Cosmetics (liptint, LIPdip & Clayblush
I want to introduce all my items one by one and I decided to start it on my cosmetic, because this the only items that not made by me. Just a personal choice of color.
Why I included some lip stain on my shop?
I'm not a fan of make-up, not because I'm not interested but because I don't know how to do it on myself plus I'm not comfortable wearing it. But I had a set of make up when I entered late in college and professor warn me to wear a makeup because I look sick π. My classmates laugh at me but at the same time pushing me to try it.
My professor told me that having a lipstick is very important to a teacher specially to the English teacher, because the students will look at your mouth how you will pronounce every word. And the best color for it is red..
But I didn't buy red because the color of my teeth is not white as a pearl. It's dirty and yellowish π. So instead I buy a red, I bought the other color that also a bit dark but fit to the color of my teeth.
So why I just sell lip stain and no other cosmetic like eye shadow etc..
Well, when I bought eye shadow and other cosmetics, it cost me alot of money, time to make myself and space to store it. While liptint, lip dip or clayblush is all in 1. You can use it for your cheeks and as eye shadow . And this are also a great use to all woman who can't do make up properly like me π
Are my items safe?
My lip stains contain vitamin E which helps moisturizes and protects our delicate lip area.
LIPDIP velvet
Whipped formula that melts onto lips with a powder matte finish. Light and comfortable texture that makes your lips feel nothing the whole day. It's long lasting, high pigmented and smudge proof.
This are the safest color that I know will be fit to any skin color. Can we use this on cheecks ? Yes, just use brush for a great result.
Lip and Cheek Tint
It's made of aqua, sunflower oil, sweet almond oil, aloe vera extract, rose water and vitamin E. I see to it that vitamin E is always included because nowadays, even kids are using liptint as well.
Here's what it looks like on me πβοΈ
It also long lasting, smudge proof and blendable .
Clayblush
It also known as air blush or cream blush. It's made of beeswax, carnauba wax, VCO, candelila wax, grape seed oil, castor oil, as usual vitamin E and aloe vera extract.
It has fruity scent, made with organic, blendable, pigmented and long lasting.
What's the difference between my lip stains brand and other known brand?
Name of the brand, logo wrapped, and model π. Maybe mine is more cheaper. Well I have plan to include a lip gloss for those who wants a shinning shimmering splendid lips but I have to promote my items more before I did that. I have also plan to make a liptint or LIPdip holder as a freebie for those who will be my Suki or gonna buy more.
Thank you by the way to my former reseller chikspere13 from noisecash. She ordered alot before to sell it on her place . And thank you to @bmjc98 that tried liptint and to @charmingcherry08 that tried my LIPDIP.
Don't forget:
Be you, don't be Me..
Personal IG:
https://instagram.com/mynameisangelajoy84?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
IG Store:
https://instagram.com/hey_you3323?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
FB Page:
https://www.facebook.com/revivebyyou/
Pinterest:
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Shopee:
https://shopee.ph/heyyou144?smtt=0.673796174-1657073329.9
Road to Asul's Recovery
What happened to ASuL?
It's already late when I found out that ASUL got a ring worm. Imagine ,he rarely go outside ,I always clean their litter box , taking bath them once a week but he still got a ringworm.
I thought it's just a simple itchiness that he lick religiously until it get wound, so I put heal spray that makes his fur violet and put a cone to avoid licking it. And I put also a nail cover to avoid scratch to his own body.
After a month , his small wounds get heal and decided to remove it,but after a night, I woke up with new wounds and this time, it's more worst. It's like - he missed it to lick so he did it all night π©. So I don't have any choice but to put a cone again.
The problem is, when he get the right position to lick those wounds , it get fresh again. So I look on Shopee that can help me to avoid that because cone is not enough. Then I saw a suit for cats and bought two and bought 2 more cones.
It helps?
Not really, well the other wounds are getting better but there are 3 big wounds that he licks every night while I'm sleeping. His uncle @AwakenToLife helps me and even search on YouTube what cream is more effective according to the vet that made a video. The problem is, the other wounds are getting better but when he lick the 3 wounds, it gets back.
Why I didn't bring him in vet?
I was supposed to bring him but even the vet give me another cream, he will just lick it. So I bought first the cream that recommended ..
I took that wound yesterday and it was fresh, but now ..
It almost dry. All I have to do is to look for him and make sure that he won't lick it again. So I'm on my break and just promote my crafts in every way I can. I'll just focus on that when ASuL is perfectly fine. I am also waiting to cone that looks spaceship that I ordered yesterday. I think it will be more effective because it covers also the mouth.
Am I ok?
No, I'm a bit frustrated because it's already 2 months that were struggling. At first, I don't have enough money to bring him in vet because the fee and cream that they always give with triple price. So I just bought what other furmom recommend that safe to ASuL but I realized late that I need something or gadgets that will avoid licking.
I can't focus on my crafts as well, yeah I need to do that I can have sales and will afford the vet but still, I'm not a preferred seller yet in shopee so I can't gain for now a sales. Well I admit that my crafts are not really salable but I enjoyed doing it.
But now, I can see that ASUL will recover soon so decided to blog it. What about Ljubav?
She's perfectly fine .. yeah sometimes she's asking for attention but she's doing it when ASUL is sleeping. She's a smart cat. She never get sick after she recovered from illness when I adopt her. She's sensitive to what she eat and she don't want to outside so I never had a problem to her. Just giver her food and attention, she's fine.
Being fur mom is not that easy as well but worth it.
As I always said
Be you, don't be me..
Personal IG:
https://instagram.com/mynameisangelajoy84?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
IG Store:
https://instagram.com/hey_you3323?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
FB Page:
https://www.facebook.com/revivebyyou/
Pinterest:
https://pin.it/65yucRM
Shopee:
https://shopee.ph/heyyou144?smtt=0.673796174-1657073329.9
My Brand: Hey YOU
Why Hey YOU?
In my native language, it's " hoy Ikaw!" Sounds rude but that's the way my friend who helped me morally and financially and I calling each other. Yeah it's @AwakenToLife .
We met in TSU and started to exchange opinions about life, if you notice on noise how he post, it's all about motivation in life, but we became close in bluefire app. He's one of the admin and I'm always the complainant π joke.
That time, I can't use my bluefire messenger so I posted it on my timeline and he suddenly response -" hey you, I already reported it to the CEO ". I was surprised because I'm not sure if he's mad because it's - "hoy Ikaw! " in Filipino. But after that, he used it again to me so I said - hey you too! π (praning lang π). So everytime I have an inquiry or he will ask something, we use "hey you".
Why I have to connect it with Duro Bjegovic - awakentolife?
Is he my boyfriend? I hope so char π, I'm married. And he's the first person who knows that. Actually, he knows every details about me - my weirdness, chakaness , kalandianess ( Pinoy knows π). He's my walking journal π.
Every one knows he's a very kind person with a big butt, I mean heart π. He's the one who push me to go with my crafts and in the end, push me to sell it. So when I followed his advice, he's the one who helped me financially as well. He's the reason why I have a new branded portable sewing machine and have my own workshop.
Oooops! I never ask for that, he's the one who offered. Actually, he always say that - if you need help ( financially) tell me. I just said yes but I'm not interested on that because i have enough money, yeah I don't have enough savings but I don't have debt as well. And besides, I can't give my body as payment because it's chubby π. For me to accept it, he offered it with conditions like - 2% share and will start to give his shares 5 months after my workshop finished. And I can stop anytime I want , no rush no pressure. Who am I to reject a great offer..
But actually I was hesitant, even were very close like super duper close, but in terms of money I feel so shy. He work for it, yeah he offered it with shares but I know he just include the share, so that I won't hesitant to accept it.
Out of gratitude, I used Hey YOU as a brand from - " kawaii sloth club ". And besides, I find it cute and unique.
https://read.cash/@aj_u2/journey-to-my-small-business-01-1af3bd6e
Because I'm not comfortable to the condition, I gave his shares (20% instead of 2%) from the day he send the money. I didn't tell him, I just send it to his PayPal. He messaged me and told me that next time, I used his 5 months share to promote my shop on shopee. And not only that, I think he send all his free tip to me on noise.cash. it's like , he giving back the share through free tip π.
My sales is very low and I'm slow but he still encourage me and of course no matter what happen, I'll continue my crafts and will forever use hey YOU even we separate our ways. He's going to heaven, me in hell π.
To Duro,
I know you're not active here but I want my article to be long π, you know how thankful I am and everytime I have a chance, I always say that. How I wish I can extend my arms in Iceland and hug you tight in neck π. I love you and I always pray for your happiness.
I hope you get married soon and have kids and get me as their nanny π. Thank you my whale, alien, goat, alien tree, fried chicken and my angel π€’π€£.
Yours truly - worst friend ever,
Don't forget..
Be you, don't be me
Personal IG:
https://instagram.com/mynameisangelajoy84?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
IG Store:
https://instagram.com/hey_you3323?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
FB Page:
https://www.facebook.com/revivebyyou/
Pinterest:
https://pin.it/65yucRM
Shopee:
https://shopee.ph/heyyou144?smtt=0.673796174-1657073329.9
And I'm Back
Why I took a break from read.cash?
It's been a while since I posted an article here, not because I don't get any but because I'm not in the mood π. That time, I am already practicing painting and selling my crafts on my dad's online shop. I don't earn big but I enjoyed it and good for my mental health.
Is because I don't need money? πΆI want money , lots and lots of money - I wanna be rich πΆπ, but during those times, I earn in noise.cash for 10-15 dollars a day. I even experienced 20 dollars twice.
What makes me to decide to get back?
I have no one to talk to. I have no one to share my ups and down on my online selling. It's not because noise give me small amount (I'm not really active there for a few months now), here - people won't leave a comment not related to my article π.
What about my great friend Duro who helped me financially and support me all the time. He's so busy like we don't talk for a week, he replied to my messages after a week unless its emergency. Being chef on a restaurant makes him tired. What more important is, he's always there during my never ending drama in life πππ.
What about Marisa and biya? They're busy as well and I understand that. What about my best friend? Busy too, sometimes we talk . What about my friends here. They're busy and they're not interested ... Whaaaat !? Yes , and that's ok. I don't mind that.
People now are busy because we have two years backlog because of pandemic.
What about my other social media?
I deleted my twitter, me we, Tumblr, and I deactivated my personal FB account. Why? Because the result of politics π. Even I didn't participate in political minions war, to the point they know who I supported, they cancelled me after they lose . I thought after the election, everything will get back to normal but I was wrong. It get worse.
So the only social media I have are.
Personal Instagram.. https://instagram.com/mynameisangelajoy84?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
Instagram Store.. https://instagram.com/hey_you3323?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
FB page .. https://www.facebook.com/revivebyyou/
Pinterest.. https://pin.it/4SG3Lfz
It's all related to my shop and my crafts ..
What will you expect now that I am back?
Nothing ππ. More of my stuffs, what's happening to my online selling, still thinking about my YouTube because no one Is interested - well it's kinds boring π€π. Some of my rants and never ever drama story of my everyday life , and of course, my cat, my kalandian and so on π..
As my ending ..
Be you, don't be me...
Journey to My Small Business ...01
It's been a year since I started to do painted pots and some of my designs sold. At first, I just want to have some cactus and succulents in my bedroom in a painted pots but I posted it on noisecash and Facebook and some of my friends asked me if I can sell some to them. But I didn't pursue the plan because of some chores , errands and being active on noise eat my time. I can't even focus in practicing because of my laziness π.
After a few months, I play my brush again but this time with crates and it turned out cute. And tried it to different colors like - pastel blue, pastel green, pastel yellow, pastel violet and pastel pink. I posted it on my Facebook and I received alot of orders that makes me decided to include it to my dad's online shop.
When November came I moved all my paint stuff to my cabinet and converted it as my mini working space and my shelves became my cattos playground. But my laziness hit and I didn't fix my working space and right and let it be messy for a few weeks.
I spend all of my spare time in YouTube until one video pop up on my feed that change my mind and pursue my plan to sell online, but this time not only painting but also sewing. I saw the YouTube video about XXL SCRUNCHIES
Before painting caught my interest, I always check my Pinterest related to planner/journal essentials and sewing (any fabric related). But I didn't take it seriously because that time, I was busy on my buy and sell business. Now that I have money from bch and alot of time because of pandemic, I decided to try it this time . So I withdraw all my bch and bought some storage, portable sewing machine, fabric , garter and so on.
Not only that, I choose a backup items which is liptint, and clay blush (soon to other cosmetics) . So I bought a bottle and some stuffs that I need for selling liptint. I also bought packaging , another color if acrylic for pots because that time, I want to post it too to my father's shop.
I thought it was easy but it's not, I have to think the brand name and the logo . I even had an epic fail because on my first brand , I used my name , but when the stickers is already printed, I decided to change itπ. Why? Because I want to run my online shop secretly to all my relatives and friends. How can I keep it secret if my name is in my brand-name π. I'll just change it after all the liptint and clay blush sold.
Because all I need is already here, I have no choice but to fix my mini working space. I decided to make a video for it and post it on my secret YouTube channel π , so that I can see all my progress and motivate me to pursue my online business.. so here it is..
https://youtu.be/Uc0OcL3SS8o
I will all my progress here and what's happening to my plan until I launch it on Instagram ..
https://instagram.com/kawaiislothclub?utm_medium=copy_link
Thank you for reading and watching my video β€οΈ
Had a few days break because my eyes got worse and need to go to the optical. I already got my eye glasses but still adjusting..
No I can see clearly and I make it sure that my eye glasses have an anti radiation. I am ready again for read cash.. will catch up some of articles after I write another one...
Oh well .. just updating π..
Angel
My papa had me when he was 21 years old, same age with my mama and they had me unexpectedly. My grandfather decided to get back in the Philippines when he found out that my mama get pregnant and he was really mad specially to my papa. He just close his mouth while both parties talking about the set up , but everythings change when I pop up except his treatment to my papa. Well, papa have a long patience and know how to communicate with anyone except to my grandpa π.
My papa was born in Palanan Isabela and a high school graduate. The last time I visit his province was 32 years ago and the road there we're still rocky and it's like a Japanese style Street. It's like - house - road - house - road. Windows there was a Spanish style , no electricity , you'll get your water in the deep well and most kids there like can't speak Tagalog, only Palanan and it sounds differently.
My papa started his journey here in metro manila when he was 19 years old. He became a porter first and move in caloocan and became a woodcraft laborer where he met my flirty mama π.
My papa is a black belter in Arnis and karate, he had a good body with 6 pack abs.. it just United now and become 1 π. He's also good in art, he always help my aunts on their project but when I'm already schooling, he keep telling me to make my own π€. I remember when I was in grade 1 and my mama can't pick me up, my papa came and all my classmate was staring at him. I thought they're wondering why my papa and I have a different skin color. But I was wrong, early in the morning in school my classmates be like - woah! Your dad looks like a wrestler, did he go to the gym? My father have a big belly like a pregnant woman ... So me like - that's my papa Angel.
My papa stop his smoking and drinking habit when he almost killed by it and timely that my sister was born. He always using me an excuse to reject when someone invite him for a drink , he was like - sorry but I have to take care of my daughter because my wife is busy doing chores. But when he met a new peep, he started to drink and smoke again and I started to nag at him π.
Me to him: if you can't inherit us a money, atlist don't inherit us a problem.
And he stop smoking again and he just drink now once or twice a month.
Most of my neighbors are very kind to my parents specially to my father because he always ready to help them when they needed. When he got his first L300, one of our neighbor asking him to scroll in luneta park π. When they need extra vehicle for emergency, my father let them to borrow it.. and so on. I should say, I'm blessed having a father like him. Always ready to help as long as he can.
If God will give me another chance to choose a father,I'll choose him forever. He's the one who mold my character and my role model except being a Christian π. He's a member of cult, cult of people that don't do go to church π but still believe and pray to God.
Yesterday September 22 celebrated his 59th birthday and it's first time to celebrate it with food and still, didn't blow a cake π. He just stand beside the cake and took a picture π. Now,I'm thinking, I should prepare for 60th birthday of my parents.. welcoming on senior citizen's life with alot of benefits and discounts π. I know this time, they won't get mad because they know now the feeling celebrating another year with small treats.
Happy birthday papa Angel π. May God grant all prayers and remaining dreams for your life. I'm always here, you junior Angela.
Be you ... Don't be me
Just an Ordinary Day ...
I promise to myself that I won't write any personal things about me, but here I am again, into drama and ranting what's running on my head.
Most of people are excited to celebrate their birthdays - buying gifts for their selves, preparing a party and the most I envy, they always got a surprised.
If other parents celebrate their kid's first birthday, not mine. The only pictures that i saw, when I am celebrating my 5th Birthday together my sister that will celebrate her birthday too after 15 days, after that, no celebrations at all. Well, i understand my parents as my father was just a laborer and my mom part timer and all their incomes just enough for daily needs, paying debt and bills. So my birthday become an ordinary day to me. I always keep my birthday secret because I know that they will tease me to treat them.
When I was in grade 4, I received my top exactly my birthday and my classmate which is also belong to my circle of friends found out about it and anounced it. My teacher greeted me and tell to my classmates to sing a happy birthday to me . I was really emotional that time and I can't even say thank you right after they sang because my tears starts falling and my voice starts trembling ( crying while typing this lol ) . After that, another ordinary birthday day came.
I am imagining now if someone was excited to my birthday before, because i don't remember anyone. Only a dull greeting and some text just to ask where I'm gonna celebrate my birthday and if they're invited.
Debut ... of course most of girls are excited about it because it's a debut and you're entering the legal age. And this is the time that i prepared some foods for my friends. My mom cooked spaghetti and prepared a salad and my Aunt bought me 2 mocha rolled cakes. And all I remeber is , my friends come one by one , eat and run π. And after that, another ordinary birthday day.
When my friends celebrate their birthdays, I am always present and happy for them because another year celebrating friendship with them. We eat alot, sing in karaoke, teasing eacher other and laugh alot, of course there's always reminiscingg from the past. Sometimes, their siblings will contact us to have a surprise for them which is I envy them a bit. I always wondering what's the feeling of being surprise on your big day.
Until I reach 33... I met a guy when I was still in the buy and sell business and had a counter clerk and customer relationship. Because we always encounter once a week for delivery, we exchange FB and had a liitle talk. Those little talk become an hour, and hours, then became everyday, and boom! we became close friends. He learned more about me because he fun to chat with and i already feel comfortable . You know what he did? He surprised me a day before my birthday. He treat me on a pizza hut and asked crews to serenade me with cake. I was really surprise and can't describe what i am feeling that day. But, I didn't know that it will be the start of my terrible friendship to him.
So it was posted on my facebook and my officemates teasing me when will i treat them. So i told them that it was my first birthday surprise and i really don't celebrate my birthday. So when I turn 34, they surprised me a bit with banner and cake. Someone told me that I deserve it because my service as auditor is free. I was like - ok .
What I did after that was, I remove my birthday on facebook and erase all the signs that will point out my birthday. I want to see who will remember it. Well, I have group chat with my circle of friends , so if someone will greet me there, the rest will just follow. But mostly , they always forgot it.
My last quarantine birthday was special too because my FAMILY tribe make a short birthday for me. I hope I can celebrate it next time in person, but I know it won't happen. For sure, that would be fun and they will prepare for it and will make it special.
Its not my bithday yet but I am thinking to make it special on my next birthday. I'll still keep it a secret and no any anouncement but I will make it special . I know God will not answer me yet why Another year for me even I'm not excited π. So I'm going to celebrate it with Him.
Be you, don't be me
My Hair My Say ...
Everyone says that our hair is our crowning glory and sometimes your aura is also depends in our hair. That's why alot of girls spend money for their hair unless that they have shinning shimmering splended hair since birth. Well, not to brag , but i inherited to my father's side the natural straight hair and my mom took care of it by cutting it short when i was a kid.
Most of kids before have long hair and it always styled by their moms, but my mom just cut it out because she dont know how to style a hair, busy helping my dad to work and i have lice π. I never experienced a long hair until i reached a high shool.
When i was in grade 3, my teacher keep reminding my classmate to comb her hair, because it always look messy and not look nice but in reality my classmate always comb it, its just she have a tin hair. And the worst is, my teacher keep comparing to me, she was like - look at joy, she always comb her hair, pony your hair if you dont comb it.
Whe i was already in grade 4 , i got an interest to have a long hair because my childhood friend and my classmate at the same time have a long hair even her hair is a bit dry. But my mom didn't allow me and she cut my hair again. I didn't go to shool after and cried alot, i just send an excuse letter why i am absent. You know what's on the excuse letter? that i was an adopted π. Yes, i said that just because my mom rejected my request, and until now i didnt corrected it π.
So when i get old, of course my mom didn't tamper my hair at all, but my dad keep reminding me not to color my hair. But when i was 25 years old, my best friend visit the Philippines and bring me in the salon and colored my hair. It was pass midnight whe i get back to the house and my dad is already sleeping so she dont have any idea about my hair color. And I woke up late so that my dad won't see it. But of course, i can't for a long time, he caught me after 3 days and he was like - what did you do to your hair? that's ugly it looks like rust. Well, he's the only one said that its ugly to me π.
After that, i always color my hair and cut it with different style and i even curl it. I use different hair iron that cause damage to my hair. My start to fall because of it plus stress in life. But of course i use different remedy to maintain it. And let me share you some tips..
Virgin coconut oil ...
I put virgin coconut oil twice once a week from scalp to tip 30 minutes before taking a bath. While waiting for 30 minutes , i massage my scalp to make it relax and the oil spread to the entire hair. It helps to lessen the dandruff and your hair will get thick and soft. But you have to shampoo your hair twice so that the oil will remove. But if your hair is dry, make it twice to 3 times a week.
Apple Cider...
I spray the apple cider from scalp to tip. the mixture is 1 is to 1 - 1/2 water 1/2 apple cider, 20 minutes before i take a bath. Even your kinky hair will shine and will look healthy. it will remove your dandruff for a week. Dont forget use the cream silk after shampoo to lessen the scent of apple cider vinegar.
Rice water...
this is my current hair care - rice water twice a week. its easy to prepare as we eat rice and this is the cheapest because you dont need to buy one because its already in the kitchen. What i did is , i put the water in the bottle that i used to rinse the rice and boiled for 3 minutes then let it fermented for 3 days. I just pour it on my head and 15 minutes before rinse it. Use shampoo and conditioner to remove the scent of fermented rice water. Your hair will get shiny, remove dandruff and less hair fall. You can watch on youtube the other way to prepare a rice water because my process is more effective on me. And rice water will make your hair longer fast .
Now, im not afraid to style and color my hair because i do some hair care that really effective on me.
What about you ? How do you care your hair?
Lazy Weeks...
What!? Lazy for a week? Duh! I can even lazy for a month,a year or my whole life π. How many times that I said to myself that I will be more active in readcash and noisecash so that I can expand my vocabularies, learn something new, make virtual friends and my favorite - earn money π. But my unmotivated and dead brain don't function and my body always cooperate on that. And besides, cashes is not work, it was supposed to enjoy . So if I'm going to spend my whole time on both platform , it's already a work for me and I won't enjoy it.
So I just posted this past few days on noise if I have something to post, and I decided to have sponsorship to some of here to share some blessings that I received from my generous , kind, gorgeous sponsors. Right now, I don't want to push myself to do something that I don't feel at all. For me,it's better to be productive than just to be busy.
What makes me decide to take seriously the platform? Well, I'm not really nice and I feel sometimes envious, so every time I see someone posting their savings or what they earn here, I am trying to copy them because it looks cool and I want to be cool too π.. yeah yeah yeah! I know being envious is not good and it's a root of evil ,but what should I do? That's what I felt when I saw some posts about their Earnings here. I even bought a keyboard that can connect to my cellphone so that I can type fast before words and ideas rumbling on my head before it became POOF! Coco crunch and gone π.
But nah! Having it doesn't push me to write π, I even paint it and put a design thinking that I can feel more to use it. Well, atlist I have now my own design because of it and now will be my another source of income (literally work). How many days that I am telling to myself " hey YOU, c'mon be active and write alot, post alot" - ok ok , I will do that starting tommorow.... And tommorow comes , I was like - aahhhhhhhhhhhhh..
I checked myself, while I'm on my bed trying to get well after I took my first vaccine and ask why... Of course I answered myself. Because it's not me.. most of them doing this because they enjoyed it, because it's their goal, it's because they're very happy doing it.. oooops! Don't get me wrong, I am happy here too , but I have some interest that I am more enjoying to do .. so I said
Angela! Stop! You can't stay on track if your pressuring yourself and copying them. Do read and noise for you to learn more and enjoy more, just write that you feel what to write that will benefit the readers. Catch up with your fellas here and make more fellas from time to time.
That's what I exactly told to my self while facing on the mirror with swaying my hair π.
Be you, don't be me π¦₯
My BCH Earnings got Flashed
Most of you have plans what to do on your earnings when you started earning in noise.cash and read.cash, well not me. How many times i said that i joined cash because of Mary Jane Barrera π
, i got a bitcoin wallet because she told me so π, but never interested how to convert BCH into peso. In short, I dont have a coins.ph wallet for converter. When i started to use cashes, i just interact if i want too, i just post if there something to be post that can led to a convo (well, until now). The tips before are depends to the tips that noise will give to you and it depends on you how many percent is yours . i just took 20% at first and then someone advice me that atlist make it 35%. Even noisecash giving me almost a dollar free tip a day, i still distribute it to those who are deserving.
Because i almost give all tips and not so active in posting, i just gained 35 dollars for 2 months. That time, i got interested to convert it into peso, even im not interested that much in BCH, its still a money π. So i make a wallet that will convert it into Phillipine money, but i am to slow and that time my brain was so dead because of a friend, i lost my 35$ while transferring it on coins.ph π. So MJ keep nagging why i didnt wait for her , atlist lesson learned , again π.
I started to zero when tips got change into heart value and got a few subscribers more, so i gained alot even i just post 2 post a day and of course my favorite - taking a break . But after a month i think, i withdrew all of it and got 6k pesos (120$). And i started to zero again. Where i used it? on my skin care, cattos and paintings stuff including pots. This time, i told to myself that im going to save it until December, but didnt happened, again π.
I have an Aunt who have a private home for the aged in the states, she help alot to all my relatives except on my family. When he visit the Philippines 6 years ago, she just realized that the only family that almost left out was on my grandpa ( mom's dad) side. She didnt even know how funny my sibling are lol π, and my parent established family business because of my sister's money and my parents experienced. Then one time, she visit the compound of my famiy and even checked my bedroom and video it. That time, im not into painting and busy on woodcraft, so all you can see was a blanket, 2 pillows, 1 laundry basket and a standfan π. I heard her telling to the video that im kawawa (pity) because thats the only thing i have and i am poor π€¦π. What more if she check my cabinet. I told her that my lifestyle is just different to them but she did'nt listen anyway. The last part that she checked was the bathroom at the laundry area. It doesn't look nice because it isn't fully furnish and the door is just a aluminum sheet and the wall is rough because the hallowblocks are visible. But my mom and me always clean it (and that's my favorite hang out/place π. And you know what my Aunt's reaction - oh kawawa, why it isn't finish? I'll help you on this. Don't get me wrong, my aunt is very nice, she just dont know how to approach us because she thinks that we've been left out for a long time. Well it is, because on my family - there's a descrimination.
The visiting happend before the pandemic, so were very busy to save the small family business that we have and forget what about my aunt said before. She send alot of stuff for us, but i just pick a curtain because i dont need alot of stuff on my bedroom, i just need more space. Well i have DIY bed now because my great friend keep bugging me on it plus , i have cattos that still in hyper stage so DIY bed for the meantime is a great idea.
And she wants to send money for the bathroom renovation which for my mom is not a good idea because of me. Yes me, she's afraid that i might get slip because of tiles, but i told her just to buy non slippery tiles . My other aunt wants to rush us because she will report it to my sponsor aunt and that the reason why sister got stressed. My other aunt who will report the expenses questioning my sister the total amount of materials and why we have to pay a laborer if my father and my brother can do that. First, low quality is a no for us plus, we have business to run that needs my father and brother's attentions and labor.
My sister cried to me because of stress dealing with my aunt, so i told her that just get the money what my sponsor aunt will give and i will pay for the rest. Yes, they always give us a part of some of their packages that they always send but accepting a help with big money is stressfull specially that were not use to it. So i withdrew all my BCH again worth 11k pesos (220$). I removed first the 10% tithes , offering, ASUL's vet and meds and a keyboad. My dad help the laborer so that it will finished in a short span. Well, not yet fully furnished but its a huge different than before.
The bathroom was build when i was second year high school by my dad and his goofy friend. They didn't finish it because my dinosaur crazy aunt splash them a cold water π, my grandama who was still alive was scared that my dinosaur aunt might splash them next time a boiling water. So the bathroom dont have roof and the door is made of curtain π. Imagine, i have to use umbrella everytime its raining π€¦π.
But one time, when i am taking a bath, the helicopter of ABS CBN (broadcasting network) cross on the bathroom and i see clearly those people in helicopter π. i was like paaaaaaaaaa what the π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬πβοΈ. My dad was laughing but after that, they put a roof. The next scene was,my dinosaur aunt was pooping and im in a hurry to pee, i opened the door of the bathroom that made of curtain and my aunt was really mad π. I cried again to my dad and put an aluminum sheet as a door.
Everytime i think about it, i dont feel guilty that i use my BCH for it. Atlist now,it looks nice and i wont hear any murmuring from others. Before, everytime im in the bathroom, i always hear, oooh shes going to use it for an hour. Now, i don't hear anything π. And of course , my mom who always worrying about my crook foot bought a slipper and mat for me π. So my BCH got flashed on the toiled bowl.
Here's the current look of the bathroom...
Thank you @JLoberiza and @YelenaB for sponsorship
Thank you thank you π
Thank you @JLoberiza and @YelenaB for sponsorship
Thank you thank you π
Ljubav - love...
I wasnt supposed to make an article today about my second, what's on my mind is the dresses that i bought on shopee for my friends, but Ljubav keep bugging me at the moment and walking to my keyboard π. So i just decided to talk about her and what is my everyday life with her.
I decided to adopt her for ASUL and not for me, so that my first will have a playmate. Ljubav is a kitten that living beside the street and have 3 siblings. I told to her former owner that i'm going to adopt one of the kitten, she said yes but after 2 months because kitten is still in breast feed. i want to adopt her right away and just buy a milk for her because when i check the cat house , it was really dirty and some of kittens are already have skin disease. But the owner didnt allowed me. So while waiting to the kitten, i already prepared a name and condition myself that i need an extra time for my second. The first name that i choose was volim, but the uncle suggested Ljubav because that is the right term for love.
After a month, my cousin told me that one of the kitten is alread dead because it was hit by a car, so i decided to talk again to the owner and convince her to allow me to adopt one of the kitten so that the mother cat can focus to the remaining. So the owner allow me to pick one. You know what? Ljubav isn't the cutest , her color is very common and you can see on streets same color as her. Not only that, she has a skin disease, ring worm , mites and malnourished.
Her first week...
Before i introduced her to ASUL, i took her a bath, remove some mites, cut her nails and clean her ears. She smells good but she wasnt look nice, I put her to ASUL's bed and wait for ASUL. Of course, my cousins and sisters check Ljubav and telling why i chose her, she's ugly and blah blah blah. They didnt even like the name because its hard to spell, pronounce and not easy to remember. I just ignore them and stares to my second while planning what to do to improve her health and next is her physical appearance.
When ASUL met her, he gave her a welcome punch π, and hissing , which i expected. My first week with them was really exhausting and gave me sleepless nights. Ljubav didn't walk on her first 3 days, she just crawl when she's going to the litter box or going to eat. So i have to help her and check from time to time. When she started walking, she always climb on my neck and sleep there. I even allow her to sleep in my neck or chest despite i put some cacao cream to her entire body.
Her 2nd week ...
Her second week are full of treatments , i want it to stop but i know it will good for her. If you can see her on person , she looks like a wilted vegetables. And her skin is like a skin rat, there are spots that have no fur and you can see clearly the dry skin.
Her 3rd week ...
She looks nice already and have a wresling and bite relationship with ASUL, but she's really sweet to me. She don't sleep if im not around, she always kiss me, she loves staying on my neck and she loves being pet.
First and 2nd Month ...
She loves playing with her kuya, and she keep copying him. The problem is, she's more hyper now and always tease him, but if its time to revenge, she will run to me and asking for a help, thats why one time, i got some wound from ASUL accidentally. She loves talking alot , i mean meowing, she always responding when i talk. Because shes still a baby, she wants attention only to her, if she noticed that i am busy to my cellphone, she will jump on my chest and will yell right on my face. If i didn't stop checking my phone, she will click my screen more and more until i turn it off.
I already know what she needs depends on her meowing thats why i have to observe what shes trying to say . She always wants to involve to what i am doing, she watch youtube with me, she stay under my small table when i paint, and shes listening to me when i sing. She most hated is wiping his butt after she pee or poop . The funny thing is, she's pretending that she still pooping or peeing just to avoid wiping his butt and feets π. Sometimes she just sit on the litter and dont go π.
I think, i didn't give ASUL a favor when i adopted Ljubav,but me. How i wish she will be forever sweet.
I was really down this past few days and trying Myself to keep busy just to ignore my own monster but laziness attacks too.. so I just read and read some articles here, listening to music and finish some errands.. just timely that ate @judith1969 , @bloghound and @ARTIclee decided to sponsor me. Thank you guys and now no reason not to active here π
Me, Myself and I
When I started here in readcash, I didn't introduce myself well because the only reason why I am here is just to rant because I want to move on in a feelings that I know will never reciprocate and save my friendship, plus @bmjc98 keep bugging me to join here πβοΈ.
My name is Angela Joy Cleofas, thirty seveenteen years old from the land that full of memes Philippines π and was born last March 23 1984. I am the eldest but crying like a youngest π. I was born with disability and cute. I am a minimalist, crazy look rich Asian π but poor in money π.
Character
I'm sure I am a talkative person , even I talk to someone or I talk to myself π.I don't like dull moments, so most of people that already close to me knows that I am fun to be with. I am a bit shy, yes I am π. Because I am a slow learner, I easily intimidated to smart person unless they're approachable. Im an over thinker person, day dreamer and lazy . I am also a straight forward person but I always put in the right situation. That's why I don't like being ask, because I can't control my mouth to tell the truth. I'm sweet, clingy , care alot. So most of people that I like specially men misunderstood me as a flirt or I have plan to make them a boyfriend .. my gosh! You missed half of your life πβοΈ.
Education
I took elementary and high school in public and didn't participate in extra curriculum specially to sports because of my crooked foot. I don't even join in dance contest because I'm not brave enough to face my bullies if they start to tease me. I'm good reader since grade one and I have not so cute penmanship but I'm a slow learner specially in mathematics. Despite of that , I got top even I don't study my lesson π
Grade 2 - top 4
Grade 4 - top 7 (I have 4 exams that didn't take)
Grade 6 - 3rd honor and 3rd placer in Filipino quiz B
3rd year high school - 2nd honor and class president.
Im not a college graduate because of financial reasons. When I took Business Administration major in management, my mom had a problem on her job so I just finished the 1 semester. After a few years of working, I took vocational as data encoder and had an OJT in Channel Technologies Inc. . When I'm already 23 years old, my aunt decided to send me back to school and let me take Elementary education (teacher) but I just finished 2 semester.
Hobbies and talentssssss π
I love singing even my singing voice is not good. I always sing on the bathroom before because I love the echo echo effect π. But I avoid microphone when I'm with my friends for videoke.. omg! they're a good singer and always join in singing contests. But I think I can join next time because I am proud now that I can sing a Whitney Houston song π. I love dancing as well, that's why my exercise is always in a dance style. I do love crafting - string art, quilling, woodcrafting and painting. I'm also interested in mobile photography but I want to focus on my style - minimalist style. I love listening to music, that's why even I don't have a good singing voice , I'm always in the right time and right timing. Music saves me in my depressions or let's say, I don't get depress easily because of music. I can play kalimba , I already tried drums and beatbox. What else? Ah! My favorite hobby is crying ππβοΈ.
**Job**
My first job was painting a figurines when I was 16 years old - it's already mold in shape that's why it's easy to paint it. I am also a part time repacker at the same company. When I hit the legal age , I became a factory worker in Liwanag Candle. From quality repacker to quality controller. After my contact, I worked as a repacker in Monterey. Currently working on my family small business as a repacker and making a design for crafts.
Business
Of course, I tried being a business woman. After dreaming a wrestler π, I want to be a boss babe. But what happened was, I became a bossy π. My first business was mini sari sari store when I was in grade 2 (8 years old). When I'm already adult , I tried online selling. When we're was in peak and earning alot, extreme anxiety attacks and decided to stop and work under my father's small business.
Pets
Well everyone knows that I have 2 cats namely ASUL (blue) and Ljubav (love). And fostering a ball python named Luca.
Favorites
I love neutral and nude colors. My favorite singers are Whitney Houston, Mariah Carey and Gloria Estefan. My favorite boyband is backstreetboys. My favorite band are Jon bon Jovi, mr.big, and Metallica. My favorite food is pizza and pesto. My favorite book is Bible. My favorite exercise is chewing π.
I don't like...
Sunset π, I don't like eating pork, squids, shrimps, Crabs and exotic. I don't like temporary people. I don't like asking me what I want , what I need and what's my birthday π on the second time. I don't like people who don't like me πβοΈ.
People mostly that do not know...
π€ I love to travel and hike too, but I can't afford to do it alot - financially, because of some expenses that need to prioritize , time because of errands that need to be finish, goal that I want to reach as soon as possible and endurance. My crooked foot have limitations , even on walking. They thought walking will help me , yes but there's a limitation. When I hit the limitation before, I thought my legs will break anytime . So I just stay on my room and do alot of things here βΊοΈ.
π€ I love surprises too , but not the one who will make me piss and cry in the end π. But sadly, I just got a surprise twice on my whole life π, because I always ruin it.
π€ I don't get mad easily. So never never misunderstand me for being mad. Remember? I'm slow. Need a lot of time to process if I have to be mad or not π.
π€ Wherever I am , when there's music , I dance π. Most of my church mate and neighbors think that I'm to sossy. But when I'm with the right people, I dance when there's music even the music came from my headphone πβοΈ. Well, I have an aunt doing that too π.
π€Im a frustrated mobile photographer but I'm easily distracted to other style and don't focus on my own. The funny thing is, my character shows in the result π.
π€I'm not good in handling money but I don't have loans and and savings too π.
That's all folks π€π€π€
Still Thankful..
Everytime I'm doing a plan, I always end up on bad situations or bad results, well not a new to me π, but this is π€¬, why I didn't learn my lesson π.
Had a problem on my phone that I have reboot and clear the data. All the apps gone and even pictures on my gallery. The worst is, I have to log in again readcash and noisecash. I saved the seed phrase and email/username but I didn't save any on noisecash. Ending? I can't enter to my account with 1,477 subs and receiving a good tip.
The only solution that I have to do is back to zero. I made a new account and look for noise users who I consider a noisefriend. And I won't deny that it affects me and makes me feel down. Yes, I always says that tip is a big bonus to me but why so timely that I have an emergency and plan π. Plus, not receiving any makes me feel unwanted or unimportant π.. where's my subscribers before?
Of course, I know that half of them are spammers π and just want me to subs back π. I'm thankful to @frenchtoast78 @MarSou @Biyaawnur for helping me to renoise my post and having now a 148 subs in a week.
I know my account is not in good condition lol π compared to my old account.. on my first 2 days, didn't received any and the following days I have some but today, nothing again. Sounds I need tip? Not that badly, as I've said, it makes me unimportant π, like I feel my post is just nothing , ordinary, boring etc π. Don't worry, I'm not mad , just down and unmotivated and even writing articles is affected.. I didn't write any and my head get blank which is my normal π.. but I'm going to push myself because someone sponsoring me .. I was like, oh π€¬π.. someone trusting me in read .. it cheers me up to be honest... Now, preparing and conditioning myself to write atleast once a day or every other day And be active here starting tomorrow π.
Yep this is just a short article just to thank people who helping me .. and who sponsoring me ..
Thank you @bmjc98 for inviting me here .. thank you @fantagira for always cheering me up here and thank you for my new sponsor @LykeLyca . I don't know what you see on me but thank you .. I'll make sure that you won't regret it π..
To all my readcash friend here and to the new one .. thank you π.. see you around π€.
And if you know some challenges here about writing.. let me know ..
Now that I am a Hooman...
I never thought that I could be a Hooman because I'm not a pet lover. I'm afraid of dogs because I remember when I was a kid, some dogs chase me and I already bitten by them. I'm not into cat also , because I was scratched hard before.
I know someone will react - but you have a snake π. Well, it's not mine, that's my brother's pet Luca. Im still afraid of snakes but not with Luca because she grew up with us and I always play with her.
But I have a friend who always flaunt his cat and how smart his cat is. Sometimes he suddenly send some pictures of him and his cat and keep telling story about it. And I started to envy him π. His cat named Dama means lady. She's really cute and chubby..
She's always posted before on the paying app that already close. And most of the users are always commenting how cute she is.
So me I was like , I want a cat too, but I want Dama π. So I always making a joke to her Hooman Δuro that he can send me Dama. I delivered it jokingly but deep inside, I was serious π. Until I got cattos...
Of course uncle Δurito is supportive when I got them. And time goes by, I noticed changes on me. I am messy when crafting, but now I have to be organize more or else, they'll ruin it. I just clean my room 2-3 times a week but now 2-3 times a day π. I am always comfortable when I am sleeping at night, but now, I'll make sure that they are comfortable and won't be disturb..
Before, I always start my day listening to music, but now I'm doing my vocalization like..
ASUUUUL π€¬π€¬π€¬
Ljubaaaaaaaaaav π€¬π€¬π€¬
Or everytime they noticed that I'm checking my phone, they jump on me and starting yelling because of their request π. I want having a flower or plants on my window, so i had a basil, zinnia, succulents, cactus on my window, but now I'm growing a grass for them π.
My phone gallery are full of ideas that came from Pinterest, screenshots π and selfies π. But now, it's almost pictures of them π. I always take care of my skin and I don't hesitate to wear shorts but now, I have alot of scratches that came from them that need to hide. I never took myself laying on bed and I always make sure that I look nice on pic, but now I'm doing it just to flaunt that they're sweet with me that time and don't care how I look like.
I am sensitive that's why I don't touch anything specially if it looks yuck to me π. But when they came, I don't wear gloves when I clean their dirty ears, butt after they pee and poop, I kiss them even they're bad breath sometimes or stinky . When Ljubav had a skin disease and ring worm and put some cream on her , I allowed her to sleep on my neck just to make her comfortable even I'm not comfortable on it π. I am " maarte " but Im not when it comes to them.
I didn't expect that I will be a good Hooman and it will change me alot. Even my routine change because of them and my character too. I don't get laugh easily specially on corny jokes. But when they act differently, I laugh alot even they just jump ππ .. my anxiety attack almost every day, but now , it's either once a week or every other week. My patience always on exercise too π. Now that I'm a Hooman, waking me up everyday is not hard , and not bad having a greeter in the morning.
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And I noticed that I smile more lately π€
ASUL (blue) - adoption and his first month...
Some of you knew already my meowdel ASUL - my adopted straycat. His former owner leave him outside the gate and hoping that one of us in the compound will adopt him (according to my neighbor - Ljubav's mom current owner). And that time, I was really looking for a kitten but not a stray one, I'm looking for the breed one. I was hesitant to adopt him but I still feed him, took him a bath and named him ASUL . I even posted him on my FAMILY group and started to tease me that no need to hesitant because giving him a name means my decision is final - that I'm going to adopt him.
Even I already decided that I'm going to adopt him, my parents and uncle wasn't agree and the reason is, because of their poop. How many times that I heard my uncle that he hated having a cat in the compound , and the funny thing is, when I let ASUL explore on his second day, he poop on my uncle's house π€¦π. So I have to put him on my bedroom all day because my uncle was really mad π. But my papa is on his side and telling me that I shouldn't adopt a cat because having it will just bother everyone. When my sister noticed that I don't answer and obviously that I'm going to cry, she told papa the he should let me to take care of the cat for me to enjoy and maybe a big help if ever my anxiety attacks. My dad didn't answer yes, but didn't answer no too.
Because it's my first cat, and I was really looking forward to having it, I but all cat essentials that ASUL's uncle advice. I bought litter box, litter, collar,wipes - because he don't like ASUL being bathed π, bowl for food and drinks, mouth spray, nail cutter and bed. I was really excited because my papa will let me adopt ASUL if he found out that I already spend money for him π€. I was really excited when the parcel came because finally, ASUL have his own bed.. but when I open the parcel, he loves the bubble wrap more π€¦π and snob the bed π.
I have to put him on cage with his bed just to force him to use it. Atlist, I gave him a big rat doll ππ.
Before sun rise, I already open the cage but ASUL was still in a deep sleep and very comfortable to his new bed.
Not only essential does ASUL have, I gave him an uncle who's always checking up on him. .How is he, how many times he eat for a day etc. Because I don't have any idea about cats π
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On his first week, I'm focusing on his fur because it's still look dirty and on his wound under his eyes. And because he's not familiar on my place, he always sit or sleep on my lap. And that's the only time that I appreciate his eyes, no wonder why uncle and aunts amaze on it.
Because I'm not familiar in cats behavior, I even experienced a hard bite from him. I had a backpain that time and I have to walk every morning for 30 minutes just inside the compound. I can't leave ASUL alone in my bedroom, so I carry him while walking. That time , my uncle using a machine and the sounds of it got scared him, instead I let him to jump for him to run and hide, I hold him tightly that gave him a reason to scratch and bit me hard.
It makes me zoned out and it makes ASUL scared . We just stay on my bedroom while messaging some of my nurse friend if I have to go to the doctor for vaccine. That experience gave him a trauma and he don't want to go outside. Even I close the door of my room and sit on the stairs, he just stares ate me and didn't move. He giving me a punch or scratch everytime I force him to go outside π.
ASUL and I have a bite and scratch relationship, he just sweet when he feels that I'm not ok, but punch me if he taste my tears π. He don't want to cuddled ever since. He loves run and he loves to jump like a kangaroo . His favorite game is fetching - he always put the pen cap in my front and wait for me to throw it. If I didn't notice it, he will put it on my legs and bite me π. He hates my singing voice, he walks backward when I'm starting to sing. Despite of that he trust me alot by sleeping with his expose tummy.
Because he have his own stuffed, he also have a storage wooden crate and I paint it with his name.
Having asul was really fun but wasn't easy specially that I have crafts and pots. I have to train him the do's and donts on my room. Because he is smart cat, he never go to my shelves or touch my stuffs Unless it's my earphone. He can't control himself when it terms of any string . He never break any of my pots even he get hyper when there's a box π.
What I miss on him on his first month? Sleeping on my tummy. He don't sleep on my tummy anymore because he's already big and he can't stretch his body. He just sleep beside me when he feels cold. He dont even sleep now on my pillow and sit on it while waiting to the sunrise.
But atlist he don't punch me at all. And we don't have a bite and scratch relationship anymore. Only snob and yelling relationship π.
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When I was a Kid
When I was a kid, I save my own money just to buy my own toy.
My mom never buy me a toy. Her only token or price for us are food. So most of my toys are DIY by me or I'm going to save the money that my mom always giving me for a merienda just to buy one. So most of the time, I spend my time outside the house and play while saving. So my childhood is very adventurous had alot of fun and laugh. And that practice I carry until now, I'm into crafting that now I can use in small business. If I need something, I saved instead borrow money to others. And im still intact to my childhood friends.
When I was a kid, I had a part time job ...
My grandma always make a merienda and I'll sell it on my neighbors and she will pay me for that. I even sell some of our fruit that came to my grandma's garden like santol, star fruit and custard apple... Sometimes, my neighbor who had a first woodcraft ordered me to put a sticker on their items. They pay me too. The funny thing is - the sticker that put in the item says it's made in Japan πβοΈ. After I saved enough money, I asked my grandma's helper to buy me some junk food and toys that I need and I start my mini sari sari store. I was just on a second grade that time. So ever since, I'm really into selling π.
When I was a kid, I always enter to my dinasour aunt bedroom π
In my grandma's house where my family live too, my Aunt have the most clean and pretty bedroom. I always enter there secretly everytime she forgot to lock it and will open her wardrobe, drawers and just stares at it. She have alot of clothes, make ups , displays and nail accessories. That time, I always say to myself that , when I grow up , I want to be like her (not a dinosaur π). Will work in Adidas as a manager and will buy like what she have that time. But because I'm still a kid, I just didn't state on that and day dreaming, I play with her stuff and boom! My other aunt caught me with my sister playing the make up ππ. And they picture the evidence π
When I was a kid, I cursed someone to be dead π.
My Aunt have a friend jokingly tells me that when I grow up, he will court me and marry. His statement scares me alot and make me cry hard. I'm just a kid that time and he's already an adult . I always hide everytime he visit and he's aware that I am afraid of him, so he's always tease me more. Because of that , I really pray that - when I grow up, I hope he's already dead ππ. Don't worry , he's still alive today and married πβοΈ.
When I was a kid, I always danced secretly.
Because I have a crooked foot since baby, I grew up without confidence and busy avoiding my bullies. I really love dancing and I know I can dance well even my steps are minimal because of my foot. Because my bullies are always ready to tease me, I dance secretly and I even choreo secretly when I was in elementary π.
When I was a kid, I believed that some people came from a monkey.
I didn't grew up in fairy tales or any Disney stories, my mom always use the bible for bed time story. So since I was a kid, I know that God created human and Adan and eve are my great great great great grand parents π. But I really admit that I easily believe to what other people say specially if I see an evidence π. So when I was in grade 4, my teacher told me to report about caves and how java man live before. I was amazed about my report specially when I memorize it. After my report, my teacher explore it more and tell us that people are came from monkey and we are developed homo sapiens that's why there are people have hairs on body. When she said that, I stare to her arms right away, and I was like - oh, her ancestors are monkeys, cool.. Mine is came from garden of Eden. πβοΈ. Anyways, that's teacher is already a Born again.
When I was a kid, I don't know how to smile in front of the camera if I am solo .
Me having a thick face is also shy on the camera π. My face freeze everytime they're trying to pic me solo. I don't have confident and I really feel shy. So in the end, I look mad π. And you can't repeat the shots because it's a camera with film π.
When I was a kid, I don't sit with my younger brother while eating.
Me and my brother have a punch and bite relationship when we're was a kid. He always ruining my food like, he put some vinegar on my noodles π. And I'll blame my mom why my noodles taste weird π and ending is , my mom will hit me because she thinks that I'm just pretending so that I won't eat my food. But when I found out that my brother did that, I never sit next to him anymore. His cuteness won't fool me anymore π.
When I was a kid, I pretend that I lost my conciousness.
One of my childhood friend is boyish and have a bit strength like a boy too. We had a big fight that turned out really bad and she threatening me that she will going to punch me, because of my pride I said - come here and punch me, and she did ππ. I lost my balance and close my eyes and pretend that I lost my conciousness because if I'm going to get up again, I'm afraid that she will repeat that and it really hurts π. That's really π€¬π.
When I was a kid, my first dream was being a wrestler π.
I know that most of kids will tell you that their dreams is to be a doctor, teacher, fire fighter etc. But me, I want to be a wrestler until I hit grade 4 ππ. I grew up with bullies and I want them to wrestling π. I even took a karate but my dad move me in Arnis because my right crooked foot can't kick lol π.
Well this is my entry for @bmjc98 when I was a kid challenge. And I want to know more my friend @AwakenToLife so I hope you open your account here and join. π€ͺ
For those who to join , check this out
https://read.cash/@bmjc98/getting-to-know-you-more-challenge-when-i-was-a-kid-8246d4fd
My Guy Best Friend
Most of my playmates when I was a kid are boys, so all the games that I mostly played are men's game. Even the way I wear my clothes and talk is a bit masculine (masculine cockroach π). Even in school, I always bonding to my male classmates and talk about wrestling π, because most of my female classmates always talk about "Mara Clara" - famous and longest telenovela in Philippine history just because they can't found the uncle's diary π€¦π. But I changed when I became 2nd year high school, I became finesss and trying to be more feminine because of my crush ππ. And because I'm already a teenager and I know I'm not ugly according to me π, I put a bit wall when it comes being friend to a guy. Until my teacher rearrange sit on her subject and a handsome guy sit 2 chairs apart from me...
This guy have a beautiful eyes - long lashes , chinito and have dark brown eyes, and oh menπ, you can't see his eyes when he started to smile. He has a pearly white teeth and a bit pinkish lips even he's a moreno (tanned)π€. Am I attracted to him? Of course, attraction at first sight, but my interest lost right away when I saw him flirting to others after a few minutes he trying to be cute infront of me π. But after a few days interacting with him,I found out that he's smart, it's just he's not interested in studying, he loves dancing and he's really a great dancer, he's great playing a guitar too while singing. Yeah, a complete package guy - tall, dark, handsome, smart and talented - but flirt ππ.
Because we're classmates and his treatment getting change bit by bit - from being flirty to friendly, me I was like , I want him to be my best friend ππ. So that's what I did, I exert an effort to be his best friend and I get it π. Even though that it's a force boy and girl best friend relationship, I see an effort from him and vise versa. He always partnering me on Physical Education subject , he try his best to accommodate all my friends even he hates one of the guy on my circle of friends, he always treat me during recess,he listen to my tantrums, he always cheer me up, he always protect me every time there chaos inside the classroom and my favorite is, he always introduce me as his best friend then - she's pretty right? πππ.
Because of his looks and talents, he have a few admirers that jealous of me and can't believe that we're best friend. Duh π, he courting my friend and I have a huge crush to Michael ( maybe I'll introduce him to my future article). I just ignore them but laughing inside - " mamatay kayo sa inggit" with devil π laugh. But when it comes to his friends, co dancer specifically - they never questioned our friendship or giving any malice, because one of them is interested on me. Even my best friend knows that it caught my interest ,he never allowed it because that is on relationship and he knows how danger his girlfriend is.
Yes we have ups and downs, we even had an arguments but he always make a first move for reconciliation. I remember when he gave me a letter saying sorry, the first paragraph was - β¦Β "**I saw an old friend of ours today**
She asked about you, I didn't quite know what to say.. Heard you've been making the rounds 'round here.. While I've been trying to make tears disappear".. Familiar? Yeah it's a song lyric of "almost over you" π€¦π. I just found out that when one of my childhood friend read the letter π. I thought our friendship will last for life time, but it didn't happen..
When we reach 3rd year high school, I was really happy because we're still classmates, he even prepare a wooden desk for me and place the arm chair on the left side because I am a left handed π. After a few months, my friend rejected him and he suddenly change. He even talk to me and want some alone time and he's being cold. I gave him space because I know that he's broken hearted and the reason is my friend.
But what I didn't understand that time when I someone made a rude action with me, he just laughed and said that's ok.
It wasn't ok because someone sneak on my shirt and saw my bra, I even cried to him while detailing the whole story but he just said that's ok. I don't know how to react that time, all I have to do is just to leave him from where he sitting that time and control my emotions. I'm the type of person who hide my feelings and that's what I did that time because I don't like argument with a friend, but that's the time that we started a distancing to each other.
Because he was a playboy before and some girls have a thingy to him, he entertain/courting one of his admirer, and the funny things is, we have a similar name, I mean it started in Angel π. Of course, they become boyfriend and girlfriend and her first request was to avoid me because it's not normal to them before the boy and girl best friend relationship plus even he already tell who's my crush that time. Plus, I am a friend to his previous heartbreak. Even it's painful to me, I distanced myself and giveaway to his new lovelife.
We act like we're not classmates and I have to act like he's not existing anymore. I don't know what's on his mind or what he felt , but it was painful to me. But before the school year ended, we had a JS prom that held in diamond hotel and he asked for the last dance.
We became more strangers to each other when we're in 4th year high school. He got alot of problems on his girlfriend because they almost live in one roof which is cause a chaos on their families. While me, busy on other things even on my own lovelife π, actually it's just a crush Life. We just smile to each other , but when his girlfriend is not around, hell ask how I am. I just smile and say I'm ok. When we graduate in high school, I never had a chance to talk to him again , but the good thing is, he marry his angel.
Am I mad at him? No, I'm happy when I found out that he has a big family but I didn't accept the fb request from his wife. I'm not bitter, I'm just being careful and besides, my friendship to him is already end. The last time I saw him was a year before the pandemic. My friend told me that he was just staring before he greet me hi.. if we're still Best friend, for sure, I'm the coolest tita of his kids.
From Talentless to ...
I came from a looking rich but technically poor family π. My parents can't afford to send me in private school where I can take an extra curricular like music, sports, arts etc. That's why I always envy other kids who can do whatever they want because they can afford it but I used that feeling to have a talent. I copy them π€π.
Dancing
I really love dancing since I was child and even I have a crooked foot π. There are steps that I can't copy but I always dance in rhythm and right timing. The first song dance that I tried was "boom shack-a-lack" and followed by ging gang goolie" when I was in 2nd grade school. My aunt have to watch me practicing to protect me from my bullies. When Im in a 5th grade, I choreo secretly the "my Sharona" , why secret? I'm shy and I feel that they will going to tease me because of my crooked foot π. After that, I never practice for me to improve but everytime that there's a mandatory dancing, they can't criticize me because I can dance gracefully ππ.
Singing
Well, I really don't have a good voice and as I've said on my previous article, my directress laughed at me when I joined the Choir π. But now, were dueting in star maker karaoke π€. Even my voice is sounds like a cockroach (never heard a singing cockroach), it didn't stop me to sing in the bathroom π, and disturb my neighbor ππ. But mostly, I'm just day dreaming that I'm the one who singing the song that playing on the radio or mp3. Because I am a music addict, I'm the one who teaches to my friend that always joining in singing contest how to sing the song and the right timing π. When me and my friends have get together and having a karaoke as bonding, I just sing with them without a mic, because all of them have a great singing voice while me have a big hand to clap for them π. Until I joined in karaoke challenge led my great friend that makes me practice every week π. Because of his support and good words, I enjoy the challenge and I practice alot to improve more. And now, I can sing a Whitney Houston song π (in a cockroach version π)..
Playing Kalimba
I always dreaming that I can play a music instrument like drums, piano and saxophone but I never had a chance to get a lesson for it because we don't have in public school and my parents can't afford to enroll me in music lesson. I already tried to play a drums and beat box once and I really enjoyed it, but I can't buy those kind of instruments even I save for it because my grandma and my dinasour aunt will not allow me π. So I got an interest to playing guitar, how many times that I had a guitar but never learned, until now, I have one but I don't know how to play π. And I noticed that my gf always amaze to some people who knows how to play a music instrument, I was like- I have to play even one music instrument, Until I saw a woman playing a kalimbA on YouTube and watch all her videos , and decided to buy it. Then boom! I can play now because it's very easy π, I just have to be a pro and play it in my own style. So I have to practice more. Maybe the harmonica will be next π€.
Crafting
I'm not really into crafting but I need to learn and make a sample for the family business so I search on Pinterest what crafts that I'm going to copy ππ. Then I saw the quilling and string art and make alot of samples of it, I'm not good on it but until now, there's an urge to me to improve my craft on it and use again in business.
Drawing and Painting
I know that I'm already have a talent on drawing but I didn't focus on it. I never asked my parents to make a project for me if it's related in art, I'm not the good but I know now to draw. Even my friend always ask for a help when she was still a teacher and need to draw. I just recently found out that I can paint too π, I just copy my best friend and my gf push me to continue it. Now I paint some pots and wood crafts and going to sell it, but of course, I want to level up and improve more. I want to try to paint in canvas and want to try digital art in the future .
Photography
Before I joined tsu - photography app, I already had an interest in mobile photography. So just timely that I can improve mine, but it didn't happen because I focused how to learn in editing plus my style is very different to them. So when I move in other app, my gf commented once that my posts is always inviting an interaction, because it's genuine and funny. So I was like, so you complimenting my caption because the picture is not that good π. But when I saw my gf complimenting other people because of stunning pic and place, I was like - noooooo! I should be good in photography too even I don't have a stunning place π₯Ίπ. But still, I want to focus on my style - minimalist mobile photography.
I thought my singing voice will not improve because of my cockroach voice, will never learn even one music instrument, and I never expected that I'm going to paint. I did that because I was inspired, I want to be adored too of some particular people, admired and to be proud of too. Yeah! I did it just for it, but improving it for me. Well, I know I'm not still good like others, but I'm still on the processing of improvement. How old I am? I'm 37 years old but still growing. Don't stop learning...
I remember my friend when he told me that I should have a talent, but I answered him jokingly - I don't need that , I'm pretty. But he take it seriously and told me - you can be adored to your simple beauty but it's different feeling when someone compliment you because of your talent. And now, it hits me..
Feel better.. for real π€
My Cash Journey
Yes, I'm referring to my noisecash and readcash journey and I join in same date not because of bch (until now, I'm nosebleed about it), but because of a friend @bmjc98 . At first , she just want me to read her article and ask my opinion about it, until she told me to try the readcash. I don't know what to excuse because she knows that I was using kiki app before, so I just said, I'll join when I buy my new cellphone. The funny things is, I got a problem entering the bluefire app new version and my friend suggesting to buy a new phone π€¦π. When I bought a new phone, I didn't tell mj right away because I know that she's going to open the readcash again , so I secret it with her until noisecash came and make her busy more.
Before 2020 end, she messaged me again to make an account to readcash but this time, with noisecash. So I made an account to both cash just to vent out things but still not interested in bch because I really don't understand about it π. But or course, it wasn't an excuse, what mj did was video how to make an account and a wallet for me to understand easily π. I started those cash first week of January timely that I exit bluefire app, and to be honest, I can't enjoy it because I'm still attached and affected to my previous app even some of my tsu And blue acquaintance are in noisecash.
After a month using of it, I accidentally deleted my own account, but instead to make an account right away, I just took a break for 2 weeks in both cash. I'm still thankful that I got a second account and my username became praxis from angelajoy in noisecash. When I get back, my friend surprised me that's he's already on both cash and that's makes me interested to use it because it's more funny If my favorite person to tease is also there. Because he always allow me to ruin his pictures and make fun of it π.
But because of my clumsiness, I forgot that I used readcash as my vent out and he read all of my articles the related to him π€¦π. He found out that I had a romantic feelings during my friendship to him, so I was like πππ€¬π€―π΅ .. yeah, but he promised that I didn't ruined something specially my friendship to him because he knows all my secrets. I have to kidnap him if we get fight π. So I stop for a while in readcash because of that incident.
I really enjoy noise specially when I drag some of my virtual friends there specially my closest one and meet new real virtual friends too. The battle fun extended to noise and some acquaintance from blue are still funny to interact with. But of course, not only happiness, I also felt sad during my noise because of some misunderstanding and expectations. How many times that I took a break in noise because of my anxiety attacks. The last time that I took a break was last month, but I became active here in readcash so that I can see my progress.
Why I don't share some of my earnings? Because I'm not into tip when I joined, it's because of a friend request. Why I'm still here? Because I'm enjoying it now. Of course, I'm happy for what I received in both cash. I even tried to withdraw before but I failed ππ. I saw my BCH that I have 35 dollars already, so I tried to withdraw it ,but the problem is - I am to slow because I'm a bit brainless π and I was zoned out that time because my friend remove to other place without telling me. I lost my 35 dollars ππ but I didn't mind it because I was more hurt for being left out when my friend keep a secret grrrr πΏ.
So I back to square one until I save again and withdraw again after my last break. This time, it was successful and I use those cash for my cats and my plan for a surprise π₯°. But I'm still not into tips to be honest, it's just a big big bonus to me that I might use those tips for my cats, shipping fee for giveaways or any small luxury for myself.
When I get back from a break, I was a bit disappointed and sad because I gained small tips and I once experience a zero tips. I thought you're not into tip? Yeah, but I want to be a good example of posting original and quality content, don't tip back to spammers even they don't interact,don't renoising low content and always follow the rules. But anyway, I'm still a good example for being patient even I experienced zero tips , low tips and even not eligible before βΊοΈ.
Right now, after 6 months being in both cash - although on and off, I still enjoying it and tips is still a big big bonus for me. I meet different person, and expand my vocabulary by making an article. I hope both cash will run more years.
Feel better.. for real π€
My Dream
Dreams are not big deal to me, not because I don't believe that it has a meaning, it's because I don't even know what's exactly the meaning of it.
I have alot of weird dreams like - I'm running using my two hands, I kill myself just to skip in a tragedy which is killing myself Is more worst π, I am driving on the whole night, and I even wake up myself because a nightmare starting .
I remember when Im staying on my Best friend place in Cavite, I can't attend to my other friend's birthday celebration. I know she was really mad because she's very sensitive π,but of course I'm a bit guilty for not making it. So when I get sleep that day, I dreamesd of her that she was entering the bedroom crying and saying - "why you didn't attend my birthday?" ... And the worst is, she's not walking, she was floating in my dreams like in the horror movie π. I was really scared that time and I don't to go back to sleep, like I try my best just to open my eyes because I'm afraid that it has a continuation.
Well, every time I have bad dreams or a nightmare, it always ended up that I'm trying to waking up myself because because I can't handle the situation. Weird right? But I have two dreams that it's really stuck on my head, the first one is ... Before I go to sleep that time, I feel like that I am going to have flu, so I decided to sleep early and had a dream ....
I was sitting on the stairs when I saw my great friend walking straight to me, touch my forehead and ask me if I am ok. I didn't answer it and just stare to my great friend blurry face. But the funny thing is, the clothes that my friend's wearing is very clear. Then I wake up on that scenario staring at my friend.
Then when I woke up that time, I am already have a flu and when I checked my messages, my friend who's on my dream messaging and asking me if I am ok. I just ignore the deja Vu feeling and answer the message back. We just chat until I got better. And suddenly, I mentioned my dream and tell all the details. And the shocking things is, the clothes that my friend wearing on my dreams, he was wearing that time. I don't know how to react but I was really surprised , shock and a bit scared. My friends keep telling me that it's ok and keep sending me some links that can explain to me what going on. Me, just reading it but my brain can't digest it because of shocks. I don't know, but it's my first time to encounter it and the funny thing is, my friend was also taking an afternoon nap when I am sleeping.
After a month , I had a dream again with the same friend. I was standing on the street talking to my friend on the phone while staring at the beautiful woman saying that she's here and perfectly fine. Then my friend came and stop the car in front of the lady while face other side and start walking away with them with all out smile - like a farewell. A normal dream but it's like saying to me that time that the time will come that we will have busy in other stuff and will walk in different pathway.
And now it's happening ... We rarely talk and encounter. It's hard to share some good things that happening to me or if something bothering me because of time. Atlist, I had a chance to have a great friend like that person who's always ready to be bug when have a spare time π. But now, we have to take different path because of different goals so busyness cut some time for each other.
I know dreams have meaning during bible time, remember when king Nebuchadnezzar had a dream? It has a very deep meaning. Maybe those dreams of mine is a warning to prepare myself and conditioned my mind so that it's not hard for me to accept the situation or to adjust myself. Like what Nebuchadnezzar did when he found out what's the meaning of his dreams.
Feel better... For real π€
Buy and Sell Business
I won't pretend that I am good in making decisions, I always ask the opinion of others specially my best friends opinion. I have only 2 types status in everyday - overthinking or zone out ππ
, but mostly I use the overthinking mode π. But if I need something to do, I always do my best and will make sure that I will be satisfy to the result. What more if I love what I am doing...
When I became active to church as one of the leader , Its hard for me to look for a job because most of them have Saturday schedule which i spend my day in church.
But I have some needs or luxury that I want to buy and I don't want to ask it to my parents ππ. So I decided to try a buy and sell business, and the first product that I sell was slimming coffee. What I did is, before I sell it, I tried it for a week or two, and people see the results on me. I don't need to talk for the product and use flowery words for them to buy, they're the one who looked for me and asked about it. Did I earned a lot? Yes! Because most of my friends, churchmates and acquaintance loves to eat π.
And I didn't stop on that, my friend suggested if I want to sell a bag , so what I did is i bought one and use it. I don't usually use a bag that looks elegant and beautiful more than me π. But I did that time because that's my strategy in selling. And I was expecting, alot of my friends asking where did I bought it and wants to buy it too.
When I loose some pounds after taking slimming coffee, i tried collagen drink for me to see what's the benefits taking it. My skin gets glow and even my hair, and always have a good and long night sleep. And of course, alot of my friends taking it because they saw the results in me, but the problem was, I get back to my former weight π. And it's too late to warn them because the effects pop up late.
And then again my friend who always produce the items that I am selling suggested that I should try dresses, because we in Church wear dress. Even I'm not a fashionista or super duper feminine when it terms of clothing, I wear dress that I know every will like. And again, they asked if I'm selling a clothes too.
Just to complete being fashionista, well, I sell shoes too π, sandals, slippers and rubber shoes. Well, I was planning to sell make ups too but I don't know how to do a makeup because personally, I don't wear makeup.
But I have to stop selling stuffs because my dad decided to have an own woodcraft family business and we need to support him. But while I'm working to the woodcraft, I tried to use journal/diary and joined to some groups related to it. I learned how to decorate my planner with washitapes, stickers and other planner essentials that lead me to buy and sell those kind of stuffs online after a year.
It's only me who selling like this, but what I did was, I checked all online seller and I compete my price. I do alot of giveaways and give some freebies. Did I earned alot? Yes! Because I the Chinese seller always give me a big discount π.
But of course, I have to level up my selling online. I copied the other online seller selling all kinds of stuffs like Kitchen stuffs, gadgets accessories, cleaning materials, clothing and footwear and even food π. And sometimes, I stole some customers of other online sellers πβοΈ.
When the business is out of peak, we have to stop and just timely that I need a break. I have to support the woodcraft business fulltime and do some of my own crafts for it. Plus I need to lessen my stress β€οΈ.
And after 2 years, I tried another hobby that will make entertain and at the same time I can use as an income for the future. I paint pots.
I'll share the details on the future with videos of it...
And I have plan to do this as business π. Will try to sell online next week. I hope alot of people will order like my previous stuffs that I sell.
So if you want to enter the buy and sell business, use it first. It's either the result will talk about it or it's easy for you to explain it because you personally experienced it.
Feel better... For real β€οΈ
Backstreetboys
Backstreetboys known by the 90's kids all over the world. A Boy band have good looks and voice specially when they're blended. They bring the song "Get Down" when they visit the Philippines.
https://youtu.be/0LSYuZRSGcY
But this song and music video didn't hook me, until my classmate in Grade 6 bring her DIY fan with their pictures. She told me what's their name and guessing age. She even discussed all the info and songs of this group and I was like - woah! You're really a fan. But I was wrong, I am more became #1 fan, I bought songhits that have backstreetboys covers and starting to watch MTV and day dream about them, yes! My favorite sports π.
When I go to highschool, I always save my money (baon) just to buy their posters, magazines and songhits. And I always skip school when they're the artist of the month in MTV π, and my teacher once visit me because I'm always absent π. But I can't help it, I always want to see their music video , specially when they released "quit playing games with my heart".
https://youtu.be/Ug88HO2mg44
And that's when I started to have a huge crush to Nick Carter β€οΈ. He's cute right? Anyways, my best friend is also a backstreetboys fan but she likes more AJ McLean. Even all my classmates knows that I am a fan, if you read my article "Barney", I mentioned there that my classmates/admirer/crush that visit me when I was sick, is also a fan. I remember when my teacher requested that he sing for us, he dedicated the "everybody" song to me and he danced it π€¦.
https://youtu.be/6M6samPEMpM
Even my classmates that became my friends became a fan and always sing their songs with me, until one day the transferee student running towards me and told me that she had a chance to email the backstreetboys....
I admit that I'm a bit slow, ok fine - brainless π. When the transferee student told me that, i believed her right away and didn't think twice specially that she show an email letter that she printed. Because I'm poor in English and no idea about email stuff, I was amazed ππ. So she starting to feel close on my circle and keep sharing what she knew about the group. As the day goes by, I'm starting to like her because she's funny and talkative like me π.
But of course, I have a guardian devilπ, I mean Angel π or half half π, and asked me if the new classmate telling the truth, I just said yes. But my best friend just warned me to be careful and didn't tell me directly that she don't believe the new classmate because the backstreetboys are good in English π.
So I continue my friendship with her, and her, continue her stories about being a friend with my favorite boy band. She told me to make a letter for the backstreetboys, i told her I will and ask for help to my neighbor who's close to me like a big sis because Im not really good in english. After a few days, the response came and all of them have message for me β€οΈ. But one thing I noticed, the message from Brian litterel showing that's she's interested on me, and my crush Nick Carter have interest to the new classmate. So I was like, oh really? And I feel a bit sad about it. Imagine while watching their music video "anywhere for you" , I was like - a broken hearted teenager π, because I believed to the respond letter.
https://youtu.be/7pwGOwcHgmo
So her story continues and me still believed on it. When we became 2nd year high school, my best friend and I become more closer with our circle of friends, and the transferee notice it. I tried my best to communicate with her every recess because I don't want her to feel that I'm leaving her. And my attitude as a friend conscience her. She admit that all of her stories was a lie, she just want to be close to me that's why she used my favorite band. She thought that if we have the same interest, I will accept her easily as a friend. I didn't get mad to be honest, because on those lies stories, my best friend always warned me about it plus she still fun to be with. Friendship remains but it gets fade because she distance herself.
Now that I'm already adult, and the backstreetboys still exist, I'm still a fan. Actually, when I get died, I want my funeral song will be "larger than life" π
https://youtu.be/MEb2CecR11I
Maybe one time, I'll play kalimba with their songs, but I have to practice more. Backstreetboys makes my music world happy and thrilled. All their songs will never get old to my heart.
Feel better... for real β€οΈ
My 2 Ugly Kitten
I already introduce my first fur baby ASUL - a kitten that leave outside the gate. I titled it "ASUL" and "my comfort zone, his jail".
When I adopt ASUL, he has wounds under his eyes and his fur looks dirty even I took him a bath already. We just stayed in my bedroom for a day for him to be comfortable . He's thin and gloomy but his eyes are amazing because of its color - blue, that's why I call him ASUL. Even my brother is on my side when I adopt him, he keep teasing my cat that he's not cute , and I should buy a breed one. I didn't listen to him just focus to ASUL's health.
ASUL get smell easily ,that's why even some of my Virtual family keep advising me to stop taking a bath ASUL, I keep doing it π, even he scratch and bite me. Because of that,his fur became more white and he looks neat now. I even bought a mouth spray, wipes, all cat essentials just to keep him clean and looks cute. Why? Because it's more painful to me when someone calling him ugly or I should buy a breed cat.
I even post him in noisecash just to know the opinion of others about him. Because he always act weird, I posted him with funny comments with funny posing from him. ASUL is a smart cat, he know to communicate with me, he knows what to do if he wants food or he wants to go outside. He loves playing, you know what his favorite game? Fetching .
https://youtu.be/1w2vOvZLjQE
And the funny thing is, he have favorite Lullaby..
https://youtu.be/aCoeOigMm-E
Because of his eye and unique character, he loved by many even he's just an ordinary cat. Because he loves playing, I have to play him for 2-3 hours a day, so I decided to get him a playmate. So I adopt Ljubav.
Ljubav is just a one month old, have skin disease, malnourished and smells wound. Ljubav means love (lyoo-bav). When I get her , I was like - oh man π€¦ another challenge for me and for sure, they will tease me again for adopting another ugly kitten. And I am right! They asked me again why, and expecting that my wallet will be drain more because they know that I won't stop until Ljubav get well and looks nice.
But it's not only my problem, because when I brought Ljubav in my room, ASUL keep hissing and growling on her. He even gave her a punch twice on the first day π. I haven't a good night sleep from first night, because ASUL keep wrestling her when he noticed that I'm already sleeping. I have to sleep in between them so that Ljubav can sleep continuesly.
At day, I can play ASUL Lullaby so that he can behave , but I can't play it at night because Ljubav is not a fan of it π.
https://youtu.be/xhMgvZ11j0I
I am always exhausted because of them,I can't even paint because I have to watched them . Both of them have the same attitude when taking a nap, always at my back. I have Already a sign of backpain because ASUL keep sleeping on me since Ljubav came, it's like he's getting my attention, so I can't move for him not to disturb. So far, I can't eat peacefully, I can't drink my coffee peacefully and you will always hear me yelling to ASUL π. But I see to it that Ljubav is safe , getting better and improving. I make sure that ASUL will not feel jealous or left out - I know the feeling lol π.
I never cat call ASUL, I always say Tara - come in english. And I always talk to him like a kid, as if he understands me. And thats what I am doing to Ljubav. You know what's their similarities? They sleep in the same position and they both always mad at me π. They're my jing and jang of my days now.
I'm going to post their life on my Instagram...
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Jing and jang
Pray for your Heart
Do you pray for your heart? Most of us pray for others heart, like - we're praying that people that we love will love us back, it's either a Friend, a family or a lover. We also pray that those people who hurt us or causing our heartache change theirs and ask for forgiveness. What if they don't? What if the people you care about and you love won't love you back? What if those people who hurt you won't ask for forgiveness? What will you do?
If my bullies have in the mood to bully me when I was a kid, I just go home , listen to music, create my world and day dreaming. After I finish my homework and have more time, I listen to music,create my own world and day dreaming. After I help my mom on his take home work and household chores, I listen to music, create my own world and day dreaming. That's how rich I am, I have my own world π. Actually, that's my routine just to escape in the reality that my heart is not ok because of some people hurt me at the very young age.
I carry the burden that eats me for how many years, and busy avoiding my bullies to bully me. Maybe that's why my first dream was to be a wrestler, because I want to wrestler them π. Music and day dreaming - those routine save me from sadness. What am I day dreaming? I am Alex in the series of "the secret world of Alex Mack" ππ. And all the music that I listen to is my soundtrack. ππ.
If you're interested to know what kind of TV show it is, here's the link .
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_World_of_Alex_Mack
It's a comedy and slightly thrilled, she has a funny guy best friend, helpful sister and a cute guy crush,which I am imagining that I have one too ππ€ͺ.
I keep doing that routine as my anesthesia for my heart that always aching because of those people who hurt me and keep hurting me. Maybe at the back of your mind- why not pray for them? I did. I prayed that I hope they realized that what they did to me was wrong. I prayed that they asked a forgiveness from God, I prayed that I hope they can sleep at night despite what they're doing to me or what they did to me, I prayed that what they did to me won't happen to them, and sometimes I pray that karma will hit them, so that they will have an idea how painful I was when they wronged me πβοΈ. Or atlist God touch their hearts so that they can ask an apologies from me and their conscience won't bother them.
But you know what's funny? I'm the one who praying but I'm the one who suffering by torturing myself. I am praying that despite what they did, they can sleep in peace , rest in peace πβοΈjk. But I'm the one who have sleepless night. I am praying that their conscience won't bother them, but I'm the one who have anxiety. I also pray that atlist they feel what I am feeling so that they will have an idea how painful it was, but I'm the one still hurting. I am praying to the heart of those people to be cleanse, but I'm the one who need it. They enjoying their lives while me still suffering because my heart can't forgive them and it's wrapped of my bitterness.
Why we're always like that? When someone we know that wronged us, we pray for them and hoping they'll know how painful it is and expecting an apology from them. Why not pray for our own heart to soften enough to forgive them even they don't ask an apology? And strengthen it enough to face another trial?
That's what I did 2 decades ago ( don't count my age π). When I saw all people who wronged me facing another day with a smile, enjoying their whole days with their love ones, hearing them laughing with their friends and going to church praising God. While me, eating my bitterness, living in the fake world (day dreaming), pointing them that it's all their fault why my childhood become miserable, don't go to church, and let evilness running on my head. I prayed for my heart. I prayed that give my heart strength to forgive them and have a happy heart. The process is long and painful but it's worth it. I didn't face it alone, I face it with God and let Him to handle my heart with care.
So every time that I feel someone wronged me, I always pray for my heart, because it's too sensitive and fragile and asking to give me enough understanding and wisdom. If those people wronged me didn't ask an apologies it's their choice not mine.
Did I still day dreaming? Yesπ€ .. I already become a girlfriend to Nick Carter of backstreetboys, Justin heartley as green arrow of smallville, Jerry yan of F4, Korean actor song joong ki and Chinese actor Wallace Huo πππ, my heart is a play girl lol π€£.
Feel better... For real β€οΈ
My 1 Year in College and Mr. Superman...
When I stopped in college when I was 16 because my mom lost her job and I started to work, I go back to study at the age of 23 and took education course. My aunt (my mom's older sister which is a dinosaur too π) convince me to study again and she will give a tuition fee and allowance. I accept the offer even the consequences is I have to face her weekly to ask for itπ. I love her of course but every time she visit us in the house, I always hide on my bedroom (her bedroom before π). Why? Who wants to encounter a tyrex weekly? πβοΈ
I enrolled late because when my aunt decided to bring me back to college, the classes is already starting. Timely that my friend is graduated on that school so she just lend me her uniform. My first week was very busy because I need to catch up on previous lessons that I didn't took up because I am late. And as I expected , I'm one of the oldest student in the class, the first one is on her late 30's , the second one turning 30, and me 23, the rest of the students are 16 years old.
I thought I can't mingle to my young classmates, but nah! They're very cool and fun to be with. Even they call me ATE (big sis) I'm not exempted by making fun of me and no dull moments when we're together. My schedule is not that good because I have 4 hours break before the next subjects, so either I spend it on the library or searching on the internet cafe which is included in miscellaneous fee. If both have no vacant, I just read my Bible in the bench. So all my classmates knows that I have a bible in my bag, and the funny thing is, I'm not allowed to go with them when they have session ( drink alcohol), because they think that I will preach them about it and will read the bible like a priest in front of them π (they just teasing me coz I won't do that).
As one of the ATE in the classroom, I always support them to all activities that they want to join like basketball, volleyball, cheering , pageant etc. Even I want to take a rest because we don't have classes, I go to school just to watch and support all my classmates who joined basketball and volleyball. I even checked them while practicing their steps on cheering and bring some food. And I'm the one who help in the backstage when they join in a pageant. Tiring but I enjoy it and I love doing it, I love supporting a friend.
And of course, I have my own story when I was still studying there, I saw a super duper cute guy in a gym on my Physical Education subject and he looks like superman - Brandon Routh. Don't worry, he's not one of the student there, he's one of the high school teacher on that school and just timely that his subject have the same time with mine. I secretly staring at him because when my classmates find out that I have a thingy on him, for sure they will tease me alot. Not to brag, but my classmates caught him staring at me while he doing some steps (exercise)on his students, and the teasing moments begins π€. Of course, I won't deny that I feel thrilled and I'm shouting out of joy inside (Ang landeee π€π) .
After a few days, he asked my classmates what's my full name and cellphone #, they didn't think twice to give all the info about me. We started texting and add each other on friendster and yahoo messenger, the Facebook was just new that time so he don't have it. My classmates keep asking me what's the score between us, I just said that we're just friends and he's not courting me. Because they're still young and naughty, they texted the guy and said - if you're interested and serious to ATE Angela, follow us in this address. After a few minutes, he's already outside the gate and I was surprised because I didn't expect that. So he started to court me, I want to keep it a secret in school specially to education department because he's a high school teacher and he's a bit famous because of his looks. Plus he have a few admirers on my department because he's a good basketball player. But they found out right away because he always walk with me when I'm going home.
I told to one of my friend that someone courting me in school and she wants to meet him first. So I invite him to my church first and will visit a friend later for him to meet her. So he came, but he smelled cigarette. I just ignore it because I'm not a girlfriend to nag about it. Most of my churchmate stares at him wondering who he is and stares at me with a big smile. After the service, I pull him right away going to my friend's house to avoid people who's interested to know him π. And finally, my friend who always late in news meet my crush/suitor first π. At first, every thing smooth, until he act differently , he eats like he wasn't eat for a week and act like he is on his own house. He tried to be funny but he wasn't, so me and my friend stares to each other and she whispered - where did you pick that guy? π...
So while we're walking going back to my house, I told him that I'm going to off my phone and will not online for 3 days, I need to focus on my studies because my midterm exams will coming up and he said ok. Of course, study first before lande (flirting) π. Because the one who paying my tuition fee was excellent in school.
After the bloody exams he didn't message at all and he even snob me in school, I was like - ok.. well, I was turned off to what he did last time that we're together and my classmates found out that he courting someone else. I didn't mind what happened but my classmates thought that I was hurt and took a revenge π. They texted him while pretending other people and set a meet up. They gave the right street but a wrong # of a house, you know what makes him to go there? My classmates told him that she's alone on their house π€¦π. Oh him, because my classmate is a guy πβοΈ. After an hour searching for the house, he go home nothing happened and didn't had a chance to have a mingle.
My classmates told me the whole story and I warned them not to do it again because I'm perfectly fine and I don't care if he court now someone else, but too late because they texted him again to meet up in 7eleven near in school π€¦π΅. And I saw him there waiting for nothing and I gave my classmates a tiger look because of what they did. They promise that they won't do it again while laughing .. at the back of my head I'm still thankful that my classmates who's a friend and a little siblings to me always there to protect and makes me laugh. Yeah! I laugh secretly to what they did but a bit worry coz it will be a big problem if Mr. Superman found out that they're playing with him.
What happened to Mr. Superman? He got a girlfriend but keep denying it because he still courting other girls too. And the funny thing is, his current girlfriend message me in Yahoo messenger just to ask some info about him, what happened between us ( he didn't denied it).. and asking for a help..What help? Let me start on this...
After a few days, I became more busy because of final exams and I always stay in the library. But one time, there's no vacant there so I go to school internet cafe with the gang. My classmates noticed that the staff sending signals to each other on what cubicle they will put me, and they gave the space for the staff only. One of my classmate message me on messenger what they noticed, I just said I don't care because I was busy in searching , And the 2 staffs was staring on my screen trying to find out what's my ID so that they can add me and message me, but after they found out and send some messages, I blocked them πβοΈ.. hep! I didn't know that was them, they bothering me π. I just noticed that they keep typing and will check my screen π€£. So I asked them why, they said nothing π.
After a few days going to the computer room, they leave a message on the screen of my computer that I am using asking to unblock them on messenger πβοΈ. They already know my name because of the logbook. My classmates teasing me that I have a long hair because another guys blinded by my beauty lol π€£. But entertaining them is the reason why the current girlfriend of mr. superman got a connection with me. They're friends!
The girl messaged me and asked me what happened, I just said that we didn't click. She even asked what kind of a guy Mr. Superman is,I just said I have no idea because we just go out a few times. And besides,I'm not the right person to answer those questions. But she didn't stop, she tried to be friends with me and keep sending quotes. She add me on friendster, yahoo messenger and Facebook, i just entertain her with limitations. And Mr. Superman keep snobbing me, but sometimes I caught him staring at me during my P.E. A day before the final exams, my aunt talk to me that I have to stop again in college because of her financial problem..
So I was like - ok .. that's ok with me. So I have to tell it to all my classmates that next school year, they won't see me again inside the school but they can visit me on my house. And just timely , the girl asked me to text Mr. Superman to ask him how is he, what's new about him and tell her what will be the answer. I don't like that kind of drama, but I did it because I'm planning to cut my ties to the school staffs ππͺ.
Text:
Me: how are you? Someone told me that you're in a relationship with (name of his gf)...
Superman: I'm good but I don't know what are you talking about. I'm still single and just focusing on teaching After you rejected me.
Me: oh ok. - bye ..( I didn't answer the next text from him because I didn't rejected him and no plan to entertain him again.)
And I send all the messages that came from Mr. Superman to his GF and block them on all social app and I change my # ...
I really enjoy my college days and Mr. Superman add a spices on it π.
They said " every superman needs a wonderwoman" .. nope! He need to be hammer π¨ π ..
Feel better ... For real β€οΈ
My Get-Up-and-Go
All of us have everyday responsibilities, if you're a student - go to school, finish projects and pass the exams.... if you're an employee - go to work and finish some paperworks or whatever your job is... If you have your own family - doing household chores, taking care of them etc. All of us have different way how to motivate ourselves to survive for a day, to get things done, Or to keep us going even when things are extra heavy.
Other people motivate their self by reading motivational books, listening to some motivational speakers, meditation, knowing their why, settling a goal, making a to do list and so on. They even surround their self with positivity , write and focusing on their progress, or giving their self a break.
But I want to share what motivates me when things are extra heavy.
PAIN - I am surrounded of people that keep reminding me what to do, or do something that will make myself busy, but it doesn't work unless I'm already in pain. Last year when anxiety attacks me, I'm trying to ignore it but it reflects on my attitude. I get irritated easily and I don't filter my words when I'm talking to others that lead to misunderstanding. But when I explode, I don't have any choice but to face it, accept it and cry. I reflect all my actions and meditate, I even read some articles that will help me how to move on, accept my bad situation, and how to face my problem that time. Not that easy and even the process is more painful but that's the only way to recover. And I use that PAIN to motivate me not to do that again, not be to fooled again and to better myself.
JEALOUS - yes, there are times that I feel jealous. The second to the last time that I feel that when someone trying to compete with me, and someone's attention is the price. But of course, I didn't get that price π, so I use my jealousy to improve myself on that craft. But not only that, I was trying my best to complimented and make a good impression by having many talents or atlist I have some crafts that I'm really good at, but others got it instead of me. I was like - what's wrong with me? Can't you see I'm great too? , But of course it's all in my mind. What I did was, I use it again to improve myself,improve my crafts, learn other things and to learn to mind my own business π to avoid expectations. Because only true friend cares, loves you and will be proud of you even you just accomplish a little like taking a bath every day π
COMPETITION - I didn't make it in to college because my parents can't afford it and I thought it's not a big deal but it is. I feel small every time they introduce me with other people who have degrees and have a great job or title. So what I always did, I'm competing them secretly just to motivate myself to have a self study and make my own path and be successful on my own way.
FEELING LEFT OUT/FADING AWAY - of course when I feel I am being left out, being ignored or fading away, I'll feel pain and I'll feel jealous and because of that , I'll compete with them just to make sure that I won't be left out. But I get tired too. If I didn't treated like the way you treated others, I'll do my best to level up with that kind of relationship/friendship, but if I feel that no matter what I do, I am nothing on you, I'll talk to someone that will slap me the truth and will open my eyes. I'll use your treatment to motivate myself to make a distance from you. I will not mad or sulk, I'll just distance to protect my heart.
Pain, jealousy competition and feeling left out is a negative vibes but not my process. I use my flaws to motivate myself to improve, to move forward and to better myself. And I do something that I won't feel stuck, like Changing my mindset, go outside and breathe, put my mental clutter into writing,Do something creative, changing my routine, clean and organize my bedroom, imagining the best version of myself by improving myself physically. And of course, always pray to God and ask for guidance.
Rise up, take courage and do it. Ezra 10:4
Challenge by: @JonicaBradley
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