@Yen 13 August 2021 more from that month

My kind of break ups.

I fall in love a couple of times and everytime I fall in love I thought that love would last forever but I was wrong. I experienced different kind of pain causes by break up and I thought it could gave me a lesson but not. I remember everytime I am broken hearted , I always find myself holding a glass of an alcoholic beverages and then used the " *being drunk* " to release all my pain in my heart. I experienced to be fooled and I experienced to be cheated and I know it's a karma on me because I experienced to be a cheater too. I experienced to let go of a man because of the circumstances. I experienced to be left on nowhere. I experienced being a cheater and leave my boyfriend because I am in love with someone else. It is so funny when you thought of the idea that the guy that you love once will turn to a guy that you hated the most. It is so funny when you love the guy so much but end up with being strangers. But there's also an instance that you are both mature enough to accept the fact the you are not meant for each other. So this article is inspired by the article of @Marinov about her exes. I choose to share my experience to my ex boyfriends after break up. ***The nice guy.*** I broke up with this guy because he didn't enter the college. I know I was immature that time but my standards back then was I want a guy who is studying because of course I think about my future and I think about what other people might say. It's like when people asked about my boyfriend and I am shy to tell that he was out of school youth. We had a relationship when he was in fourth year High School and I am on my first year college. He was my churchmate before and we also met there. So after we broke up , he still message me with no bitterness and wishing me to finished my study and be successful in life. ***The defense mechanism.*** I broke up to this guy because I realized that I still love Mr. Nice Guy. This guy was my college classmates and I broke up with him on our OJT days. He was really in pain because of what I did resulting that everytime he saw me he pretend that he didn't see me. When my friends ask him about me , he would say , whos that? I didn't know her. I understand why he was like that because I cheated on him but we have given a chance to talk after our break up and I apologized to everything. He said he only did that for defense mechanism so that he can hide his pain. This is the guy on my article about my first dance in the acquaintance party. ***The soon to be daddy.*** I broke up with this guy because he cheated on me and then the girl got pregnant. I told him to be a father to his future little one and don't repeat the mistake he did before. Yes , when we were in relationship he has already a daughter and he didn't recognized his daughter even if I said to him that he need to support her. Then he repeat the mistake again. He got married to the girl and after two years he texted me saying it feels like he was on the wrong destiny and he's not happy on his relationship but I told him to always pray so that there relationship will be stronger. I still viewing the account of this man not because of feelings but because the mother of his first daughter and I were friends and sometimes we chatted about this guy because I always told her to ask for support. ***The hot air balloon.*** I am not the one who asked for break up but him. We were so happy in our relationship until one day he asked for break up without even know the reason. He left me hanging thinking of the reason why he left me until he came back to explain everything to me and I try to understand it. He wants to prioritize his family and need to go overseas to work there. We are in good terms now , still friend on Facebook and happy because he find a girl that he deserves. He wants to see me when he went back here in the Philippines but I refused. It's better to avoid temptation because he has a girlfriend that time. ***The private man.*** Like on the hot air balloon , he's also the one who broke up with me and he also broke up with me with unknown reason. Just one night he texted me that we need to end up the relationship because it's never gonna work out anymore. And one of the things I thought why he said that was because I am so immature posting all of the happenings in our relationship. After he broke up with me I got wasted and I try to win him back but he said he was already in relationship. I asked him who's that girl but he said " *No reason for you to found out and I'm happy with a private relationship " .* But even if he said that I still keep on texting him until one day I decided to move on then I met my a guy who is my husband now. Before we got married this guy message me as if nothing happens , as if he didn't broke up with me and avoided me. It's 12 midnight that time when I woke up because my phone rang and it was him. That time I told him that I am pregnant and soon to be married. I cried a lot because he didn't gave me the proper closure and questions still hanging on my mind but after that phone call I received the closure that I needed and he said , sometime people will come to our lives to teach us a lesson and then leave after. After the phone call I cut all our connection. As of now I don't have any news about them as I choose not to have contact with them though the two of them are still my Facebook friends.