about yesterday which is a sort of an experiment for myself.

What did I do the other day that I did or didn't do yesterday? What did I think the other day that I wasn't thinking yesterday?

The other day, I set my goal at $2.00 only. I think or I thought I had reached it before midnight. But when I went back, it was already past midnight when I reached it but I was just okay with it. I didn't feel any disappointments at all. I was actually proud that I got $2.00 by posting the things I like to post. I didn't even bother checking my wallet and pending tips. I think I only checked it once or twice to check if my bitcoin address is correct. I didn't feel tired or exhausted.

Then yesterday, I set my goal at $3.00 just added a dollar to my previous goal. I kept on checking if I already reached my goal in noise.cash and I didn't while I'm seeing people achieving their goal and even surpasses them. This is what disappoints me. I counted the number of posts I made. I made more or less 20 post mostly with photos taken by myself. Then, some of those I got from my share from the free tips I'm giving to others. Some came from the hearts I received on my posts and comments.

Here is my conclusion.

I lost focus and purpose. I lost the feeling of being contented with what I have and what I can get. I've put too much expectation from other people which was not met. And I let envy and greediness inside my head that is why I feel so tired and exhausted and disappointed with everything.

I lost focus and purpose. My focus in noise.cash is to make good contents and let them do the work. But my focus from making good contents shifted to getting more tips. My purpose is to inspire people with my content and hopefully it would give a smile to their faces. I lost those two that I'm planning to re-focus on just doing a good content. I want to feel again the contentment of just being able to share my thoughts and not expecting anything in return.

I've put too much expectation from other people. I believe in the saying that give and you shall receive. I was expecting so much from other people to give me more. I was expecting that they will give more since maybe they are getting more based from their posts. But I was wrong. It is their hard earned money and it is not up to me if they are going to give me anything or not. So, my solution is, less expectations, less disappoinments but the best solution is, NO EXPECTATIONS, NO DISAPPOINTMENTS. If they give me something, then, thank you so much. If not, then, that's fine too.

I let envy and greediness inside my head. It's human nature to be envy and greedy. That is why it is a mortal sin. I feel envy whenever I see people posts reaching their goal and even surpasses them. Don't get me wrong. I am happy when people are achieving their goals. I am not that envious enough to not be happy for them. What I mean is that, I feel envy at least I think I hope I have those things they achieved too. Not that I would wish to take away theirs. I'm not that bad I think. Honestly, real talk. I often get envy. It's like the saying in Filipino language, "Mapapa-Sana All ka na lang talaga." It's a joke and I don't normally say it because if I always say it, it means I'm letting envy get inside my head. And I don't want that. Greediness got inside my head too. You know why? Because of the free tips. I feel like I need to give more percentage for myself just so I can reach my goal. I was thinking like, other people do it, so I should do it too. But honestly, I cannot blame it to other people. It is because I got greedy. I want to get more. That is why I felt disappointments because I still didn't reached my goal.

Lessons that I learned

I should refocus on doing good contents and not thinking of the tips that I am going to get. Always remember your purpose in joining is to inspire people and put a smile on their faces. Do not expect something in return. Just be contented and grateful for all the things that you are getting. Do not let envy and greediness in your head. It could ruin everything. Always think that every good deed has an equivalent point in heaven. And always bear in mind that good deeds rewarded here on earth will not be rewarded in heaven and good deeds that came unnoticed here on earth is rewarded in heaven. Always bear in mind that you may fail and continue failing but it doesn't matter how many times you fail, what matters are the times you get up everytime you fail.

Our Father in heaven sees that you might be struggling but know that in every struggle, there will be a helping hand that He will send. It maybe through friends or family or even a stranger. Nothing is impossible with God. You are not alone in this journey. You can still have a fresh start.

If you fail at Plan A, then go to Plan B which means start from the beginning.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Anong username mo sa noise madam? Sometimes mas naiisip tlga natin Yung makaearn NG more pero kapg iisipin natin na mag engaged land sa platform di natin namamalayan na nakakaearn na tyo hehe

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User's avatar Yen
1 year ago

Oo nga po. Ganun ako dati eh. Nawalanlng tlg ako sa focus. Hehehe.. opo ako po yung andreacamille. Support ko kayo palagi. Hahaha..

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1 year ago

Oo , nasub nadin Kita Kasi lagi ka nagcocoment hehe

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User's avatar Yen
1 year ago

Nafefeel ko din minsan na nakakawalang gana magblog kapag hindi pinapansin ni rusty ung post ko and yes it happened to me few weeks ago kaya nagdecide ako na magstop sa pagsusulat, ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, magpapahinga lang ako ng mga two weeks pero hindi ibig sabihin nun ay titigil na ako, so after 2 weeks bumalik ako at nagsulat ulit ako, hopefully bumabalik na ung passion ko sa pagsusulat dito. share ko lng po

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1 year ago

Same here po. Sana bumalik nadin yung passion ko sa pagsusulat.. lately tlg wala akong maisip isulat. Walang inspiration. Ewan ko ba.. sana po bumalik na pareho yung passion natin. God bless po.

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1 year ago

ako kass kahit ano sinusulat ko hahaha

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1 year ago

Ganun dn nmn ako minsan. Haha. Pro am still trying to divert those negative thoughts. Pro d ko alam my nc acct knpla 😅 same name?

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1 year ago

I've been commenting on your posts actually. But you're not noticing me. Hahaha. 😅 My bad perhaps. Not using the same name. But almost the same. It's andreacamille. 😅

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1 year ago

Ikaw pala Yung andreacamille 😅

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User's avatar Yen
1 year ago

Kya pla.. Naalala ko na name na yan.. NGlalilike namn ako 😁

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1 year ago

I'm feeling generous today miss andi. Hehehe. I think it's selfishness when you think too much of yourself, which I do in some cases and it's greed when you want to take away other's. 😅

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1 year ago

Waaaahhh thank you dai.. hahaha.. actually, real talk ra jud ning ako.. hahaha.. its my own way to handle my emotion.. kay most of the time ma disappoint jud ko saako self and di jud maiwasan ang self doubt.

Still I'm thankful sa tanan kay naa man jud lesson ang tanan...

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1 year ago

Hehe. Ana man sad jud usahay pero it serves us no good man so go lang ng go. Masuya man gyud ta usahay pero ang turning point is how we handle the situation if we let our emotions overrule us or we rule our emotions. 😁

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1 year ago

Mao jud lagindai mao go lng ng go. Padayon lang jud ta ug hinago para sa future and present needs nato. Hehehe.. nya dili lang padala sa kasuya kay mkadaot jud na sa taw..

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