the start of another week, i am looking forward for this week. a lot of tings has to be done and i am thinking of starting a new hobby. i found this a lot of thrift flip videos in youtube video which inspires me to start to sew again. i love buying clothes from a thrift shop because they are all so cheap and there are a few that has beautiful texture, style, design and the size doesnt matter because i could just adjust it. sometimes i will buy a different style and would change it to a fancier and stylish look. i want to start it again this week and also learn a new dance routine and try to perform it in school or maybe just record it in a video and upload it in my social media accounts i think there are a lot to be done this week so i am still preparing for that and i think i would just try to improve the things that i am strating. i am also thinking about the new coloring book that is therapeutic. i think im going to color one page each day then try to be more artistic when it comes to choosing colors. i am also thinking about writing a new song this week or maybe next week. i dont want to waste a lot of time but sometimes i am just so lazy or sometimes i just start to procrastinate. i think i want new environment so maybe i would make over my bedroom. this time i think i want a shade of pink and a little bit of white paper walls and then set up a photography studio where i would take my selfies when i feel like it and wear my newly bought clothes. i dont like being too busy so maybe i would just start it little by little. i think i would start to let new ideas to inspire me this week so i think i may be a little productive this month, i hope. i want to let this last month before going back to school. i think i would be very busy soon so this is like a calm before a storm thing i dont know what i should do. maybe rest first because i couldnt have this later on? or start doing the things that i have to because i dont think i would be able to do it ater on? i dont know anymore but well, i guess i just wanna do what i wanna do for now. if i feel like it, then maybe i will start doing it but if not, well i think i would just let it for awhile. i think there would be a lot of change later on so i think i will just adopt to changes and think what i could do about it. there are also things that i have to consider like for example, my class schedule so maybe and i hope its not gonna be hactic. well the school messaed me already and i think thar i might be able to ask for a section later. i just dont want these certain people to be my classmate. i want new environment, new people, and i dont wanna be fake with those people because i dont like them anyway. college is busy and very hectic and its time to be serious too so i think that i wont be able to hang out with them as much as expected especially that we are not classmates and whatsoever. i just hope the things will just work out well and i hope everything's gonna be fine now i cant afford any drama and headaches because i cant tolerate that. i hope there's gonna be new people around that aren't toxic, pretty please. well i know there's gonna be a lot of gatherings next year so i think im just gonna save up for that/ i really hope this time i would be able to and i wis h i would just be safe i dont want to risk anything or what but i just wanna hang out and i think its not time yet. i cant wait for all the things to happen and to finally happen so maybe im going to wait for a lot of time this time. i cant wait to be able to travel and hang out with my friends, create memories, be wtith them. i think its not good yet becaue it might be bad so well, i think im going to just go there for awhile. a lot of things are happening and i dont know where to go. im so tired because there are a lot of things to do but i dont know where to start and it is very tiring. i want my dreams to happen already and i knwo that its not my fault whatsoever.