so i just discovered that i like photograohy, i love taking pictures, well, even though i dont know the basic rules or whatever there is to follow, i jjst love taking oictures and it gives me this amazi g satisfaction when the photo turned out well. also i like when i take pictured of me, you know not yhe typical selfie but the kind that i just want to take and have a little photishoot with me and then try to edit it and then if the photo turned out very well, im just very happy with it. i got to dress myself up and then pose for the photo, i live clothes that are especially girly and cinceots that have accesssories or have a beautiful girly background, im into a lot of girly stuff and i really like it, sometimes i just want it to be a fierce looking me, sometimes, smile , or laugh a little, i also like to move my hand around or have gestures because i just like it when a lot of things would just go and go and around you know like a free flowing. o my god i also like to be with nature and going outdoors its just very beautiful when there are tress or whatsoever, i also like to have blue skies, oh and i also love the sea, beach photos are the best, wearing a flowy dress and a beach hat i really love that elegence glowing and the heat of the sun would refkect on my face, yhere are just a lot going on and i really love it. but these days, of course, no one could go and have fun outside so we are basucally still stuck at home and i just have a few photo shoots here at the house and good thibg, it all turned out well and i reallike it. i dont when i started having interest in photograohy, maybe because of social media, there are a lot of beautiful pictures , beautiful faces, beautiful sceneries, neautiful clotjes a dn everything beautiful, i really would like to have a photo of a lot of other things and be able to have all of them together, well maybe a fee more times before summer is over, omygosh this is liek the worst ever summer because we are all stuck at home and there are a lot of things going on, i just wanna live a normal life though and be with the people i care and love. speaking of, omygosh school is approaching and i dont know when would i ever be ready for this i just dont know when would be the time i would able to grasp everythibg that is happening, first, we dont have a graduation and then we dont habve a ball, and we dont even have the time to have a pictorial, abyway, i could just do that, but the graduation and the ball, i really would love that i would really like that but there is nothing i could do now, i dont know if i would stil be able to experience it next year but im just so happy about it and naybe a few more tines when i would have the chabce, i jusy hope that we would be joined with whoever will graduate and have a balk next year, i just want to have a good ending of highschool and it would be the highlight of it im just so glad that this time my family let me choose what school would i want and then they are just fine with it thank fully, i really dont know what i would do if they hadnt permitted me with that choosing of school, i just want to get tjis over with and start a new day and start a few more tjings before everything would be over, i know that there are still a lot of things to be done and i just cant wait when would all of this to end. i mean i want a happy type of ending and not the kind of ending that would just let me regret or what so i think there are still a lof of things to happen and i just want the best of it, i dont know if the course that i took is really the one though, i just want it to be the right one in the end because i dont knkw wgmhat else would be the right course for me i kust choose tjis because this might help me to beemployed right away because this is always hirung and i tjink that most of the time i would be able to help also my family and my family to be because this could become very habdy in the future abd in my lofe too. alo if i would want to work overseas thos is the right course and easier way too. there are just a lot of things that i would be able to do so i am really looking fir ward. to it i really hope that i would be able to achieve my goal for the week i want i want i want i want i want i want i want i want i want i want i want to to to to to to ti ot to really reallly have it this time i just want to achiveve my goal this time i just want to achieve all my goal this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i jope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail tbis time i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this tume i hope i wont fail this time i hope i wont fail this time and everything would now work i hope i wont fail tbis time and everything would now work i hope everything will work this time and i would not fail anymore i hope everything would work this tine and i wont fail anynore i hope everything would work this time and i wont fail anymore i hope everythibg would work this tume ans i will mot fail anymore i hope everytjing would work tjis time and i wont fail anymore i hope everything would work this time and i wont fail anymore i hope everything would work thos time and i wont fail anymore i hope everything would work this time and i wont fail anymore i hope everything would be fine now and i wont fail this time i hooe everythibg would work out now and i wonfmt fail this time i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afgord to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant affird to gail again i cang afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford ti faik again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to faik again i cant afford to fail again i cabt afford to fail agauin icant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant affird to fail again i cant afford to faik again i cabt afford to fail agaun i cant afford to fail again i cabt afforr to tmfaik again i cant affird to fail. agaib i cant affirr to fail again i cant afford ro fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to faik again i cant afford to lose again i cant affird to lose again i cabt afcom to lose again i cabt affird tolose again i cant afffmord to kose again i cant affird to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cabt afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford ro lose agaian i cabt afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to llse again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant affird to lose again i cant afford to lose agaun o cant afford to lose again i cant afford to losd ahain i cahnt affir dto lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to loase agaun i cant afford to lose again i cant afgord to lose again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant affprd to fail again i cant aggord to fail again i cant afford tk fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford tk fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afford to fail again i cant afforf to. fail again. there are a lot of thongs going on already that is why i cant afford to lose this time again ive been through so mich ive been through a lt of things and now im tirrd if this wont work again this time i dont know what eles will thats why i cabt do anything anymkre im so rird already u dont know if i could still dk things like it im so smtrieed and confudeed nd now i jus wanf to do wownting good i cabt afford to kose anynore i cany afford to lose anynore i cant affor to lose anymore i caby afford to kose anymore u cany afford to lose i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose again i cant afford to lose agaun i cabt afford to lose again i cabt afford to lose agaun i cabt afford to lose agaun i cabt afford to lose agaun i. cabt afford to lose again i cabt afford to lose again i cabt afford to lose again i cabt afford to lose agaujni cabt afford to lose again oh i remember that i joikned this contest for wruting and i hope that everything wkuld be fine i cany affird to fail again im so tires already when will all things bee up to my favir again why dors it just favor anither person when is it gonnab be mine , before i always wwinn, im always the one gammfavored i dont know what happenede now naybe ut s just that it jas expired ready or maybe im not worthy to have one anymode bevause well ugm u know i dealyy dong know gwat hapned because they woundt taell me.bajakbsy kakbaba , and maybe u cabt afford to los eanmore i cabt afford to losee anynore i cabr afford to llse anmlte u. cabaj om so tired pls reward again , i want reward rhis tume , i hope i coukd get award rhis time becayse it really is sad and i dont kow hwat elsebbut well u iy think somwtimes i like to cry, somwtikes i want to cry sometimes i want to cry i lile to cry at time at times i llke to cry i want to feel the oain thay i am hiding sometimes i also want ot cry hard i think i kust suppressed my feelings tmso hard i tbink i just hide my feelings so hard i just like to feel the pain again , sometimes im tored of just smiling, too much laughing that i tend to forget that im hurt that im not fine that im noy okay sometimes im just tired of holding on its tiring me and it makes me feel fhat i am living i fake life if i want to keep on living like this, im tirrd im tires already im so tired i dont know i just want things to be fine now its too much already, ive been through so much, you jnow a little inconvenuence doesnt makes me feel fine i dony like any hint of unconvenience but i forget that ik anmt an inconvenience,i just dont show it, i just doent mind it i know there ared still a lof of good things on the wau mu jusy domt know rhat i would be able to get though akl of thsed iys just so many , its just tooo mamy of them im tirdd of it im tired of it