Tiresome

This day isn't the worst but why am I this broken? :-( I remember a friend I used to be with when she has no one to talk to. I used to tell her "when things go wrong and path seemed tough, be prepared, hold still and never feel discouraged. It's just a way to test how firm you are." But now, right this moment, why can't I be? I want to scream, I want to just leave and never come back. I want peace wherein no one other than God can give me. A place peaceful place wherein no one can bring me into. I just want to rest. :-( I'm really tired, used to, I'm really tired.