well today is another day i have a lot of things to do and i think there would be more next week, we have this buisness now and i am super busy with all of the orders i yhink i would be able to keep muself busy and not think about certain things this week, this is a good thing because i would be able to help myself and my family in this time where i would be able to distract myself from everything, i know i would be fine, soon , maybe not too soon but i know i would be fine, ill claim it i know i can have it, by the way there is this person where he really gives an effort in everything well i was planning to hang out with him on my birthday and i think that i would just be able to distract myself from everything and i think tjis would benefit me and will make me feel fine for the time being im just thankful that i have my family with me, i have my friends, there are a lot of good things around me and im just thankful for all of it and im hoping that other people would be fine too in their physical mental and emotionall , its really hard to have a mentall illness or just bothering you in mental and emotinal aspect, there would be just a little thing that might trigger you and then it would then affect your mood throughout the day it is very disturbing that other people cant fight anymore and cabt take things anynore and some doesnt have people around that they can trust and that they dont have any people to support them or hear them out and then they would feel like the whole world is against them and theres no one who would be there for them and they would end up in a terrible decision. there are a lot of cases where there are sotuations that other people will never know others are going through some of them are just taking things for grabted, some people would just let other people be taken for grabtedd, all i wanna say is be careful because we know that everyone is going through something, everyone is hurting, everyone has their own problem and we just dont know it because, often times, we dont show what we truly feel, we dont show our inner thoughts, our inner demons, our inner voices which creeps us out in the night, we tend to be just around the corner wondering why would things happen, i dont know for everything but i think i would just be able to do so someday, its not like we want to show everyone our vulnerable side, we dont want otgers to see our weaknesses we dont want to be seen as emotional or very dramatic crying person, i dont know when would people be nice to everyone , i mean why would you be mean to a person right, i dont know anynore