You know that feeling when you're trying so hard to be strong but every time you're doing well, the darkness keeps hunting you down. Now, I'm caught off guard and not sure how to get rid of this feeling again.
I was super happy these past few weeks, then something came up, and I was back to my old self again. Back to my lonely self yet a kinda stronger version of it. Stronger in a way that I don't find myself thinking of those suicidal acts anymore. HEHE. I'm so proud of myself because of that. Now, I'm more on being just sad but with less deadly thoughts.
But despite trying to stay positive in life, now, with just one snap, I don't find it anywhere in me. I feel like every time I do something fun or having a crush on someone, everything just starts to crumble and boom, all of a sudden, things crashed again. In the end, I'm still left alone in the corner waiting for another momentum to be okay again.
I don't want to make this drama long, but I have to continue to make it a 3-min reading time article. And while trying to write something, I'm also listening to some sad songs to make me feel even sadder. I know it's weird and that I should listen to something fun and happy instead of this song. However, sad songs are the kind of songs I'd love to listen when everything is crashing.
Anyway, feel free to listen to this version here.
I also listened to this one, Taylor Swift's song. I'm sure you know this song. If not, then you should listen to this one.
Okay, I don't think I can write for more words but before I end this article, I just want to thank @PVMihalache for checking on me earlier. Thank you also to @Jane @abraxas and to everyone who commented on my last noise post.
Now, I feel like I need to sleep. My entire being is so damn tired that I don't feel like thinking or feeling about anything or something or someone. There's so much shitness going on so no time for extra baggage. Oh well, that's all. Sorry for posting nonsense today but at least, I was able to rant and lessen some of my heavy burdens.
Anyway, goodnight. Off to bed now. No time to work.
PS: I'm sad because ___ is ___, and I'm ___ alone ___ for ___ ___. Plus, I also got disappointed with my ___ ___ that I thought it was gonna be a success but turned out to be another ___ ___.
No, this isn't a test or something. No free NFTs for that if ever you are ablet to fill up the missing blanks. HEHE. Okay, I'm out.
I'm a bit sad to hear your story. Well, I suggest that you explore life more than spending most of your time working. Enjoy life and be happy, don’t focus yourself and mind on the just working alone for earnings and helping. That’s why there’s a balance. We humans are indeed emotional in nature and can get easily disappointed and get sad. We really need time to enjoy things in order to refresh our minds and thoughts. Sadness really comes to our life but it’s up to us on how we overcome it. I’m glad that you’re no longer thinking suicidal stuff. I know depression could not be taken lightly for all cases but it’s really up to us on how we deal in order to overcome it. You stay strong and be brave. Enjoy life and be happy.. this is the way on how you will treasure and value life. Life is previous and valuable as all we know. Please take good care of it. Disappointments may come but always remember that “God takes away when he has something better than to give”
P.S. I really like the 1st video that you have included in this article. Thanks.(:-)