Leaving the country !

I lived in one country for 12 years, then I moved to another one to live a better life. But now after living in this country for almost another 12 year, I want to leave it. Maybe I need to live in another 12 years as well.

I have nothing to do with the number 12, but it seems that's following me now. I like the number 3 and 4 times of that is 12. Possibly that's how related to me. lol.

I don't believe all the numerology, but I would like to check the meaning of the number anyway.

Referring to this website The meaning of twelve :

a cardinal number, or a set of this many persons or things.

That could be related to me because I like to be a leader, just like I was the founder of the English Club in Russia, and now I'm the founder of @dcooperation, and I'm building it step by step. About many persons, sometimes I feel that I have different persons inside me. Who knows, possibly numerology has some truth in it.

Anyway, I would like to leave the country. I learned enough about it. I know the language as my own. I got married here for the first time in my life. And I have now a kid, and I'm a parent for more than four years. But because of the madness that's going on in the world, I may have to leave it. Because I don't think that I can fight here. Even being here for so long, I still not feel completely home. Both countries didn't give me that feeling. I'm not a tree, I'm a human being and I should move to find my happiness. But the thing is that now I'm not alone. I have to move with my family and that will be harder. I should go with them because they are both a part of me now.

The main reason why I would like to leave is the restrictions. I love everything about this country and about the people here. They are so real, so strong, so interesting and cultivated people. I just watched a video where the guy said that we shouldn't be nice, and I understand now why people in Russia don't smile. Because of the strict life they are living here, they have to have that protection. Because when people open their heart to others, and they see a lot of bad things from others, they will always protect themselves by that rudeness, and you can't imagine how many rude people I met here during all this time. But I always found the nice people, because I was always nice with everyone. It's better maybe to be true, but not nice. Because the system we live in teaches how to be a hypocrite and that's not good. It's better to be nice if you feel that you have to be, but if not, just to say our true opinion about things. Of course, it's hard to be like that, but we should learn about how to be real.

Anyway, now Russia obey completely the WHO and that doesn't line with their pride about being an independent country. Because they have their ministry of health, but it seems that doesn't decide things for itself. And that's scary. Because the world is changing, and it seems that we have now one single country, or they are building it now. And I don't want to live to apply strange rules created by one organization. I'm glad that some countries aren't that strict with their citizens. Maybe I will survive there. Because with the power that Russia has, I think everything will be just worse. Especially in the second month of the next year they will apply the system of qr codes. And it will be really hard to live for people without it. And that will be needed everywhere except the little store. That will be crazy.

I don't really know why some countries aren't that strict, and they are only a few. It could be a trap for people like me. But I would like to risk. At least I will see another country in my life. I have to try !

Anyway, I lived all my 36-year very well. Because I lived it the way I wanted. I hope I'll be able to update my life and find the best country to move to for the rest of my life !

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