These days the days walk by quickly.
I don't know why.
Maybe it's me who has become distracted by life.
Sometimes it happens that you deliberately put a part of your consciousness to sleep just to not feel pain, but then you get used to it and continue.
So you anesthetize yourself, as a defense.
First your knees full of bruises, then your heart, and then, when you just can't take it anymore, you get to drug your soul.
You are tired.
Your pile of bones is heavy and dragging it has become a burden.
You often remain silent. No one ever notices, because no one ever really looks at you, it becomes pointless to explain that there is so much wrong. You simply don't say it, you leave it in the background, that it's not needed.
Nobody wants it.
Loneliness remains the only safe place, the only welcoming home where, paradoxically, there is no lack of smiles, authentic smiles. To others you dedicate the forced one, the one without explanation, the one they want. It doesn't matter how you feel.
They won't ask you how you are.
You always lie so well that everyone always believes it.
©Yelena b.
Time - Pink Floyd
https://youtu.be/JwYX52BP2Sk
#asongforyou by @Yelenab
This spider hated me a lot!
I tried to shot him the nearer possible but the web started to shake every time I got across, at the beginning I thought it was me touching it with my phone but then I realized it was him!
That amazed me so much that, it was his way to send me away...!
So I just said 'ok buddy I won't disturb you anymore if you stand still just for a shot...'
I came across this song some years ago.
I am not so fond of Italian music even tho I am Italian but this group is so amazing!
The lyrics of their songs are poems so true and so beautiful.
This one is a little story of a love, consumed but still alive, the story of 2 lovers who just have decided to walk together in this path called life.
"I like about us
Precious moments in which we observe ourselves
The possibility of choosing
Will never make us as free nor as complicit as knowing how to do it
That today I stay because you need me
Tomorrow I will want to because we will have a dream
In your gaze there is a summary of who you are"
'Mi piacciono di noi
Preziosi istanti in cui ci stiamo ad osservare
La possibilità di scegliere
Non ci farà mai liberi né complici quanto saperlo fare
Che oggi resto perché ne hai bisogno
Domani vorrò farlo perché avremo un sogno
Nel tuo sguardo c'è un riassunto di chi sei'
Come il suono dei passi sulla neve - Zibba e Almalibre
https://youtu.be/uUvNvvkvi7E
#asongforyou
Some songs have a name not just a title.
You just have sawn it in their notes, hidden it between the lyrics, your soul whispers it in silence every time you listen to them
So the music goes and the box with all your memories opens up and you just see them dancing like feathers in the air, mixed up with old words, voices, feelings.
Everything melts in an indistinguishable unique sound...
Smooch - Afterlife
https://youtu.be/8fov0r9L7oc
@Pedja enjoy ;)
#asongforyou by @Yelenab
I (un)fortunately live in the city, green areas are so few!
But there is the sea, it may be polluted due to the port and to the river Tiber, but it's my element.
I think I could not live anywhere else than here... Maybe I was a mermaid in another life😜
I have long walks on the sand during Winter and Spring when the air is full of salt and the sky is clear.
Nothing can go wrong when you are at peace with your inner soul.
A glass of wine, great music playing, the smell of roasted potatoes from the oven.
Outside it's dark and kinda silent, few car moving, no other sound than these familiar notes flying in the air.
I've spent this day going back and forth, September means beginning of the school and get the inevitable end of Summer...
I feel puzzled and sometimes worried, things are never as I wish but I have to resist and be positive.
Do you know Paul Hardcastle?
I love him, his music takes me out of this world making me feel a different person...
It's a lovely night for dreaming big...
Don't you think?
Don't you know - Paul Hardcastle
https://youtu.be/b3vQcSNtWPM
#asongforyou by @Yelenab
Meadow
You are strong, Ale
No, I'm not. I go on and on saying that tomorrow will be better, if it's not it's okay.
I'm actually a 5 year old girl who hasn't grown up and enjoys the things she hasn't experienced.
So I get very excited and I don't give time to fear to kill this little childish spirit of mine...it has made me happier and lighter.
I don't fly super high, I'm not capable yet!
I'd like you to understand, my friend, that we are all a meadow of flowers, apparently all the same, all scared, but we are there, each one with a detail that makes it different, and on each one of them the bees, the butterflies and a myriad of other small animals rest...
They will get 'dirty' with the diversity of each one: it will be that pollen that will end up on other meadows and you want to know what's extraordinary?
More flowers will be born, and they will all be our children.
[2017©Yelena b.]
We are human and moved from instincts and impulses.
Many of us are fragile and sensitive, many are insensitive, hard at heart, mean.
The only thing that fears me is the lack of love and those who use love just to hurt.
It's better to be fooled than fool, cos Karma is a 'biitch' and the bill to pay for cheating is always too high.
The Asphalt World - Suede
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=gLnc4RZLDDU&feature=share
Good evening Noise Mates
Lately I'm so busy, my duties at work are very long and fatiguing but when I come home I always have some time to get pics!
There is a very small flower blooming can you spot it?
This Sunday is soon going to end... I'm just enjoying another sunset now.
Have a great evening guys!
My heart married you
A raindrop around my finger
A cloud as a witness
On a grey day, after a journey to reach you
And with a life to forget you
[2020©Yelena b.]
Il mio cuore ti ha sposato
Una goccia di pioggia intorno al dito
Una nuvola come testimone
In un giorno grigio, dopo un viaggio per raggiungerti
e con una vita per dimenticarti
[2020©Yelena b.]
I do - Edie Brickell & The New Bohemians
https://youtu.be/KT2AN5hIcW4
Living with a cat
Living with a cat means having a king as a tenant.
Have you ever stopped to observe them?
They are incredible beings, they are perfect.
Mother Nature designed them to be incredible.
I have had the good fortune to share my life with many felines, I have always been very fond of them and I realized that I had a special relationship with all of them.
Each cat is different, they have their own character, while maintaining some common traits, such as the mania of the boxes.
When I was a little girl I was given a totally blind kitten who (at least that's what my mother tells me because I don't remember him very much) I could make do whatever I wanted.
I had a shoebox with pieces of fabric cut out of it that I used as sheets, the kitten was my son and I sent him to bed, tucking him in. The kitten obeyed!
He would get put inside the box and covered up lovingly. I never hurt the animals, I love them too much.
Growing up I continued to adopt cats, even though I knew that their fate, often, is to die prematurely. A free cat always risks, the dangers are many, the wickedness of humans is the worst danger.
And it is a pity, of course we lose out, by far.
A cat gives things that make you feel good.
A recent study has discovered that the frequency of their purring is a natural sedative for us; stroking a cat lowers blood pressure; living with a cat is living in harmony with yourself.
A cat chooses you and stays not for the house, but also for you.
I currently live with three beautiful felines, two females and a male; of the two females, one is grumpy and a little reluctant to be cuddled, but I understand: she suffered from epileptic attacks for many months and a little bit changed her. I cuddle her anyway, so she knows that nothing has changed for me. The older female is the cuddly chubby one of the house, given her chubby tummy, she weighs I think over 5 kilos, but that doesn't stop me from holding her anyway, I know she likes it!
Then there's Billo.
He is something else, we are linked by an invisible thread: even with 50° he sleeps on me, sometimes he knows when I need to be reassured and then he snuggles up close to me, looking at me with those wonderfully big eyes.
Everyone thinks I'm lonely because I don't have a life partner, but they don't understand that love is not only between people: true love is in the soul of all the things that surround us, but you will never find a purer and more unconditional love than that of a proud and special being like a cat.
If I managed to overcome certain obstacles it is also thanks to them, who slyly filled part of the gaps I had.
They taught me to measure tenderness and to reserve it only for those who deserve it.
[2018©Yelena b.]
Text and pics belong to me, all rights reserved.
You may know or may not know him.
In my imagination (a little kid of 9 years old) he was my hero.
I first watched a KISS video in 1979 on a local tv, my brother was a big fan of them so he bought the album Dynasty, a vinyl I still have in my collection.
I was timid and insicure, but their music made me feel free, good and it has accompanied me since then.
When I'm down it is the only thing that cheer me up and recharge the battery full.
Ace is no more a KISS member, but he is still my hero: he has fell many times, has made many mistakes but he had the courage to change.
The song for tonight is instrumental, the 4th part of 'Fractured' serie, first appeared on his solo album back in 1979.
Fractured Quantum - Ace Frehley
https://youtu.be/RUwZQXBPDiw
Enjoy!
There is a lot to say about 9/11
You can choose to talk about political, religious, strategic reasons for what happened.
Or you can just stay silent with the same terrible feeling of pure terror for all the people who were dying helplessly.
9/11/2001 still means pain in my heart while I was watching those 2 high immense Towers coming down as a burned stick of incense...
I don't want to know the reasons why it has happened, I just want to remember those who bravely enter those Towers to save more lives as possible and have died doing so.
Honor to all the firefighters, paramedics, police cops that have died doing the most human thing... Save lives
Brothers in arms - Dire Straits
https://youtu.be/jhdFe3evXpk
Pics from Usa Today, all rights reserved
#asongforyou #9/11
Tell me, did lying give you satisfaction?
And tell me, did lying give you satisfaction?
Has it fed your heart?
You don't have a heart, you have an immense wasteland watered with anger and lies, a place so dry where the wind of pride blows and grows the only plant you eat, conceit.
You need caresses, but one who offers Nothingness like you, when he gets them, he doesn't recognize them.
You are like an old pc, obsolete, but beautiful in its antique, vintage, collectible look.
Those like me, if ever they had a feeling for you, once they have tasted the bitterness of your poor soul, they decide to put you in a shelf of memory, they would cry for a while I know, however, with time, they would learn to look at you with the eyes you deserve.
One day, looking back, among the thousands of women you have f@cked, you will remember that little caress made of love that you received. The one you refused.
The hand that gave it to you, that knows by heart the edges of your cheek and even more the blade of your words, went away from you. She knew very well that she would not see you again, she understood how pointless it would be to live with your empty disposable.
There are choices you make to save yourself and sometimes, giving up the poison rather than letting go of it, changes your life for the better.
Now tell me, are you still falsely happy?
[2018©Yelena b.]
Text belongs to me, all rights reserved.
Many years ago I discovered this amazing artist, he is a guitar player and composer from Norway.
I don't remember why I came across one of his songs but I had and immediately fell in love with his sound!
Gianni, a friend of mine, uses to say that a good guitarist does not have to use so many notes to make a great assolo and I agree:
The heart you put playing makes the assolo unforgettable!
Listening to this makes me feel free and super happy!
Unfortunately there is no YouTube video for this amazing song, just Spotify.
Blue - Terje Rypdal
https://open.spotify.com/track/5IXDqCm3aawaWJajZoUrow?si=eeOEwaEVTfKnveNodVAvXw
Good night Noisers!
Pic taken in 2016, after groceries 😁
It has been a long long day, I am truly tired and just stepped by to say hello!
Hope you all had a great day!
We are in the middle of the week already!
Soon il will be Friday again.
I want to wish you good night with a soundtrack, a very particular instrumental piece.
Hope you'll like it!
Line to strain - Jinguji Saburo
https://youtu.be/w-okjVyjDi4
Sweet dreams
It's still so hot for my cats!
Here is a bored Billo, in his very strategic position in front of the window, trying to catch the breeze coming from outside.
I already fed them before going to work today for a late duty.
How amazing that animals feel the approaching time of feeding! They know that I give them food at a certain time every day so they start meowing asking for it!
#thethreemisCATeers #Billo
As a teenager, in my dark time (I think we all had a dark time in youth) I used to listen to many genres.
I remember in 1986 I attended an English Course in a Private International School in Rome with my 2 cousins, Andrea and Fabrizio.
Fabrizio was older than me and was a musician, so when my uncles guested me in their house for a month while I was studying, he introduced me to Led Zeppelin, King Crimson and Traffic.
I remember my difficulties in learning because of a totally different approach to English with a new grammar... I had to literally 'forget' what school had taught me till then... And restart again!!!
So during at night I used to look at the black sky with all lights off, writing poems in English and listening to my Morrissey songs...
And this song always take me back at one of those 'dark' nights....
John Barleycorn must die - Traffic
https://youtu.be/icyPFsIcAV0
Enjoy!
(Pic taken 2 days ago during my long walk on the beach....)
No longer
You no longer have time to cry
All the old tears that you have put away in the shelves of your silence
You no longer have the same eyes to look at yourself with pity while you see yourself making mistakes
You no longer have that little mercy, that you kept on rainy days but the sun was ou
You no longer have the time to scold good-naturedly the little girl you wer
The one who took refuge in a world of her own, when the world of adults was too scary for her
You don't keep the hopes they took away from you and you don't even want them
You have learned at your own expense
that the ill-gotten gains are taken away
And the tears always burn in the same way
Especially if in defense you keep covering them with a 'it's okay it's just another day of ordinary lack'
[2019©Yelena b.]
Text belongs to me, all rights reserved
September always takes a lot of fluffly big clouds!
They seems high mountains of cotton candy!
Soon the wind will push them away...
I'm home from work not tired as usually luckily, it was a calm morning!
How is your Sunday so far?
Ready to go to work but with no willing to do it! Yes I know it's a counter sense but it's my feeling lately... I just need to keep going for the next 2 months, untill the previous restaurant I worked at before covid will be reopened!
Will I make it?
I really hope so!
In the meanwhile I just try to cheer me up with some music
And here it is, a tune that stuck in your head and makes you dance...!
Can't stop that feeling! - Justin Timberlake
https://youtu.be/ru0K8uYEZWw
Happy Sunday Noisers 😘
Good night Noise Mates
It's 10 past midnight here in Rome, my son and I went to Ostia for dinner and then had a long walk by the sea...
The air was so fresh!
Unfortunately there was so little light to shot a good pic!
Anyway this is my good night fot today ☺️
A classic of Arabian Music
Enta Omri - Hossam Ramzi
https://youtu.be/ceGmCUBkOQQ
Sweet Dreams to all!
Is there a song that makes you go back to a certain memory every time you listen to it?
I mean a song so deeply linked to a precise period or a specific person that always always recall of it at the very first notes?
Mine is this
Holding back the years - Simply Red
https://youtu.be/yG07WSu7Q9w
It takes me back to 2009 when I started to rethink about all my life... and have started a little revolution to become the person I am now.
The crazy me.
Here is my new t-shirt I bought from a friend of mine who is very creative and makes many homemade artistic objects!
You can visit her insta profile
https://instagram.com/la_punkarella?utm_medium=copy_link
Sunsets are always a surprise... Not even one is like another even tho it happens every single day.
Yesterday the sky was completely covered by very dark clouds, a storm was approaching but not at West!
I was there on my terrace just enjoying this awesome view!
Happy Saturday Noise Mates!
Time to say goodnight my noise mates!
Tomorrow I will catch up with everyone, I'm so tired this evening that I keep falling asleep and waking up with the phone in my hand!
But as promised, I'm posting 2 version of Lupin III (Money Punch) Theme Song!
The Ska Version by Tokyo Paradise Orchestra
https://youtu.be/Tw0gtpBlWrE
And the superbe Jazz version!
https://youtu.be/9G2IIkEvC8c
I'm sure you're gonna like both!
See you tomorrow!!!!
It was back in 1981 when I first listened to this band, they were so crazy and weird and their music always made me dance a lot!
Ska is that genre of rithm that makes your feet move and you just can't help it!
This tune makes me feel good and brings back a smile when life is not so kind to me...
Hope you'll like it!
~I'm just a-walking in the sunshine,
Leave your troubles all behind you,
I think I'll drink a little red wine,
I'll take you where they'll never find you.~
Walking on sunshine - Bad Manners
https://youtu.be/TyZ0HRbFDSE
Illusion is ugly devil
Illusion is an ugly evil, one of those subtle and bastard, infamous ones.
Before recovering from a burning disappointment, you go through a lonely and particularly terrible hell, you let yourself be eaten helplessly, without being able to prevent your ruin.
You collapse into a million pieces while standing, so that no one sees your suffering, no one considers you weak.
And you are, extremely fragile like a very thin crystal, poised in an unstable and precarious balance. In those moments everything makes you lose your center, you decide only to save what can be saved, or at least what is worth keeping in spite of everything.
They tell you to let time take care of itself, that things heal themselves, fading, but you know very well that it is not and will not be like that: you just let yourself pass away, while you collect yourself, in silence.
Have you noticed how much silence they bring?
How much space they dilate?
It took away your desire to talk, to converse with others and with yourself, as if you lost all the words you had.
I have piled up many of our words in a sort of niche inside me, in a very specific place, unable to lock them away, they are a daily echo, but they don't always taste the same. Sometimes they hurt more than others... I can't say how long this will last, I only know that disappointments are not a choice, but a rather cruel game of massacre and whoever deludes should pay a high price...
Instead, only the deluded suffer.
... He who has no heart, it is said, does not die of a heart attack.
[©Yelena b.]
Text belongs to me, all rights reserved
How old are you today?
How old are you today?
I'm not talking about the registry ones, I'm talking about the soul ones, the ones where you breathed harder and your heart went crazy.
The ones where all the excitement and all the terror of being in love but never really being loved by anyone entered.
How many years were hidden in the worst memories or the best ones?
Looking at you now would you know how to love again or would you rather remain invisible to everyone, so quietly ignored?
**Beg...**
**Asking...**
**Begging...**
Did you ever realize how useless you were in their eyes, you always available, so lacking and in need of affection and so invisible to everyone's eyes.
**Invisible...**
Now it's not so bad after all.
You get used to it and let loneliness embrace you, you've lived with it all your life, it's the only magnanimous monster you know.
How old are you today, after all this time of going down the wrong paths and falling?
Today that you've realized that everyone else has been lying to you all along?
[2019©Yelena b.]
Text belongs to me, all rights reserved
Affection is the most precious gift,
the most powerful one: it manages to heal tears that no one sees, no one hears, no one knows.
It puts back the rubble and settles the cracks, I don't need gifts, I just need that unexpected gesture, that small thought that is spontaneously dedicated to me, it makes me feel good.
Thank you to those who dedicated a moment to me... you performed a small miracle, you make me come back home.
[©Yelena b.]
#asongforyou
Trinity River - Havasi
https://youtu.be/5KjG1jXEXe8
Inverting colours using Snapseed app
Have you ever tried?
Just moving the curves up and down and see what's the subject looks like!
The colours always become so weird and strange so it happens that a tree seems made of cristal or ice!
Happy Thursday Noise Mates
Weather is fine and I feel better than yesterday night...
@Yelenab
