lately, i dont like nights i dont like the vibe of darkness, i just cant wait till its morning, i dont know if its just me but sometimes when its getting dark i became sad for no reason, its becoming repetitive already these last few months. i just know that i am not lonely but i think i yearn for someone. cheesy as it may sound but i do not like it to be in a relationship right now. i just dont find any man that would be suitable for me. i have suitors but i justdont think we would compliment each other. i ended up ghosting them and then replying to them when i am only bored. i think i want to be free right now but i am also open to any possibilities to have a guy next to me soon. i know i would be able to find one i just dont think i would force things to happen. the right one will come and i dont have to question for my worth, for my existence, for my presence, or i wouldn'y be reminded with my flaws, with my pasts, with the bad things around me. though i am aware that it is not just happy and smiles all throughout the journey. i just hope that there would be a lot of happy and memorable moments to be treasured. i just dont think to engage in an immature relationship right now so i think i became mature after years of being able to finally find and love myself and accept for who i truly am. i do not know if there would be a lovelife coming up this year-because i do not even hope for one. fling is just fine, no attachments, just companionship and also i hope that i would be treated well, i mean it is not going to be lovers right away there is a stage where i have to get to know them there is a stage where i would be able to know them fully and thats for me to think if i like them or not, if i want to be with him or not, if i find him fun to be with. come to think of it, i do not even long for a handsome face i just want someone to be with where i would like who i am when i am around him. i want someone who could ride along with my humor, not get offended, and understand my sarcasm, i want him to be sweet but not submissive, i want him to have this kind of chill vibe and not very drawn to me in a showy way but lets me feel that he doesn't like anybody else because i am with him. i just know that there are a lot of things that i have to do before i could get in a relationship. i still want to fix myself or improve myself in some areas and i want to achieve my goals before entering a relationship. i think i am fine with flings now and i think that would just be fine. a lot of people go for serious relationship and it ended up being in a horrible situation. u see, what i hate the most is a cheater, i hate someone who cheats, thats why i am not drawn with people that cheat with their partner and it disgusts me when people became the reason of a break up or a heartache with someone because of lowkey flirting. and they know that they are like a third party and i think that is very disgusting. oh right my other friend is like that ew i dont like it and its another reason not to tolerate her and not to be with her because she is just so playing safe and is pisses me off.
will life is like than but dont distance yourself from them. Sometimes we must be friends with them and get to know them. It's good to be Influence by happy people you know. Being friends with them doesn't mean you became like them. Though you must find a way to make yourself happy. If you continue being alone may lead you to overthinking. So cheer up. Don't wait for every morning and sleep soundly. Love yourself . appreciate your skills, explore what you can do more. Dear be Happy. We all deserve that.
Relationship is not just away to find happiness. Why not try something that different or opposite in your interest. I don't know anything this is just a little Opinion 😉. And It's good that someone will care for it maybe a friend's or family. It sucks when no one care at all. So Exchange chats with this peoples. Chaow Mi amore 😘😘 😘