The First Time I Experienced Love

This is my first time writing a personal experience so if ever there are things that makes you confused feel free to a leave comment.

I was a grade 9 student at that time year 2015 when it happened. It didn't occur to me that such a twist in my high school life will happen because I thought it will be just any other school year that you get to know new classmates, study for exams, doing school activities and end of the class and start over again for another school year but it all changed when I met the girl that makes me feel like I have butterflies in my stomach.

You know the typical scene in a campus-based youth drama where the lead actor was playing together with his gang in the hallway then suddenly he will be bumped into the female lead. It really happened to me and I know that time I was hit by what they call "love at first sight", I was mesmerised by her beauty and I even stutter when I apologized to her like " ssssso" "ssssoorry" then she just smile at me and said "it's okay" then left. I happily looked at her walking away.

The next time I saw her was at the school gymnasium during my training (I am a varsity player in badminton) and luck was on my side when suddenly one of my teammates go to where she was sitting. When my teammate got back to the court I approached her and asked who was the girl she was talking to and said she was her friend. That time I gladly ask her if she could introduce me to her friend which she agreed. I was so happy that time (at the back of my mind I was saying "yes! Finally, this is it"). Then the typical introduction happen.

Teammate: Hey Bes, this is Bry my teammate, Bry this is Frency my best friend.

Me: Hi

Her: Hey! You!

Me: (I just smiled at her and said why?)

Her: I remember you, you are the guy who bumped at me.

Me: Yeah, sorry about that.

Our conversation would be long if it weren't for our coach who called us back to practice. I missed the chance to get her number so after the training I ask my teammate if I could get Frency's number then she grin at me viciously and said yes. I was so happy that time. So when I got home I directly go to my room and get my phone to message frency.

Me: Hi Frency, this is Bry I got your number from Quisha (her best friend). I just wanna say sorry our conversation earlier was interrupted.

Frency: Yeah, no problem I understand. And yeah Quisha mentioned that you ask for my number.

Me: Is that okay with you?

Frency: Yes.

That's how our conversation started that extended to months until we become comfortable with each other. To be close to her I usually hang around her best friend so every time they are together going to places I am also there. And after months of talking and being around her, I finally took all my courage and confessed how I feel towards her which she unexpectedly accepted. I was really happy that time to the point that I was giggling and jumping around like a child who got his favourite toy. Our relationship went smooth, we are happy having each others company, our circle of friends are happy and supportive to us having a relationship and even our performance in school are good.

Back then I was too clingy to her and always want to be by her side, I admit I was so immature and because of that immaturity, I began to mess everything. It was second grading announcement for the top of the class I usually rank 1 but that time I was at the 4th rank and when my father knew about it he was so unhappy and he became stricter towards me. He even advised me to quit my sport because he thought that was hindering me from having enough time studying. But I refused and promised him that I will do better and be the rank 1 of our class again.

I explain my situation to my girlfriend which she said she understand. So I lessen my time hanging around her to focus on my studies and when we are together all I do is still study, reading my notes and familiarising formulas which I know bored her. But I took it for granted because I thought she understand my situation. I thought just being by her side was already enough but I was wrong. There are times we fight because of less attention I gave to her. So I work it out and just stay up late at night to review or do my activities.

Then the announcement for the top of the class for third grading period came and I was just in the 2nd rank which made my dad furious and now he's determined to let me quit my sport which I disagree and ask for a chance to fulfil what I promised to him which he agreed. So I study harder because my dad was closely monitoring me and at that time our competition was also nearly approaching so the training goes harder and harder. And I barely have time to talk to my girlfriend but explain it to her and promised to make it up to her when it's over.

Then during the competition day my family and friends came to support and my girlfriend was also there but she's in a different seat I am so happy that time seeing them cheer for me. I only rank second in the competition but I'm still happy. When the competition was over my family came to have a picture with me and invited me to eat lunch with them but I said I'll just catch up since I have something to take care of (but the real reason was to find my girlfriend). I texted her asking where she was? Then she replied she replied, she was with her best friend in the locker room so I told her to come outside to meet me. When I saw her I just hugged her happily and she hugged me back saying congratulations. Then I just smiled and told her to have dinner with me later which she agreed. And I said goodbye to her to catch up with my family.

During lunch my father look at me seriously and instructed me to go home early later, I didn't ask him why but i just nod. I told him I will immediately go home after team dinner. But I did not attend the team dinner and have dinner with my girlfriend instead we just have small talk and things we missed. After that I took her home and I also head back home. When I entered the house my father is waiting for me and told me sit with him, I did what he said and ask him why? Then he said he already knew about my relationship and told me to break up with my girl because she is the reason why I am distracted in my studies. But I refused with his idea and assure to him that I will fulfil my promise just don't forbid me having relationship to the girl I loved. He was angry for my stubbornness and warned me to remember words.

The next day I go back to my usual routine which is to study but that time I already have more time because there was no more training so there are only 2 priority I have to spend my time with and that is the time with my girlfriend and time to study. Our relationship went back to normal and my study time went smooth. I was confident that time that I can fulfil my promise.

But when the announcement for the top of the class for the final quarter came out I was so sad when I saw when name being just on the rank 2 I looked at my father but he just gave me a cold face. I told what happened to my girlfriend and she comforted me saying I did my best, just do better next school year. I was not in the good mood that time so I just decided to go home and my dad talked to me saying it's all because I didn't listen to him. I cannot answer him that time so I just look down and just listen to what he was saying when he finished talking I head towards my room and lock myself there.

The next day was the last day for the school year so everyone was saying goodbye to their friends and lovers which I also did but I assure to my girlfriend that we will still meet. But 2 days later my father suddenly told me that I will spend my vacation in Manila which I agreed to ease his anger but I never knew that it was more than just a vacation. He already arranged everything in advance without my knowledge. And because of that I didn't get chance to personally say goodbye to my girlfriend. Yes we are talking but it was just through text and video calls though we want to hold each other's hands we can't. Months passed with that kind of set up but as we go on she was becoming colder towards me until one day she just never replied to any of my messages. She just banished without saying anything. And the next thing I know she already have someone new and that is my best friend.

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