So I have been going through this thing
Where I stop hiding the person that I am
Accept every inch of me
The good, the bad, the crazy
The annoying, the mad, the lazy
The toxic, the lovesick and the sad part I don't let anyone see
I'm letting go now and I hope if he sees it he'll be proud
I pray this doesn't lead to a straight jacket or something more profound
Everyday that I hide I feel I like a part of me also dies
So this is me
Listen carefully
Take a seat
Have some tea
Come to me
I could tell you this will make things better and you should do what I do
Nah... that's a lie
Even I am just trying
So here goes nothing
I am mean
I am narcissistic
I have a healthy ego, yes
Doesn't mean I have hubris
I am impatient
I am manipulative
I am distrustful
I crave control and to destroy people
I currently survive because I imagine the light fading out your eyes
If you're cringing right now you might wanna look away
I'm not done
As a matter of fact I've only just begun
Remember when I said manipulative?
You are pieces to be moved around in a board game
I do with you as I will because I enjoy it
Because I thrive when I am in control
And I don't value your life to be honest, yes
Narcissistic psychopathic sociopathic
Am I simplistic
Something has been wrong for a time
They just missed it
This sounds like a stupid rhyme but
You're still reading so it does make some sort of sense huhh
So I will continue cause it benefits me
See where I'm going with this?
I only do things when I feel like
I don't care your age, your standing Blackmail doesn't work on me
To make a deal with me you need leverage; something I actually need
Good luck finding that cause I don't want much
That is my life
You are puppets where I am Cruella DeVille with a degree in psychology from the university of life
Whatever I have said tonight you can't hold against me
Cause after all this is poetry