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just dont abuse my kindnes because i dont like that and im not dumb enough not to notic that, ive been masking my feelings and emotions with a happy face so dont assume that im just a nonsense person just because i let you see that side of me and i never unmasked that im tired to be seen as weak, as serious and stiff person, i want to live while masking what i really feel inside because i dont want others to know what i really fel and i dont like others to interfere. i might be too loose and i just let other poeple treat me that way for too long maybe i have to change that a;ready. i just have this kind of thoughts when im alone but when im back socializing, verything jsut disappears and i just come off laughing off almost everything