Appa, eotteoke?

Disclaimer: I don't speak Korean language and I don't know if my title directly translate "Papa, anong gagawin ko?'' hahaha I often heard it in Korean movies when they are frustrated or nervous "eotteoke eotteoke" and "appa" means dad or papa in tagalog. So if grammatically wrong yan ay di pasensya hahah

Saya?

Nahh am actually frustrated right now. Too much things to ponder on. It feels my time is so limited yet my activities are too much. I know that at some point, it's my fault. Almost all of my difficulties right now are my fault. There comes a lot of what ifs and the thought that I should've turned the other way instead of continuing this path blahblah. It's frustrating to be frustrated when your frustrations are really frustratingly frustrates you hahahh oh d ba nagawa m pang tumawa sa walang kwentang joke hays. basta ang alam ko naiiyak nalang ako sa stress, d ako makapaglabas ng feelngs ko sa iba because i know it's my kakulangan.

Dapat blue lahat para matino na mag run yung simulation, eh kakastart ko lang pula na agad hahaha. Ang dami dami pa nyan hays. May guide pa ko, eh pano kaya from scratch eh di ko na magets ksksks. Another thing that causing me stress is a bit personal am not comfortable sharing it. It's not really a big deal but I don't want to disclose it here but it's super draining my energy :(

I thought I can strongly manage all these things that piling up without being a burden to anyone. If only Papa is here I think I will have an idea what to do. How can I handle this? Appa, eotteoke? 🥺

Awhile ago, I didn't know I'll end uo crying in front of my mom. I told her about these things, her words are super comforting. She's the kindest 🥺 Dad's right, mom is kind, tho sometimes she's too kind to the point she dunno how to fight back when someone is dragging her down ;(( even tho I am more comfortable to open up with my dad, mom's words still true and indeed I realized things. Mom's the only person that can make my heart melts in just her simple words. I want to be a mom like my own mother.

Appa, eotteoke?

Maybe papa is telling me to ask my mom. Because she's the one who's here. I don't want to burden her but keeping a lot of things from her knowledge os more worrisome that it'll create more problems in the future.

Now am really sleepy so have a good reyast and welcome tomorrow with happiness.