@boringwriter 10 August 2022 more from that month

In this article, I shared how hard is it to push ourselves in something impossible. In the latter part, I shared how envy arises on my heart in their achievements in PeakD as a crypto blogging site. When they were enjoying the perks that someone curated on their posts or blah-blah-blah, but it's hard to swallow that you are "ineligible" to be also the next author who'll receive it. I know that I don't have a power to complain, and I'm so sorry in advance. I know that there's other curators that might upvote my posts, but it is not that big compared to others. What's the sense of seeing their achievements if I can't experience it even once? The OCD is what they're talking about in most of the group chats inviting me, and I get ride with their topic. That's why I deleted my Discord and Telegram account to heal from this happening, but I promise that I'll return back. I just need to be focused about my present opportunities that I can't let go like writing here and studying for my future. I able to write this longer since it took me a week to hold my emotion. Now time to do my unfinished modules and wait for BLACKPINK's teaser. https://read.cash/@kingofreview/its-hard-to-push-ourselves-in-something-impossible-70f0791c