The Gift of Life

I'm one of those who literally ask, is life really a gift?

Life is difficult, dull, and full of problems. Yes, happiness and love will be felt but we'll always become problematic again and again. If life is like this, then I don't want this as a gift.

I just want to return it to the one who gave this so called present to me.

19 years of life full of joy and sadness. Even though I am happy I feel tired. So tired of chasing success. I always believed that I am not a worst person. I may not be kind but I am not worst. I study well to reached my dreams to have a very beautiful house and help my family live a comfortable life. 19 years and gained friends. 19 years full of adventure. 19 years but still, something is missing.

I thought praying to God is enough. Attending mass from time to time is enough. Participating to traditions of my religion is enough. I thought it's fine to commit small sins because my family will pray for me if I die since purgatory exists. I believe in God that's why I thought I'll be with Him if I die.

But the thing is, Satan also believed in God, but he won't be with God. I started to think, is believing that god exist enough?

All those things I thought "faith" were all wrong.

I'm afraid to die because I don't know what will happenned next. September 12, 2018 was my 19th birthday. Happy I celebrated it with my friends but November 4, 2018 changed my life.

I understood true faith. I am now sure that good works and religion will never be the way for me to go to heaven. Purgatory is not true, it doesn't exist and afterlife is only about heaven and hell. The most important thing I learned that time was God's perfect love through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on that cross. I don't have to accept Him as my personal savior. The only thing to do is have faith what Jesus Christ did on the cross. That His blood was poured for me and the whole world's past, present, and future sins and were all forgiven. Unending and perfect forgiveness.

Thank you Lord for the gift of life, the life that I received after knowing your love. My life is more meaningful now and my hope is only in heaven. Life is still full of problems but I have peace in my heart because I have Jesus.

Happy 23rd flesh birthday to me! And I am more excited to celebrate my spiritual Birthday 💛💛💛