Wondering and Thoughts on this Rainy Sunday Evening

Good evening, the rain here again never stops, may bagyo kasi at malapit lang kami sa romblon kaya masama din ang panahon dito, and thanks for the rain because i got thoughts or idea again today, lol, so i am going to write, share, published an article here on read.cash again, lol, sometimes rain helps me so well, lol, this is Bheng, at your service, lol

Every time it rains or raining, we can't help but crave for food na mainit at may sabaw o yung tinapa or daing or toyo na may kasamang sinangag at kamatis na may itlog na pula o maalat at scrambled eggs din at nakakamay lang kapag kakain, lol, actually, now, the neighbors cooking toyo while i'm writing this one now, lol, miss those foods, lol, and drink coffee or hot chocolate or tea para malabanan ang lamig kahit paano.

Ngayon naniniwala na ako sa kasabihang kapag wala kang pera ang dami mong gustong kainin o tikman o iluto pero kapag may pera ka na, iba naman ang ginagawa o niluluto o kinakain mo, why is that, i wonder about it, lol, tulad nalang ngayon, like i said, i miss eating some of the foods i had mention above, lol, can't eat much of it now as it's bad for my mom, pero minsan nakakain din ng ganyan dahil paborito at gusto niya rin iyon, lol

I now also believed sa kasabihang kapag malapit ka sa kawali o kaserola, madali kang makakuha ng mga bagay na gusto mo o ng ayuda o ng kung ano pang bagay, it's true, saw, witnessed and experienced it here myself, lol, lalo na ngayong pandemic, lol, kinda unfair but what i can do, i'm not closed or malapit sa taong iyon o sa kawali, kaming dalawa ng nanay ko dito, told my mom to let it be or let them be, maybe they need it more than we need it, in short, kahit sobra na o bawal o ilegal, walang problema dahil malapit sila sa kawali, so they got it all and benefits from it, lol

Also wonder about what i saw about my brother's post on his fb page na ang ulam ng may 4p's ay masarap kaysa sa ulam ng nagbabayad ng tax, lol, that's kinda true, at mas mataas pa ang nakukuha nila kaysa sa pension ng senior o natatanggap ng nanay ko dito and sometimes i also wonder why they are still claiming some when some of their children are not studying anymore and some also claims it when someone even works in the government, di ba bawal iyon? Lol, just wondering about it though.

They say, love is a two way street and that once you are in a relationship, you both should be a team, but how come someone might not believed nor helped you knowing that you needed help but rather believed in what someone who told him to don't do that or help you because you got work and that you are earning, knowing that yes, you got work and earning but you are not earning that well, your salary's just enough to pay the debts you got here and there, lol, love should be give and take, right? And should only believe, trust and support your partner and not followed or do what others had said to you, for example, if someone told you to never helped her or send her money because she got work, lol, that thing since i've learned and knew it, never forget it and will always remember it, though i knew i do my part, i never believed or do or followed what my parents or siblings or friends or workmate told me to do, but him, he did, lol, kinda sad, 'coz he said, we are a team but i guess, we are not 'coz he believed someone else more than he believed me, he even do what he told him to do, lol, wondered and find that a little funny and at the same time didn't liked it but like i said, you can't pleased everyone nor make them help you or give you a lending or helping hands especially now, in this pandemic, so i didn't do and ask for anything at all since learning or knowing about that, just do everything on my own or just depend on myself here and learned and do it as motivation or inspiration to do the goals or what i want to do in my life now, did that before, so i know that i can do that again, lol

In life, you will find good and bad things, met good and bad people, and will learned that life and some people might be a little unfair or not fair, also learned that even your own flesh and blood might not want you to be like them or be successful, when i learned about that thing, felt like a cheap 'coz he told me that he can only helped me by introducing me to his friends and seems like or i then felt like i'm one the women or lady here that i used to saw sa baybay na nakikipagtawaran sa mga bisita dito para lang magkaroon ng pera o kumita, though i didn't look down at them nor say or do bad about them, i respect and understand them at iyon lang talaga ang trabahong alam nila kaya hindi dapat kinukutya o minamaliit o mababa ang tingin dahil tao din sila, realized that i need to do everything and anything here on my own and not depend on someone else's, lol, i got carried away again, sorry about that, not mad, just can't really believed and forget it, lol

It's me, Bheng again, saying, nakiisa ang ulan sa akin ngayon dahil tumila na at tapos na ang article na ito ngayon, lol, dinner time now and know that some are already having it now, let's eat, have a good evening and night, God bless, be safe and stay home and be positive and stay positive even though you are facing difficulties in life and this pandemic as well, we can survive this, me, this is my second time, first one's Boracay Rehabilitation and had survived it so i know and believe that i can survive this again, laban lang, 'ika nga nila, Covid ka lang, Pinoy kami :)