There are moments in life that I feel not okay.This is the moments that I dont want to do anything. This is moment that I don't understand myself. I don't know what I want. I don't know what to do. Someone says that its okay not to be okay sometimes but its not forever.
Not all the time I am at the mood to talk.This is the time that I need to be alone. I need to refresh my mind and talk to myself alone. Being alone is not being selfish its my way thinking about my action If I'm doing right or not. Talking to yourself alone is not being crazy but a way to realize your actions and a way to internalize yourself.
Not all the time I am happy, there are moments in my life that I don't feel happy even though what I am seeing is something beautiful. I don't want to force myself to be happy, feeling happy should be natural and should be seen in the eyes. Forcing yourself is not being healthy for you can't fake emotions .
Not all the time, I am productive. This is the moments that I want to do something but I don't have the courage to do it. For I feel lazy even though I am healthy. So, sometimes I set aside works for tommorrow hoping for my better condition.
Not all the time I feel hope. This is the moments that I lost my faith. I stop hoping when I already know its the best for me to gave up especially when I know that I already did my best. Sometimes hoping should not be lost in our self for that the last thing we can do. But the thing is when you know that its better to gave up, give up already and hope for another thing. So that you can can focus to the things that needed your attention.
Not all the time, I am at the mood to face people or probably most of the time. This is the time that I want to be alone. This is time that I feel like to go somewhere. This is the time that I want to hide myself from people. Its better to be alone than faking myself with other people. As possible I don't want to force my self liking people who don't want me as part of their life.
Not all the time I am good and kind.This is time that I feel like people around me taking me for granted. Instead of saying yes I learn to say no. Its time for me to think about myself. I don't want people abuse me for no one wanted to be a victim forever. Being not good and kind sometimes is not bad your just giving yourself to breathe and a chance to give people to work and to be responsible also.
Not all the time, I am healthy.This is the time that I feel sick. This is normal to get sick. Maybe becuase I overwork and not giving myself a break. Being sick is the indication to take care ourself and to be careful of what we are doing and eating for we suffer more than what we expected if we're not being careful.
Not all the time, I am taking advice. This is the moment that I am blinded of what I am doing. Sometimes I am that hard headed causing me trouble in life for I feel like I am always right and I thought I already know whats the best for me but its a big NO. That's why sometimes considering people's advice is not bad especially when all they wanted is for your own good.
Not all the time, I don't get want I want. This is the time that I'm waiting for something but I couldn't get it or I'm waiting for nothing.This is the time that I feel upset but this is not the reason to get angry and disappointed forever for not all people get what they wanted in life. Its part of living to get disappointed to test our patience and how we can response to something when we don't get what we wanted.
Not all all time, I am visible. This is the time that I feel lost. I don't know where to go. I don't know what I'm doing. I forget what I'm fighting for. I couldn't help but to feel lost especially when no one understand me. But I need to get up for nothing help me but myself.
Not all the time, I am strong. This is time that I feel like I am weak physically and emotionally. Sometimes I got depress for many reasons. Sometimes I am comparing myself to other people why I am like this, why other people have so many talents. Why I don't have one when others are good in everything. I know I should not compare myself to other people for I know that I am also unique to them but I couldn't stop myself comparing to others. But I need to stop this if I wanted to grow and to appreciate myself also.
I feel all of those, because I am not a perfect person. My life is not perfect for there are times that I feel weak, unhappy, alone, lost and hopeless. Maybe this are not normal to other people but this are normal to me. Its already part of my life and I think its part of my growing as a person. What important is you know how to stand up in every pain and challenges that comes our way.
Learning our weaknesses or our own self is something we need to do so that we know how to address it and help ourself to grow productively and responsible in the future. Never stop knowing ourself its for our own good and happiness.
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