@dropout 18 June 2022 more from that month

My only bliss for now You may not know but you are my only bliss for now. Am I hopelessly romantic? Maybe yes. Maybe not. But in the very first place, I am not romantic at all. I choose to hide. Behind rainbows and clouds. And now, I am hiding behind curtains. Solely using words to cure my desperation. Be it as it may, here I am saying this, you are my only bliss. Embarrassing but it's the truth. I wake up stressed by work. And go on without coffee and latte. Then you cross my mind and I smile. What a wondrous time of rest. I think of your serious face. The more my heart flutters. I imagine your young face and I feel a pinch in my heart. You are such an instrument to cure this weary soul every once in a while. I'm tired of bland goods and drinks. But you keep my life flavorful. I have been away from my thoughts of you. Now you keep making it all good. And a thought hits me, do I deserve all these sadness and tears? But it's not at all a question to answer. I know I have had choices. But I let every opportunity pass. I am still a lucky one. I have you in my thoughts. It is all in the mind. I will just think of you from time to time. And despite this tinge of hurt that I feel in my bones, I will be okay. I will be okay. You are my bliss. At least just for now.