This night there is always something comes in my mind, I'm thinking about finding good and positive relationship with my love ones. I'm so eagerness to wrote this because this is all I wanted to have at the same time to get. Maybe, there's always bother in my mind that I want to realize in my life.
First, you there is no such thing as perfect, right? Ofcourse we all have tastes and preferences and traits we gravitate toward, and things that we find sexy and attractive, from the external to the internal, from body types to personality to confidence to emotional intelligence, and so on.
Yes, we all have preference, and that's a good thing, but if you're chasing perfect, you'll be disappointed and ultimately lonely because perfect doesn't exist. It's mirage created by advertising a fantasy we've been holding onto since we were taping posters out teen crushes to our bedroom wall. We believe in perfect lives in imperfection. In every person or relationship, you will notice imperfections. There will be cracks. It's just a matter time before you wish your partner did something differently, acted a different way was more patient, driven, understanding, or thoughful. And if you only focus on what's lacking, that will grow, and it will become the sun, and you will start looking in another direction. You will curious about what else is out there. I've been finding a perfect relationship and searching for perfect relationship but even I am I've made mistakes so that there is one thing I know for sure no one's perfect.
We all have different dreams for our love ones. We all receive and give love in so many different ways people in our lives and I think we can all agree we all need love. Maybe now, I'm just realizing to find be with someone I would love. It is always easier to blamr others. Always, what's hard is looking to myself and realizing that maybe I am the one who needs to change. Before I have amazing relationship have to be someone I would love.
For me, I don't need someone who will drop everything at a moment's notice, who will stand by my side and never waver, who will be perfect in every single way, even when life gets messy. I don't need someone who will promise to always say the right things, who will promise to always say the right things, who will never mistakes, who will bite his tongue when we fight.
I don't need someone who shines in the light, who never speaks out of turn, who looks at me like I'm flawless because I'm not. I'm not at all.
I don't need an 'ideal' love, the relationship goals, the kind of connection that you only see in fairy tales. I don't need something that looks pretty for the rest of the world but lack substance.
Lastly, I don't love someone who walks away and leave you hanging everytime you argue, don't choose someone who comes back, chose the one who never leave.
Here's how I wanted to have;
I want someone who will argue with me, a man who will make mistakes, a man who fail and fall down and start all over with me by his side. Someone who pushes me to become better, someone who believes in me but know there's always room for improvement in both us.
I want someone who will get vulnerable with me, who will confess his darkest secrets and fears, someone who's comfortable telling me what he thinks even if it will upset me or I won't agree.
I want someone who doesn't make me feel worthless, someone who will love me despite my imperfections, someone who's always proud to have me.
I want someone who will love me whole-heartedly, someone who will give me undivided attention, someone who respects me for who and what I am.
I want someone who is responsible enough, someone who thinks his future with me, someone who plans and builds his dreams with me.
I want someone who loves me as much as he loves his family, someone who sees his future with me and someone who looks forward to having his own family with me in the future.
I want someone who accept all my flaws, someone who can still love me despite all my craziness, someone who has all the patience for me.
I want someone who can resist to temptations, someone who can stay faithful even when I am not aroud, someone who is always proud to tell other girls that he's already committed to me.
I want someone who brags me to other people, someone who's proud to tell the world that I am his girl, someone who loves me no matter what other people say.
I want someone who will always fight for me, someone who stays no matter how rough things might get and someone who will go with me through thick and thin.
I want someone who has genuine intentions and passion.
Lastly, I want someone who's real not a perfect.
That is all I wanted to have and looking for. I know that I'm not a perfect. I've made mistakes. That's why "I don't look for perfect but I look for real". I'm looking for somebody who is just confused about life as I am and hopefully we can figure it out together. I'm looking somebody who still believes in love, "old love", "we're in this together love", so I can prove to them that it still exists, so they can prove to me I'm not fool for still believing.
And for now, after I wrote this I feel so overwhelmed. My heart is extremely happy and full because I express what I really feel right now. Thankyou for reading. I hope that you really like it.