Hello friends.
It’s the wake up call for you. Well I'm not telling you to get up from bed but from your anxiety & depression. This is the right time to forgive yourself.
I know you have suffered a lot. There are plenty questions in your mind unanswered. You are still searching those answers. But tell me, what will you after having those answers? You cannot change what already happened with you. Past cannot be changed. And time travelling machine are still not built. So what's the point for this grief? Unnecessary, trust me. You are much stronger than this unnecessary grief.
You should look at yourself before doing anything stupid. You had faith on wrong persons in past. At least have the perfect faith on yourself too. You will not feel worried in future. Everything started with you must be taken care of by yourself at first. Then other people will do the same. So please, upgrade your self respect at your own eyes. How dare you to think yourself as a loser?
Listen, life is beautiful but short. You have to take care of yourself and make your time worthy for others. Do your job. Make yourself proud. Do same for the family. Make them smile. Just rise like a Phoenix. You can & you will. It’s the wake up call. Do not look behind. Just rise. Have faith.